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[open] it's time to tip it off

who: cisco + anyone!
what: catch-all
when: july
where: anywhere; if you want a starter, please hit me up!
warnings: discussion of sex & drinking

i. tech testing

[ Most of Cisco's work is done within the privacy of his workshop, but there comes a time when he has to leave and find a nice quiet place to actually test some of the tech that he's made. The one time he'd done so outside the wall, things had gone very very badly. So he makes a compromise, finds an alleyway that is within the city but deserted. Sure, he might blow up a dumpster or two and make quite a racket, but he is less likely to get attacked by monsters here, and if anyone disturbs him he can just tell them to clear out.

That's the theory, anyway. But some of the stuff he brought with him might be a bit more powerful than he'd intended... ]

ii. nesting

[ Cisco had been very tentative about his new living situation, at first. He didn't want to get too comfortable, in case Yuri changed his mind, or Eddie got sick of him. But after a few weeks, with no signs that they want him to leave, Cisco starts to think about maybe settling in to his new room. It's fairly stark, still - just a bed, some sheets, and an old couch. All his clothes are still in bags, but the first thing on his list is some dark curtains for the windows. He was never meant to be a morning person.

He can be seen in various shops in the quarantine, looking at furniture, rugs, curtains, etcetera. Cisco's not above asking random strangers for their opinion, either. ]

What do you think, this one or this one?

iii. misc

[ Come plot something! ]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

[While Cisco is agonizing over their hands still being connected, Eddie is mostly oblivious to any concern - he's holding Cisco's hand because it feels good, because he thinks maybe Cisco needs the connection right now, the contact. It feels right, to keep that connection, because whether or not they'd passed on from the difficult part of the conversation, left behind the intensity of it, the emotions aren't quite gone, and Eddie thinks it's right to acknowledge that.

When Cisco shakes his head, Eddie grins.]

Smart man.

[And then Cisco is grinning at him in that mischievous, smirky way and holding the bottle up, makes his call, and hands Eddie the bottle.]

Wow. Starting off with the cheap shots, I see. Cold, Ramon. Very cold.

[Lifting the bottle, he takes a swig from it, about the same size Cisco took, and hisses a little at the sweetness of the liquor.]

God, we're going to have hangovers tomorrow for sure, with that much sugar in there. [A pause, and he licks his lips, tilting his head a bit as he looks over at Cisco.] Hmmm, let's see. I'm gonna try not to be as cheap as you... [A wink, and then-] Never have I ever set my own hair on fire.

I'm pretty sure my body is immune to all sugar-related effects, by now. I've built up a resistance slowly, over many years, through dedication. Like iocane powder.

[ And now that Cisco has shown Eddie that movie, he has absolutely no excuse not to get the reference being made. Eddie is right, though. They should maybe make sure they have water on hand in case of emergencies. If the power and water aren't fixed by the morning, things are going to be even more miserable if awful hangovers are involved.

Eddie's next suggestion earns him a little scoff as Cisco plucks the bottle from Eddie, tilts his head back for a quick gulp of the stuff. ]

I'm a mechanical engineer, Eddie. Setting your hair on fire once is practically in the mandatory pre-reqs to graduate, right along with thermodynamics and non-linear waves.

[ Whether those are two separate classes or one required class is really up to interpretation. But Cisco doesn't leave Eddie much time to ponder the question as he quickly moves on to say: ]

Never have I ever... cheated on anybody.

[ A step-up, in terms of emotional stakes, but also very mainstream and nothing pointedly about Eddie there. ]

[Eddie laughs brightly at that comment, the pain from his burns completely forgotten, because Cisco made a joke reference and Eddie got it and he feels weirdly elated about that. He probably shouldn't, but he does, and it's a little silly. Like a kid seeking approval.

Grinning at Cisco as he takes a long pull from the bottle, Eddie laughs at the comment.]

Look, I'm just a humble police detective. I have no idea what the pre-reqs are for mechanical engineers, it was just a shot in the dark. Apparently I have good instincts, though, which is a pre-req for Criminology.

[A little grin, and he raises his brows at that question. He's not surprised Cisco hasn't, and it's nice to be able to completely honestly respond.]

Nope. No drink for me. I'm not the type. And hmm....never have I ever...dated a coworker.

[ Cisco just nods, when Eddie doesn't drink. It was what he'd expected, that Eddie doesn't seem like the cheating type. But then, it isn't as if there's only one type of person who cheats. And who Eddie is now isn't necessarily who he always was. Goodness knows Cisco is unrecognizable compared to his younger self.

Still... he kind of likes that it was a no.

Eddie's crack about instincts and Criminology doesn't just get a huff of laughter from Cisco - it catches him off guard, and the timing and delivery just make it so funny that it gets a full-blown laugh. ]

Does somebody who's in the same class as you count as a co-worker? [ When Eddie gives a shake of his head 'no', Cisco pointedly doesn't drink, explaining: ]

I might not've always made the best dating decisions ever, but at least I've avoided the 'date a coworker, break up, everybody gets a slice of the awkwardness pie' scenario. Points for me, I guess. Now, let's see. Never have I ever...

[ Cisco pauses, smile getting a touch smaller as he thinks. If he asks what popped into his head, he'll be pulling the trigger on something that might be a bit serious. But... it's something he's wondered about Eddie. He wants to know. Is it worth asking like this? After another few heavy moments of silence, he decides to go for it: ]

...told my family I like guys.

Edited 2017-07-27 04:01 (UTC)

[The smile on Eddie's face only widens when Cisco laughs, and it's just another thing he feels inordinately proud of, his face going a little pink. It's stupid, that making Cisco laugh should seem like such an accomplishment, but it does, probably because Cisco is so funny and Eddie's never thought of himself as very funny. Making Cisco laugh like that feels good, and Cisco's laugh is so genuine, so nice, especially after seeing how upset he'd been earlier. It's refreshing. A relief.

And when Cisco says that about the 'date a coworker, break up, everyone gets a slice of the awkwardness pie' thing, though, Eddie does wince a little bit.]

Yikes. I managed to do that without dating an actual coworker. Dating his daughter somehow made it even more awkward. And, uh...does it count if someone else told them first and then I had to confirm?

[When Cisco frowns and makes a non-committal noise, Eddie laughs softly, and takes a drink.]

Mm. I'm taking the drink because I need it after that memory. God. One of my mom's friend's kid saw me making out with a guy at a club in college and Facebooked her. Not pretty, but it was okay in the end, you know?

[Tilting his head, he raises his brows a little.]

Never have I ever... [He hesitates for a moment, but ends up giving in, his curiosity piqued by that comment about Cisco not having made the best dating decisions.] ...had sex on the first date.

God, Eddie. That's awful.

[ Cisco's face is all softness and sympathy. Knowing what it was like to be young and closeted, and knowing Eddie's fondness for extreme understatement, a situation that was "not pretty" must have been damn terrible, indeed. It makes Cisco's heart ache, thinking about it. Young Eddie, feeling like he was somewhere safe, where he could be himself. Happy, and expressing affection for someone who felt the same. And then some douche came along... ]

What a snitch! I mean who does that?! Who is that shitty and lonely and hateful and stupid?!

[ He is all righteous indignation, wishing he could teleport and time travel himself back just to sock that random person for doing that to Eddie, for outing him, just because they could. Cisco lets out a short, frustrated sigh, shifting restlessly. Fortunately, there is the game to distract him a bit from his worry and vicarious indignation.

Cisco can't help his initial reaction to the prompt: it isn't as overt and animated as some of his expressions, but his eyebrows raise just a fraction, eyes widening when Eddie says he's never had sex on a first date. He's just... surprised, by that. And it doesn't take long to make the connection that if Eddie hasn't done that, he almost certainly hasn't skipped straight to the sex without a date at all. But no time to think about that; Cisco lifts the bottle without a word and takes a small drink. The mere fact that he doesn't launch into a single anecdote of a time he did is maybe a bit of a hint that it hasn't only happened once. Or maybe Eddie will just interpret that as shyness. Hopefully the latter, though it won't matter much if they keep playing this. ]

Never have I ever... gone streaking.

[ Eddie had done Sports in college, right, that seemed like the sort of thing that a group of Sports Boys might do together. It's still a touch riqsué, but not overtly about sex... ]

[When Cisco bursts out like that, Eddie blinks, a little caught off-guard, and when Cisco asks who's so shitty and lonely and hateful and stupid that they'd tell his mom about it, he actually laughs softly, and shrugs.]

I don't know. I guess I never really thought of it that way, you know? It just seemed natural, all of my friends and the kids of my parents' friends were like that. You see someone doing something that isn't socially acceptable, and you tell. Especially with my dad being a conservative politician, it's like a warning that it's cover-up time. My mom and dad were really upset for a while, but they settled down the next time I had a girlfriend, like that erased it, like it was some kind of experimental thing, I think because it would've been a big scandal. It's never come up again since then, so I think they just pretend it never happened.

[Shrugging a bit, he watches Cisco's reaction to the question about sex on the first date, and blinks. It's like Cisco is ashamed of it, of having had sex on the first date, and Eddie feels bad almost immediately. It isn't that he had any kind of judgement about it, it was just...]

You're a braver man than I am. I'm way too self-conscious to have sex that fast, you know? I have to know the person and that they're gonna like what they see.

[A little smile, and then a wince at Cisco's question.]

Also the reason I'm not going to drink, by the way. Never gone streaking.

[A pause, and then-]

Never have I ever...had a pregnancy scare.

[ Cisco listens quietly as Eddie explains that mindset, and Cisco isn't necessarily surprised by any of it, but it does sound absolutely wretched, to him. The gossip, the cover-ups, the hypocrisy, the pain it must have caused for his parents to just erase a part of him like that. How many other things about Eddie had they just pretended never happened? How much of their son did they just pretend away?

So when Eddie calls him brave, he can't just fake it and say yes, he is. Instead, he shrugs, and finally moves his hand out from under Eddie's, using it to tuck back his hair behind his ear and then fidget with the cuff of his pajama pants. ]

I wouldn't say it was bravery. Um... kind of the opposite. Like... [ Cisco pauses. He should really just quit talking now, while he's ahead. The facts aren't nearly as damning, if he just keeps his mouth shut about some of the reasoning behind them. Eddie will just think at worst he's a dude with a libido who went to the right clubs. But it feels... wrong. Not telling Eddie the truth. Like he's hiding something, or even lying. So he shrugs, and keeps going: ]

...if you're pretty sure there's not a lot worth wanting about yourself, it's like, any time somebody actually wants you, you're not gonna say no, are you? Of course not. Gotta... make the most of it. Beggars can't be choosers.

[ Which is just about the most pathetic thing Cisco's ever heard, and he's saying it about himself. The funny thing is, from the sound of it, Eddie didn't hold off on sex because he had standards, so much as out of self-consciousness about his body. And of course, treacherously, that makes Cisco think about his body and how very thoroughly he could make Eddie, given opportunity, forget what the word self-consciousness even means...

He has got. to stop. thinking. like that. ]

You're kicking my ass at this.

[ Cisco's smile goes a bit crooked and embarrassed, part grimace, and he takes a quick, small sip. He can definitely feel the rum just a little, now, so he is being careful not to drink too much for any one question. Particularly since, it would seem, Eddie's lived a pretty damn virtuous life, by comparison. ]

Only once, and it only lasted about a day and a half. Still pretty fucking terrifying, but not a very interesting story. We'd been dating three weeks, she was a couple days late and panicked, but it was all good.

Edited 2017-07-27 05:03 (UTC)

[When Cisco pulls his hand away from Eddie's and explains why he'd slept with people on the first date, Eddie's head jerks up a bit, and his blue eyes search Cisco's face for a few long moments. Brows furrowing in confusion, he purses his mouth and tilts his head, exhaling a soft huff as he looks at Cisco.]

What? Seriously? You think that? I don't...

[Eddie leans back a bit, and lets his eyes sweep up and down what he can see of Cisco's body, from his hair and face, down the long line of his neck to his broad shoulders and the soft thickness of his hips and thighs. Even his hands are nice, where they tug at his pajama pants nervously. After a moment, Eddie's eyes slide back up to Cisco's face, lingering on his mouth for a few seconds before flicking back up to his eyes.

Suddenly, Eddie feels strangely fluttery, a little flushed, because he's never really stopped to look at Cisco that way before. He's always been aware that he's cute, with his bright smiles and long hair and colourful personality, but now that Eddie's looking at him in more detail, trying to figure out why Cisco thinks there's not much worth wanting about himself, he's really registering that...well, there's quite a bit to want about Cisco Ramon. Heart thudding hard, he swallows thickly, and glances off to the side for a moment before drawing his eyes back to Cisco's, because there's no way Cisco is going to believe what he's about to say if he doesn't make eye contact.]

Well, I really hope you got over that one, because I took a good look just now, got a nice solid eyeful, and there's a lot worth wanting about you. Okay? You're not a beggar, so you should choose whoever you want.

[Eddie smiles at him, hoping the flickering orange light of the candles will hide the flush, and laughs a bit as Cisco takes a sip.]

Oh man. That sounds awful. I only avoided it by good luck, like...the girls I was with were like...on three kinds of birth control.

[A beat, and then.]

Your turn.

[ Cisco's had enough rum for his head to be a bit buzzy, but when Eddie breaks off talking like that and looks him up and down, he notices. How could he not notice? But it's hard to read Eddie's expression precisely, in the dim flickering light from the tea candle. Cisco's never exactly been an expert at that kind of thing, anyway, the way Eddie is. He tries, but sometimes he just has no clue.

All he sees is Eddie giving him a once over, and Cisco feels his face burning in embarrassment. Eddie may be kind, but he's dated Iris and Taako, and Eddie himself is one of the prettiest people Cisco's ever met. When Eddie looks away momentarily, swallowing, Cisco's heart sinks. He's certain he knows what is happening. Eddie must be scraping around in his mind for something, anything, worth complimenting. Which is just... humiliating.

But when Eddie speaks, it doesn't sound like pity. Not even close. It sounds like he really, truly means it, and Cisco lifts his gaze, shock obvious on his features. His heart is beating too hard all of a sudden. He feels a brief, awful thrill of something that is stomach-churningly like hope. Eddie, getting a solid eyeful, thinking there's plenty about him worth wanting.

Cisco's emotions might work faster than his logic, but it catches up after a couple of seconds. There's an unhelpful little voice in the back of his head, reminding him that there's a big difference between Eddie telling his friend with low self-esteem that "there's a lot that someone else might want about you" and Eddie telling a man who he might ever be interested in "there's a lot that I might want about you." Cisco has been doing just fine until now, knowing that the latter of those two is never, ever gonna happen. He can't go ruining that by hoping for impossible things. Even if it is a little awful, hearing Eddie tell him that he should be choosier, and then smiling at him like that, all those cute little creases around his eyes.

Cisco does what he's gotten good at doing and he shoves all those bad feelings up into a tiny little ball, tucks them away under a fake smile that's actually one of his better ones. He gives a little shrug, pushing his hair back again and saying simply: ]

Thanks.

[ He is glad to move on with the game, and as soon as Eddie prompts him, Cisco blurts out the first question that comes to mind: ]

Never have I ever been sailing.

[ That's a totally WASPy thing to do, right? He can probably win at least one round with that. Or at the very least, the two of them can have a good laugh about the type of person who does go sailing for fun. ]

[Eddie sees it, that moment where Cisco's head jerks up and he looks at Eddie in a sort of wide-eyed shock, and he feels suddenly incredibly self-conscious. Like he's said something wrong, offensive. Like he's crossed a line in their friendship that he shouldn't have crossed, maybe. Like Cisco can see right through him and tell that it was more than just a compliment to a friend to cheer him up, but that he really did take that eyeful and see some things about Cisco's body that he's really attracted to in a serious way.

But he can't unsee it now, can't not notice the way the fabric of Cisco's pajama pants stretches over his thighs, can't not notice the long, lovely line of his neck, or the way his hair falls around his face and shoulders. Licking his lips nervously, Eddie forces himself to keep his eyes on Cisco's face to avoid looking too awkward, and tries to ride through it. Then, of course, Cisco is smiling at him in that way that almost-but-not-quite looks real, his mouth a tiny bit tight at the corners, and Eddie wants to sink through the floor, his face going red, and he can't keep it up, he falters, his eyes flick downward and he avoids eye contact for a few moments. It's obvious that he messed up, that Cisco isn't entirely pleased, that Cisco knows what's up and doesn't like it.

So the moment Cisco mentions sailing, Eddie seizes on it as a change of subject to try to push the awkwardness of that conversation behind them. He immediately takes the bottle and tips it back, takes a long swig from it to calm his nerves and tries to switch tracks in his brain while he has the bottle in front of his face. Lowering it after a moment, he offers Cisco a tentative half-smile.]

I've been sailing a few times. It was really nice, actually. I wonder if you can do anything like that here. I've heard there's an ocean but I don't know if it's safe or worth it. Sailing is really fun though, I'd love to take you. Maybe on the river sometime.

[He's babbling a little, he can hear it, because he's self-conscious and feeling super awkward about saying Cisco is attractive. Licking his lips again, he glances up at Cisco's face, exhaling softly, trying to calm himself down.]

Um. Never have I ever...

[For a moment, he hesitates, tilting his head and looking at Cisco before a slightly mischievous smile crosses his face.]

...been to church and a gay bar on the same day.

[A moment after he says it, he realizes it probably would've been best to draw the conversation away from the topics of being into men. Or attractiveness. Or really, dating or sexuality in general. But apparently his brain is one-track right now.]

[ Eddie's answer is just so earnest, with a tiny hint of anxiety behind it (or is he only projecting?) that Cisco can't make the sort of rich people jokes he'd been about to. Instead, his smile softens into something a little more natural and genuine, and he suggests: ]

Maybe um... kayaking or canoeing on the river? Never done any of that, either. Could be fun. I'd love to go.

[ The hesitation and the smile make Cisco sit up a little straighter with anticipation, nodding, urging Eddie on. When he finds his way to the actual thing itself, Cisco tilts his head back with a delighted laugh. He laughs hard enough to wipe away those last cobwebs of awkwardness, and beckons Eddie to hand him the bottle. ]

You know what? Honestly... more than once. [ Cisco sounds more amused than anything else. He takes a quick swig. ] My parents were very big on mass, but also not very big on caring where I was if I wasn't around at night, so.

[ He says it matter-of-factly, with no particular emotion behind it. Cisco's told Eddie before that his parents never cared much about him. It shouldn't come as a complete surprise. He thinks about what he can ask next, and his brain goes back to that kink expo, where he'd run into Eddie. About the display Eddie had been near, when he bumped into him. Maybe it's a bad idea, but now that the thought has occurred to him, he can't quite resist. Cisco leans in a little bit and says, just a touch pointedly: ]

Never have I ever handcuffed anybody... [ He leaves a little pause, but holds up a finger to forestall Eddie saying that that is unfair, since Cisco knows he is a police officer. After an appropriately dramatic pause, Cisco adds: ] ...in a sexual situation.

[At that suggestion, Eddie perks a bit, his eyes brightening as Cisco suggests kayaking or canoeing, and nods.]

That'd be great. Both of those are really fun, I especially like canoeing.

[Eddie smiles brightly, eyes on Cisco's face as he abruptly laughs, loud and thrilled, and Eddie hands over the bottle as Cisco looks at him with that happy expression and then takes a drink. The expression fades a little when Cisco clarifies that his parents were big on mass but didn't really care about where Cisco was when he wasn't around at night. Normally, Eddie would assume that they just weren't controlling, but something about the way Cisco says it, without any particular emotion, and with the knowledge that Cisco has said his parents don't care much about him. For a few moments, he considers saying something about it, trying to gently push and make sure Cisco is okay, but then Cisco is leaning in and pinning him with a dark-eyed gaze that makes Eddie's heart speed up a bit, because there's something hot and intent behind it and after realizing his attraction, it's making Eddie feel a bit flustered.

When Cisco asks his question, Eddie starts to breathe a sigh of relief, at least until Cisco pauses and then adds that last bit, and Eddie's mouth snaps shut. For a moment, the expression he gives Cisco is a little shocked, eyes wide, and then he goes bright red and covers his face, groaning into his own palm.]

Oh my god.

[Reaching out blindly, he takes the bottle from Cisco and takes a long drink, then drops the hand over his face and looks at Cisco with his face so red he's sure the other young man can see it despite the fact that the candles are starting to flicker a bit in the background.]

Fine. Yes. I may have handcuffed someone in a sexual situation a few times, but...look. Don't judge me for my tiny dirty cop fetish.

[Licking his lips, Eddie takes a steadying breath, and then leans in a bit more, making eye contact with Cisco for a moment.]

Never have I ever been handcuffed in a sexual situation.

[It's curious, because of the wording of Cisco's initial question. Eddie's trying really hard not to think about it, about the image of Cisco handcuffed, arched and whimpering on a bed or the floor or...

No. Nope. This is not good.]

[ Eddie really is much too cute for words, when he's embarrassed. It cracks through the surface, his polished symmetrical beauty and makes him look just a little goofy. Just a touch more human, and real. Cisco's grin goes from ear to ear as he watches Eddie hiding his face. The flush reaches all the way to his ears, and that is really something else.

He makes sure Eddie gets the bottle without spilling it, watches him take not just a sip but a very big drink. Should he not have gone there? But then Eddie is admitting to it, and he doesn't sound humiliated, or unhappy. When Eddie tells him not to judge, the words are barely out of his mouth before Cisco's interrupting: ]

Dude, I wouldn't-

[ Wait, did he just say a few times? As in more than once? Had he just really said the words 'dirty cop fetish'? Cisco hadn't even really considered that. He'd just been imagining some more standard BDSM, but it makes sense. A lot of sense. Too much sense.

Eddie leans in, too, and Cisco gets that he's doing it to mirror him, to be funny, but that has officially brought their faces within the bubble of "maybe a bit too close". And then Eddie turns his question right back around on him, and Cisco really doesn't have anyone to blame but himself. Trust Eddie to see right through that careful wording. There's just... no way around it.

Wordlessly, Cisco takes the bottle, gives a little smile and shrug like "you caught me" and takes a drink that's just as long as Eddie's last one had been. He needs it, though. Because there's just... no ignoring the synchronicity of it. Eddie had handcuffed people. Cisco had let people handcuff him. It feels... precarious, and exciting.

And right as he's about to open his mouth and pose some other just-a-bit-too-dirty I-never, the tea light on the table sputters once, twice, and goes out. Cisco hadn't realized, that the few he'd lit had been going out one by one, that they were down to the last. The room is plunged into sudden, pitch darkness. It's evening, now, and the heavy storm clouds are still blocking out the sky outside. Cisco can't even see an outline of the couch, or Eddie, or anything at all. He sucks in a sharp gasp, but doesn't say anything. ]

[Eddie's not humiliated, not by a long shot, just embarrassed to have a friend asking about one of his fetishes that he's never really discussed much, that he's never really openly admitted to except to partners. It's kind of a relief when Cisco says that he wouldn't judge, or at least the first half of it before he trails off, and Eddie peers at him for a moment in the dim light, still flushed.

Of course, that only lasts half a moment before Eddie's flustering again as Cisco seems to register that he'd said a few times and the comment about the dirty cop fetish - or at least that's what he assumes that Cisco is registering. For a few moments, Eddie feels like he wants to die. Then Cisco takes the bottle back with a smile and half-shrug and drinks at his question, and some of the tension eases.

Eddie barely has a chance to really think about the fact that he and Cisco have both done the handcuff thing from different sides, to imagine them doing it together, before the tea light blinks out and leaves them in utter darkness. He can hear Cisco's little gasp of surprise, and Eddie mirrors it, his hand reaching out blindly and connecting with part of Cisco - his side or stomach, Eddie thinks. Dropping his hand in what feels like the right direction, he realizes a moment too late that he's settled it onto Cisco's thigh and swallows hard.]

Sorry. Sorry, I can't see anything. Did we light all the tea lights?

[ Cisco feels Eddie's hand running into his stomach, startles a little at the unexpected contact. But then Eddie is gripping at his leg, and Cisco doesn't have more than the quickest flickering thought of how high up his hand is. He's just glad for that connection, considering the sudden loss of one of his senses.

Eddie's voice sounds tense, worried - exactly how Cisco feels. ]

I, um.... lemme check.

[ Cisco knows the answer is 'yes', but he doesn't want to just say that. Maybe he'd missed one, maybe... ]

Stay here, don't move, I'll be back.

[ And he gets to his feet, feeling along the couch, and then breaking off into the much scarier open space away from it. He makes slow progress towards the kitchen, finds the counter with his hip (more gently this time) and feels across the top for more candles. There are none, of course, which he'd already known. But he does find the lighter, which he flicks on with hands that are shaking a little. Had the lights going out really given him that much of a fright?

By the light of that lighter, he makes his way back to the couch, flops down again, a little bit closer to Eddie this time, so his knee is touching Eddie's. Cisco can see that there's not a whole lot of fuel left at the bottom of the lighter, of course, because they have no luck at all. ]

There's no more. [ He worries his lower lip with his teeth, expression regretful and apologetic. ] I shoulda lit them one at a time, and not all at once, like a total fucking idiot. I thought the power'd be back by now.

[ The sound of the rain is still loud as ever, pounding on the roof, and Cisco shivers. Again. Is it just him, or is it weirdly cold, considering how warm the last week or so's weather had been? ]

[Eddie can feel that slight startle, and apologizes again, quiet, just under his breath, and then makes a noise of acknowledgement when Cisco says he'll go check. Eddie is still on the couch, his head turning to follow the sound of Cisco's movements, squinting into the darkness, his hand moving to the back of the couch so he can hang onto it, trying to make out the shape of Cisco in the darkness.

Seriously, with the sound of the rain falling and the slight greenish tint to the darkness, the whole thing is super creepy. Wincing a little, Eddie keeps his head turned toward where Cisco is in the kitchen until he sees the sputtering flicker of the lighter going on, and Cisco calls that there's no more, explains why. Eddie shakes his head.]

You're not an idiot, come on. I thought the power would be on a lot sooner than this too. I mean. I don't actually know how long it's been either, because it feels like no time at all. [Eddie smiles up at Cisco as the younger man comes back to the couch, sits down with his leg pressed against Eddie's, and Eddie can see him through the faint flickering orange light of the lighter flame.] It's been nice spending time with you.

[A pause, and he sucks in a breath - he's starting to feel a chill too.]

So, I'm guessing that puts an end to 'I never' but...I know I'm definitely gonna need something to keep my mind off all this once the lighter runs out. Any ideas?

[ Cisco briefly thinks of saying they could keep going with the game, but the fact is he's already pushing the edges of drunk, and he doesn't want to get any drunker. Not if he's going to be stuck with Eddie in the dark. The absolute last thing he needs right now is to get wasted enough that he lets something slip or, god forbid, make some kind of ill-advised pass at Eddie that'll make him uncomfortable at best and totally sabotage their friendship at worst. ]

Probably best. I'm kinda rum-d out.

[ He hasn't forgotten, this time, what Eddie said earlier about the dark. While the lighter is still illuminating them some (though the tiny flame on top is already smaller than it had been), Cisco locks eyes with Eddie, expression grave and purposeful. ]

Hey, Eddie, look at me. I'm not going anywhere, okay? I'll be right here. You won't be alone.

[ The lighter flame sputters once, and Cisco takes that as a sign to snap into action. He moves the aloe and the open bottle of rum onto the coffee table, far enough away that they probably won't knock them over. He grabs the blanket from the other chair in the living room and brings it to the couch. Without saying anything else, he wraps the blanket over his lap, and Eddie's, curls in against his side just as the lighter gives up and goes out. There's a sound of scraping as Cisco tries to relight it, and a few little sparks are visible from the flint, but there is nothing. Cisco tosses it onto the table gently, muttering: ]

So much for that.

[ This time he's the one reaching out, patting around until he finds Eddie's arm and wraps his arm within it, anchoring them together. And he shivers again, asks abruptly: ]

It's like... cold, right? It's not just me?

Edited 2017-07-28 04:28 (UTC)

Same.

[Eddie suspects he's not quite as drunk as Cisco, mostly because he's (apparently) pretty boring and hasn't done anything with his life. Or maybe it's just because he's taller, and more muscular, and that only leaves him trying not to think about the proportions of Cisco's body again, wondering about it...

Cutting off that train of thought, Eddie exhales softly, glances up at Cisco, tries to redirect his brain, but the only thing that he can seem to redirect it to is being worried about the lights going out. Thankfully, when Cisco looks at him, meets his gaze with those dark eyes that reflect the flickering lighter flame, and says that he's not going anywhere, that he won't be alone, it snaps him mostly out of it. For a moment, Eddie feels like he's going to cry, and he just nods, in the last moments of the light, reaching out and taking Cisco's hand, squeezing it hard for just a second.]

I'm not going anywhere either. Together.

[And then the light goes out, and Cisco is in a flurry of activity, disposing of the aloe bottle and the bottle of rum, grabbing a blanket and tucking it around their laps. When Cisco curls in beside him, Eddie instinctively lifts his arm and drapes it around Cisco's shoulder to accommodate his weight and presence. A moment later, Cisco asks if it's cold, and Eddie's shaking his head.]

Definitely not just you. It's getting really cold really fast.

Great. Just great.

[ Cisco is still a little shy, hesitant to settle into Eddie's embrace, lean against him too much. He keeps himself a bit stiff, doesn't relax into it the way he'd like. This is just... a matter of convenience, and pragmatism. Doesn't mean anything, and it would actually be pretty awful if he lets himself enjoy it.

He'd already made a plan for how to distract Eddie from their situation: if he hates being alone in darkness and silence, and Cisco can't do anything about the darkness, he's not going to give silence even a little bit of a chance. Fortunately, talking is something he's good at. ]

I hate the cold. I despise it. You know, my family didn't move to Central City until I was like, 10-ish? And it was so much colder, and I swear I just never adapted to it. Snow is nice but the rest of the time, when it's freezing but there's nothing to show for it? The worst. Pretty much between the months of November and April, I'm miserable if I'm wearing less than three coats at any given moment.

[ The temperature apparently hasn't stopped dropping, just because they started talking about it; Cisco's teeth are actually chattering, now. It won't be so bad, once they get used to it, but for now, Cisco just shivers and shivers, enough that his plan to keep on talking without much pause falters. ]

This's gotta be the storm, right? Something to do with the weird storm with the acid and the awfulness that showed up ready to ruin our day for no good reason...

[It's becoming rapidly more obvious that the temperature is dropping, and Eddie can feel himself huddling in on himself a little, even as Cisco shifts a bit closer. It's also obvious that Cisco isn't leaning into him as much as he could be, that his body is held a little tense, a little stiff. Eddie doesn't really blame him, not after Eddie's obvious fumble by admitting that he's attracted to Cisco, when their friendship has been totally platonic thus far, and Eddie doesn't want to do anything to ruin that.

When Cisco starts talking, Eddie listens carefully, focusing on Cisco's story instead of the cold and the darkness and worrying about the tension that Cisco is still carrying in his body. Eddie can hear the fact that his teeth are chattering a little bit while he talks, and he can feel him trembling slightly, then more and more as the temperature drops. Eddie is feeling really cold too, and he shifts a bit, scoots closer to Cisco.]

Yeah...I mean, I don't know what else could be making it so cold, and of course I'm not wearing socks...god. Do you think we could make it to my bedroom where there's a comforter? I'm f-freezing already. Or we could just-

[A pause, and then Eddie is shifting a bit in the couch to make his torso more accessible, tugging Cisco in closer and rubbing his hand against Cisco's shoulder, trying not to think about it too much.]

Sorry. I know it's uncomfortable but if...if you lean against me and we pull the blanket up, the body heat will...you know...

[ Cisco lifts a hand to press his palm against the tip of his nose for a moment, which feels even colder than the rest of him somehow. Eddie's hand rubbing against his shoulder helps a little, but he can't expect Eddie to keep on doing that. Eddie is right: the situation right now is untenable. Just as he's about to make his suggestion for how to fix it, Eddie says what he does, and Cisco stops, decides to address that, first. Because of course, leave it to Eddie to notice that Cisco's a bit tense, and to worry about him like that. This guy is just much too observant for Cisco's good. ]

Look, it's n-not uncomfortable, for me. [ He speaks firmly, despite the chattering of his teeth. ] I just... d-didn't want to make you uncomfortable. T-too used to Barry and Caitlin and they're pretty big on the whole p-personal bubble thing, me I'm just... an octopus, if I don't reign it in.

[ Cisco clings to Eddie a bit closer as he says that, and it's hard to tell if he can feel Eddie shivering, too, or if that is just himself. Doesn't make much difference. It is so strange, talking to Eddie and feeling him like this but not being able to see him, almost at all. ]

J-just, like. Promise you'll tell me if you n-need space, okay?

[ For a moment or two, Cisco thinks that their combined body heat, even with just the thin couch blanket, will be enough. But there's Eddie's bare feet to think about, and their ears and noses, and he thinks about how his brothers' hands looked after Snart froze them, and shyness doesn't seem as important anymore. ]

I don't know how bad it's gonna get, but I think we should b-bring the blanket from here, and go get all the ones from my room, and take them to your room and b-bundle up on your bed. Hopefully, with the two of us, that'll b-be enough. If it's not... I d-don't know what we're gonna do. We'll cross that icy bridge when we c-come to it.

[When Cisco says that it's not uncomfortable for him, he just didn't want to make Eddie uncomfortable, Eddie laughs a bit, shaking his head.]

Wow, we're quite a pair, aren't we? Trying not to make each other uncomfortable. Honestly, I'm not that big on my personal bubble and I have to watch out to avoid being an octopus too, so.

[Shrugging a bit, he shifts so he can pull Cisco in a bit closer when Cisco clings to him. They're both shivering, and Eddie resists the urge to press his face into Cisco's hair, because it looks so warm and soft and his nose is so cold.]

I'll let you know, though. Promise. If you do the same.

[While Cisco is quiet, Eddie is too, focusing on trying to calm his shivering, trying to think warm thoughts and relax himself, because keeping tense is not going to help. But then Cisco starts to say he doesn't know how bad it's gonna get and they should bring the blankets to Eddie's room and bundle up on his bed, and Eddie nods.]

Alright. I'll come up with you, and we can...we'll figure this out. We're gonna be fine.

[A little smile, and he takes a sharp breath, braces himself and slips out of the blanket, leaving it draped around Cisco's shoulders. Teeth chattering, he stands, reaches back to touch Cisco's shoulder and make sure the younger man is coming along, then heads toward where he knows the stairs to the attic are. Moving as quickly as he can with his sore feet, he starts up the stairs and only pauses at the top to let Cisco head into the room first - it only seems respectful, since that's his space.]

How many comforters do you have? I think there's...there's a s-spare in the hallway closet we could grab on the way by.

[ Cisco breathes out a quiet, shivery laugh right after Eddie; just another one of those little things they never realized they had in common, then. He's been discovering so many of those, these days.

He's glad that Eddie volunteers to come with him the whole way, even gives him the couch blanket for the time being. Cisco clings to Eddie's sleeve as they make their way to the stairs and then up them; when Eddie pauses at the top, Cisco slips by him clumsily to open the door.

It isn't entirely dark, however: there is a scattering of those cheap little glow-in-the-dark stars that Cisco had stuck onto the ceiling, and the wall beside his desk, which are faintly glowing. It's not enough to light up the room, by any means, but it helps Cisco to orient himself. He reaches around for Eddie's wrist, finds it, and pulls Eddie in after him to grab the blanket and comforter from the bed. Cisco bundles them up messily under one arm, crouches down and reaches around under the bed for the spare blanket. ]

Got 'em. B-back down.

[ Cisco doesn't care if it makes him seem clingy, or scared; he keeps close to Eddie, holds tight to his sleeve once more as they make their way back down from the attic. As they're passing by, he reaches out and pulls one of the larger stars off the wall, pulls the tape from the back and just carries it with him. Not a lot of illumination, but it's something.

They stop at the hall closet and Eddie has to be the one who reaches down the comforter. Cisco tries, but it is too high up for him to reach. The floor feels icy on his feet, and he can't imagine how much worse it must be for Eddie. That sends a little spike of fear through his chest and maybe if he weren't a little drunk he would have held it back, but instead he asks: ]

You can still feel your toes, right? It's not cold enough for frostbite, is it?

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[It's impossible to miss the way Cisco is clinging to his sleeve, the way he sticks close in a way that isn't entirely, Eddie thinks, driven by cold. After all, they'd both admitted they aren't comfortable in the dark, so it's not a surprise, and honestly it's just as reassuring for Eddie as it probably is for Cisco. So he sticks close in return, he lets Cisco cling to his sleeve, only lets go when Cisco goes into his room and takes one of the stars with him, a tiny gesture that makes Eddie's chest and belly clench in empathy and concern. When they start back down the stairs and Cisco takes Eddie's sleeve again, he shifts, tugs it away and then slides his hand around Cisco's, squeezing his hand gently.

It's good, to feel anchored to the warm solidity of someone else's body in the dark. To be reminded that he isn't alone, that Cisco wasn't lying when he said he wasn't going anywhere, and to be able to remind Cisco non-verbally of the same thing. When they stop at the hallway closet, Eddie doesn't let go, pulls down the spare comforter - thick and heavy, a down duvet more than just a comforter, that Eddie had bought because it was on sale - and drags it with them toward his room. Thankfully, it's a pretty short walk.

When Cisco asks if he can still feel his toes, Eddie blinks, and nods.]

Yeah, I can feel them. They feel freezing, but they're definitely...definitely...still there. I don't think this is quite frostbite c-cold, and if it gets there, we'll be under b-blankets together by the time it does. We're g-gonna be okay.

[Eddie offers Cisco a tiny smile, even though it's dark, and squeezes his hand again, shifts to pull him along as he shoulders open the door to his room and heads to the bed.]

The floor's bare, nothing to t-trip over, so don't...don't worry, just...get up here.

[Eddie climbs into the bed, dragging up the duvet and helping to get Cisco's blankets onto the bed.]

How do you wanna do this?

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