Kylo (IT'S NOT A PHASE, DAD) Ren (
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after the rain, comes the rainbow [open]
who: Kylo Ren and OPENNN
what: Catch-all, featuring some open prompts from the TDM.
when: The month of April.
where: Here and there
warnings: Nothing yet
i. disaster relief
[ If it weren't for the lingering complications from his gunshot wound to the shoulder, Kylo Ren would be going on river expeditions and fighting giant reptiles and amphibians.
He would be, except Dr. Whale already lectured him and refused to budge the last time he'd demanded medical clearance. Apparently, pushing through pain in an attempt to force his body into recovery had only been making things worse for his arm and shoulder, in the long run.
So he has to take it relatively easy and stick to the prescribed physical therapy exercises until the doctor says otherwise. And that means staying behind as the city floods and tales of giant creatures lurking in the waters spread.
He's never been one to find contentment in sitting around and doing nothing. (Even if the action he tends to take is... you know, the wrong action, at least he's usually doing something.) So, in an attempt to curb feelings of restless agitation, Kylo... actually volunteers for the citywide relief effort. His arm may need time to heal, but he's still strong enough to assist in evacuation efforts, or in the setting up of temporary shelters, or doing any odd task where he can rely on the Force and worry less about hindering his arm's recovery.
Just don't expect him to cook or serve food. He's not feeling that helpful. ]
ii. routines
[ And since he's still stuck on the dreaded Desk Duty at work, Ren's mood-- as he goes about his daily routine-- is even more sour and gloomy than usual. Which is pretty impressive, considering his usual state is miserable enough.
So here's that catch-all prompt for seeing the scowling, overgrown emo kid at the gym (where he's still going to work out and spar as best he can, or go through his physical therapy exercises, if nothing else), or sulking around a coffee shop (don't judge his latte order) with his nose stuck in a journal as he jots notes down. Or at a library. He spends time at libraries, too. And just about anywhere, really. Outside, when it's not raining, because he's taken to communing with the Force out in the park. ]
iii. choose your own adventure
[ And if that last prompt wasn't broad enough, here's the wildcard choose your own adventure option. ]
what: Catch-all, featuring some open prompts from the TDM.
when: The month of April.
where: Here and there
warnings: Nothing yet
i. disaster relief
[ If it weren't for the lingering complications from his gunshot wound to the shoulder, Kylo Ren would be going on river expeditions and fighting giant reptiles and amphibians.
He would be, except Dr. Whale already lectured him and refused to budge the last time he'd demanded medical clearance. Apparently, pushing through pain in an attempt to force his body into recovery had only been making things worse for his arm and shoulder, in the long run.
So he has to take it relatively easy and stick to the prescribed physical therapy exercises until the doctor says otherwise. And that means staying behind as the city floods and tales of giant creatures lurking in the waters spread.
He's never been one to find contentment in sitting around and doing nothing. (Even if the action he tends to take is... you know, the wrong action, at least he's usually doing something.) So, in an attempt to curb feelings of restless agitation, Kylo... actually volunteers for the citywide relief effort. His arm may need time to heal, but he's still strong enough to assist in evacuation efforts, or in the setting up of temporary shelters, or doing any odd task where he can rely on the Force and worry less about hindering his arm's recovery.
Just don't expect him to cook or serve food. He's not feeling that helpful. ]
ii. routines
[ And since he's still stuck on the dreaded Desk Duty at work, Ren's mood-- as he goes about his daily routine-- is even more sour and gloomy than usual. Which is pretty impressive, considering his usual state is miserable enough.
So here's that catch-all prompt for seeing the scowling, overgrown emo kid at the gym (where he's still going to work out and spar as best he can, or go through his physical therapy exercises, if nothing else), or sulking around a coffee shop (don't judge his latte order) with his nose stuck in a journal as he jots notes down. Or at a library. He spends time at libraries, too. And just about anywhere, really. Outside, when it's not raining, because he's taken to communing with the Force out in the park. ]
iii. choose your own adventure
[ And if that last prompt wasn't broad enough, here's the wildcard choose your own adventure option. ]
Closed to: Valkyrie
With a snort, he flicks the glass away and looks at Val. At least the alcohol in his system has him relaxed enough that he's not as awkward as usual around her. Plus, he's wired from the bar fight, wide awake and in high spirits. ]
You have some blood on you. I think-- oh... Yeeeaaah. [ He peers at her, then snickers. ] That's not yours.
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Oh. No, s'not. None of those—those cowards could've managed it.
[She wipes the blood off as best she can, studies it on her hand for a moment, and then unceremoniously reaches over to wipe it off on Ren's sleeve.]
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I don't want a coward's blood on me. Warriors. Where can we find some warriors?
[ Kylo no. NO MORE FIGHTS. ]
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I'm a warrior. You can try to fight me if you want.
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So, he smirks (totally inherited from his father), even though somewhere in his mind, he's aware that he's very likely going to get toppled like a black-clad tree. ]
Okay.
[ Are you ready for a drunken attempt at a headlock. ]
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Almost automatically, her hands come up to grapple with his arms around her neck and shoulders; one worms its way behind her and under his shoulder, and then she's bending forward, exerting pressure under his arm, one foot rocking forward as she tries to flip him over her and onto his back.]
i. disaster (relief)
Saving people from giant alligators and fangy frogs seems like a great way to get his mind off his issues.
And it totally is. He's leaping around, jumping between beachside stones and half-submerged houses, where he perches on the roofs and draws his bow over and over, expertly putting arrows into scaly skulls. When one of the crocodiles breaks away from the river, fleeing one of the teams carrying a bunch of laser weapons. Roy goes after it at top speed as it barrels its way toward a row of tents where volunteers are handing out food and supplies, which is probably the worst place it could possibly be going.]
Holee freak! Come on, seriously?
[As the crocodile slams into one of the tents, he hears the round of shouts and screams from inside while he powers his way toward it.]
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These children are innocent, and they're lost and afraid, and that's enough to stir his compassion where many of the other victims of the floods don't. So he's making sure they've got food, water, and clean clothes, and trying to offer assurances however best he can.
So of course, just as the children begin to calm a little, an enormous reptile comes hissing and crashing into the tent, jaws snapping and aggression obvious.
It's massive. Too big to throw with the Force. And though his every instinct tells him to stand his ground and fight despite the orders to take it easy on his arm (Ren even ignites his lightsaber, fully prepared to do it), the shrieks and cries of the children behind him remind him of his priorities here. Protect, defend, and keep his temporary charges alive.
With a snarled curse, he moves back, herding the children out of the tent with him, and sends the temporary structure crashing down over the beast. The canvas shroud should hinder it for a few moments, at least.
It's a very temporary solution, but he's just trying to buy time to at least get the kids out of the crocodile's path.
...
Even if what he truly wants is to just kill the damn thing. ]
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Hey, dude, I'm gonna use an incendiary arrow, keep them back okay?
[He yells it while he hoists himself into a tree a few feet away from the collapsed structure while the crocodile thrashes around in the canvas, tangled, a perfect shot. The way he says it doesn't really imply the guy doesn't know well enough to run away from an explosion - it's more about making sure he's aware there's going to be one.
Crouching on a low branch, he pulls out one of his incendiary arrows, nocks and draws his bow in a few split seconds, aims for long enough to suck in a breath and check that the guy and kids are out of the blast radius, and releases the arrow. It's little more than a flick of red through the air, and then there's a concussive explosion of sound and fire.]
Crap, good thing it's raining!
[Swinging down from the tree, Roy jogs over to the guy, stepping delicately over chunks of crocodile.]
You okay, man? The kids okay?
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He extinguishes his lightsaber's blade and hooks it on his belt quickly, to free himself to hoist the smaller of the two children in his arm. The other, he takes by the hand as he moves them away from the beast-- and the imminent explosion. And with the luxury of distance, he can see the man in the tree, the flash of movement, then the explosion that consumes the giant reptile. Ren, for his part, manages to shield any wayward debris from reaching them, stopping it mid-air, just feet from where he and the children stand.
It's quite a sight. Even the children forget their brush with death long enough to cheer over the explosion, and the show of the Force. ]
They're... [ He looks at the kids again, as if to be sure. ] unharmed. And so am I.
[ Ren sets the younger one down again and pulls up the hood of her rain poncho. What he wouldn't give for his mask right now. Then at least his hair would be dry in the rain. In any case, he fixes Roy with a look that's a mix of curious and somewhat grateful. ]
Your timing couldn't have been better. [ So... uh.... ] Thank you.
[ Can you tell he's not used to thanking anyone for anything? ]
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Doesn't stop him from noticing how the guy shields himself from the heat, debris, and chunks of monster guck from hitting him and the kids. Neat trick.
Not the point right now, though, as he finally gets past all the rubble on the ground and crouches down to look at the kids while the guy pulls up her rain jacket hood and turns to look at him. Grinning, Roy gives the girl a thumbs up and then stands up, rubbing his gloved hands (pointlessly) on the back of his red leather pants before holding one out to the other man for a shake.]
No sweat, it's what I came out for. Nice to meet you, uh...
[A pause, and then, brightly.]
I'm Roy. Roy Harper, aka Arsenal.
Catch-All: A Touching Story [OPEN]
[ When it happens, it's as if he's lost a piece of himself.
The Force is silent, and its absence cuts straight through to his very core. The world around him-- the galaxy-- becomes muted in an instant, not just in sound, but in every respect.
He'd thought of himself as no stranger to loneliness, but he never knew just how it could feel to be without the Force. True isolation, weighing so heavily on him that he doesn't know if he wants to cry or put his fist through the nearest wall.
A lost little boy with nothing and no one to lose.
When Sheppard had called him that, it stung, but he didn't fully believe it to be true. As long as he'd had the Force, he had something. But now, it's all he can think, that taunt replaying over and over until he could scream.
At first, he tries to go about his business, to hide his distress. But when that becomes too unbearable, he seeks out secluded places, close to nature, to try to meditate and reach out to the Force. And then, when he realizes others are suffering from the same loss-- not of the Force, but of other senses, seemingly at random-- he at least finds some small comfort that it isn't just him who's being... punished. It's bigger than him.
A small comfort, yes, but not enough to ease his mind. He can't live like this. There must be a solution... And, as he tries to find it, he'll be agitated, even more emotional than usual, and just... generally a wreck.
HOT MESS COMING THROUGH. ]
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Hux continues to pet the kittens napping on his desk, only startling when they do as the workshop door bangs open. Still, he hears nothing. ]
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Because he wants to spend time with the kittens. There's something soothing about them, and he imagines that perhaps he won't feel so alone and cut off from the world if he could just be near them for a little bit. Like when he was a boy, really. When the other children began to fear him, even when he was at his uncle's temple, training to become something he didn't want to be... Animals, with their gentle, calming presence, and their utter lack of judgment. If they feared him, it was only because he was human and they were wild and skittish. They'd fear him the way they would anyone, not in the way his peers feared him.
It's stupid, he knows. And he's sure he'll have to argue with Hux and deal with all of that tension, too, which he's hardly in the mood for. It's almost a relief when the general doesn't seem to notice him when he enters-- or perhaps he did. Ren wouldn't know without any obvious tells, his perception dulled as it is without the Force. ]
Hux. Hux.
[ Well, now he's growing annoyed. At least the kittens are acknowledging him, which seems to get Hux's attention more than Ren's words did. ]
Don't ignore me!
[ Unless he isn't being ignored. ]
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Ren? What are you doing here? [ He speaks a few notes louder than usual, unsure of his volume. ] What do you want?
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I wanted-- [ He clenches his fists at his sides, unsure how to answer without sounding like a sentimental idiot.
Oh hells, who cares. Hux seems to have bigger concerns right now, anyway. He won't care. ] To see how they were faring. [ A nod to the kittens. ]
What's wrong with you?
[ Blunt. SO CARING. ]
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You want the cats? [ That has him standing up and stepping around the table, in front of the kittens on his workspace. Ren isn't taking them!! ] I can't hear a word you're saying, you need to annunciate.
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Today, he's doing it in his off time, dressed in a pair of jeans, some sneakers, a hoodie, bow and quiver strapped to his back and without his mask. Casual. And he's about halfway through his run when he spots a familiar black-clothed figure at the edge of the forest. For a few moments, he contemplates whether or not he should head over, because the guy looks like he's seeking some kind of privacy and Roy knows sometimes that's necessary.
Then again, he also knows sometimes it's not super healthy.
So he drops down beside Kylo, quiet, glancing over at him.]
Hey man.
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Not even when he'd killed his father.
Now here he is, sitting in the grass, knees pulled up, hugged close with his arms, and his face lowered as he allows the tears to fall, even as he tries to choke back any sobs.
Pathetic. Childish. Weak weak weak weak
He looks up, startled, when he finds Roy joining him on the grass. Normally, he could sense another's arrival in time to compose himself. Without the Force, however...
Stars, but he must look like a fool. Ren frowns, brows drawing together. He hates himself. He tries to hate Roy, too, for seeing him like this, but he can't. Instead, he snorts, looking away. ]
One day, you might see me at my strongest, instead of at my weakest.
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Kylo looks startled. It's not a look Roy's ever seen on him, and for a moment it catches him off-guard. Biting his lower lip, Roy offers a weak smile, half empathy and half sheepishness at catching him in one of these moments. But then Kylo's brows draw together in the middle and he snorts, looks away, and Roy realizes that it was probably a good thing that he caught him right now.
Leaning over a bit, he nudges his shoulder against Kylo's, a casual, friendly gesture.]
Man, I seriously think people's strongest is way overrated. I mean, I bet you'd be totally badass, but this is fine too.
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Kylo supposes his dignity can't take anymore hits than it has already. Wiping at his eyes with his sleeve, he allows himself to look back over at Roy. He's quiet, eyes thoughtful as he mulls over the remark. And then, after a few moments, he speaks, his voice soft. ]
What kind of a person do you think I am?
[ Because he can't help but wonder if Roy's gotten entirely the wrong impression of him, sees him as somebody better and more worthwhile than he really is. ]
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CW: Sex, violence, alcohol abuse, and poor life choices.
John's been a hot mess for the better part of a month now, slowly self-destructing in his own special John Sheppard way. It's easier to live on the edge, because you're too busy trying not to fall for anything else to matter. Without a war to fight, or a city to defend, there isn't enough work for him to drown himself in. The stakes are never high enough to make him feel alive. Desperate times call for desperate measures. He's had to get creative, and find new sources of danger.
Tonight it's getting close to hammered, picking up a stranger in a bar, and fucking out back, near the dumpsters, where anyone might find them. He didn't know the guy's name, or where he's from. All that mattered was he was tall, strong, and hard enough around the edges that John knows he can be the kind of rough John's looking for.
And he was. Bloody and bruising. Hands around his neck from behind just long enough to get a rush of adrenaline, his heart to kicking to life for what feels like the first time in weeks. John not coming so much as nearly passing out, and getting off on that little taste of death. No words spoken as they both pull up their pants and walk away without a second glance.
John limps back inside, flipping up the collar of his shirt to hide the freshly blossoming hand-prints on his throat, even more rumple than he always is. The first thing he does is order another drink, throwing it back all at once, the alcohol burning his split lower lip.
He'll probably regret that one in the morning, but for now? He feels alright. Like he could do it again if the right opportunity presented itself. It's never enough. John still sees him when he closes his eyes.
So he orders another drink.]
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Normally, Ren opts for simple destruction, directing his anger and frustrations out on others. Now, however, he just pulls it inward, picking the worst sort of bars-- out of the way from where he figures any familiar faces would be-- to drown and poison himself in cheap alcohol. Because maybe if the entire world's spinning, and his thoughts are muddled, he won't feel the Force's absence quite so hard.
He's not drunk yet when the back door opens and in walks John Sheppard. Well, limps is more like. And if the state of his clothes didn't provide enough clues on their own, the big man who walks through the door a good thirty seconds after (as if staggering his re-entry would make it less noticeable) confirms Ren's suspicions.
The fact that Sheppard sits at the bar, right beside him, is telling. The man's drunk and in his own head-- much as Kylo would like to be right now. But, as he throws back another glass of some drink that goes down with a burn, he can't help the smirk on his lips. Or the laugh building in his throat, which he doesn't even try to mask.
Misery loves company. ]
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[John's eyes cut to the joker sitting next to him.
Even drunk off his ass, still dizzy and tingling all over from a harmless little something called breath-play, there's no mistaking Kylo Ren for anyone but himself. How many other six foot something goth's with scarred up faces are creeping around?
John knew he survived the incident, they've spoken (threatened each other) since, but he didn't expect to see him up and about so soon. If you could call slumping over a bar with something cheap and strong in his hand, as busted up looking as every sucker in this bar, 'up'.
He thinks about shooting him. Can't not. John's armed, he's always armed, and this close, at point-blank range? There's no way he'd miss. Or Kylo would survive.
Boom, head-shot. John can picture it. The way everything that made up the space between Kylo's ears would paint the men sitting behind him, his body slumping to the floor. Then they'd arrest him.
If John wanted to do it the smart way, he'd piss Kylo off first. He's seen how the man loses his temper. Get him swinging, take a few hits, then blow his brains out in self-defense. Blame fear and intoxication for aiming for Kylo's face instead of his chest.
He turns back to his drink and finishes it. Orders another one.
The only thing stopping him is the fact he isn't in the mood to feel blood and brains on his face, and that Kylo looks about as miserable as he does. Finally, someone John doesn't have to feel bad about watching suffer with him.]
I'd shoot you, but I don't want to kill my buzz.
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[ Everything about this, that's what's funny. Both of their miserable states. His lip curls for a moment as he stares down into his empty glass, certain that Sheppard's contemplating some form of self-destructive violence or another. It's what Poe would be doing right now, he assumes, and the two of them are cut from the same cloth.
He lets out another snort of laughter, unbothered by John's confirmation of his assumptions. It's hard to feel intimidated right now, and he's not sure if it's the alcohol in his system, or John Sheppard looking as pathetic as he does right now. ]
Oh, of course. [ He motions to the bartender for another drink. ] Should I call your friend back? Maybe he can help with your buzz.
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