Rage rage against the dying of the light

[mysophobic]

who: Shigeru and you!
what: Dreams and memories
when: During the memshare event
where: Dream land but also around if people want to meet with him
warnings: Torture, blood



Memory I.

[ This first memory is in the first person view. Three taller older boys are hovering over the person whose eyes this is coming from. They laugh and jeer as they play a game of keep away from the person. ]

C’mon Miyata. Why don’t you use your creepy powers to just disintegrate our arms and take it back that way, huh?

[ Shigeru’s head shakes, as does the perspective, before he moves away from one of the boys trying to touch him. ]

S-Stop it. Give it…give it back. [ His voice is timid, scared, because he knows if his powers go haywire he could really hurt someone and he doesn’t want that. ]

We’re tellin’ you to take it back yourself, wimp, so just do it. Or do you not want it back cause we touched all your stuff? Are us normal people too disgusting for you, huh?

Th-that’s not…

Well?!

That’s not it! [ One of them will push him onto the ground before a flash of light erupts in the corner of the vision and the boy will stop moving entirely. ]

Alex! [ Is all Shigeru stammers out before the vision ends. ]

Dream I.

[ This dream is hardly for the faint of heart as it starts with a hospital operating room and Shigeru is strapped to an operating table. Behind the glass window where viewing would occur stands and woman and Alex, who screaming silently back at her and at the glass. Shigeru whimpers and tries to use his powers to break free but a powerful shock courses through his body as he lets out a painful yelp and gasp. ]

Ah, ah, We can’t have you using your powers prematurely like that…Shigeru, right? I think that’s what your student ID says. Just a college student, but you two certainly have a knack for spying and winding up where you don’t belong don’t you?

[ A man in his early fifties, with streaks of gray in his jet black hair, will stare as he looms over Shigeru with a scalpel and medical garb. There’s a vicious smile behind his surgical mask but his crystal blue eyes convey his insanity rather well. ]

Now let’s get started. We have some work to do and I don’t wish to keep the good lady waiting. You may call me Jern and I’ll be your doctor today.

[ The dream will continue on from there with the real Shigeru, the incorporeal one, watching in horror and not being able to really watch all of it as he covers his face with his hands and turns away. If he could get sick inside his dreams this would be when he does. He remembers this, of course he does his memory is perfect after all. But having to dream about it again is…not something he ever wanted to experience let alone anyone else. ]

Dream II.

[ This dream starts in the third person as well with Shigeru, a bit older now, walking through a long, stainless steel covered hallway. Moans and noises of pain reverberate through the walls of the place. Alex holds up a hand and motions Shigeru to stop. A door rests closed at the end of the long hallway, and noises coming from it are muffled sobs. Alex will nod as he motions for Shigeru to move in towards the side, his sword at the ready, as Alex opens the door.

The scene behind the door is one of horror as many children, adults, and teenagers are chained to the wall, some so tightly that there’s pools of blood underneath them. The horrid factor is that they’re all half mutated into creatures that hardly resemble human anymore. Some of them it’s just small portions of their bodies like an arm, or leg, but other people are almost fully changed and they sit in reinforced steel cages but hardy react the Alex or Shigeru at all. They all look at the same time towards the two of them and Alex lets out a soft ‘shit’ when they start to move in their chains. ]

Help us. Please help us! [ Shigeru and Alex move in then and begin to free the prisons. A loud explosion from somewhere in the place goes off suddenly then. The imprisoned start to panic and rush to the door. Shigeru will look back at Alex and sign something to the extent that he was going to go look into matter. Alex tries to stop him but in the chaos he loses Shigeru.

The dream will fast forward to Shigeru panting and facing down with the man from his previous dream, Jern. But he looks so different now that it’s hard for people to even tell who it is. His black hair is replaced with thick, black, tendrils and his blue eyes remain the same except for his sclera being pitch black. Anyone who has seen Shigeru possessed will realize it immediately. There’s black scrawling letters across Jern’s skin as well. ]

Ah. So we meet again. Are you here for your friends? I’m afraid I broke that one a bit too much.

[ He’ll point to Klein whose lifeless body is on the floor and behind the grotesque man is another young agent, with orange hair and freckled skin. His gate looks cracked and is oozing some type of black substance that splatters to the ground in the silence to follow. Shigeru takes a step forward and sign something ‘let him go’ but Jern will just laugh. ]

Not until you show me your negative gate again. [ Jern smirks as Shigeru shakes his head activating his gate to draw his sword and shield out of it. There’s a blackness that overtakes the dream as Jern can he heard laughing and next it’ll shift to Shigeru lying on the floor, bruised, bloodied and with two broken limbs. Jern will laugh as he slams down on Shigeru’s broken leg, Shigeru lets out a yelp and cry of pain as he arches his body with the attack. ]

Thinking you can beat me. Didn’t you learn anything from our little doctor visit? [ He’ll walk over towards the dead body of Klein and unceremoniously drag him towards Shigeru. Shigeru’s breathing will pick up and his face will go pale, eyes flickering black and then back to normal as he tries to move away. He’ll shake his head then, knowing what Jern is going to do. ]

I’m going to make you turn if it’s the last thing I do. Now you wanted to say your goodbyes, right? So lets have a proper send off then.

[ Shigeru will let out a terrified noise as Jern grabs his arm, yanking him closer to Klein and bringing his hand closer to the other man’s dead body. Every time he resists theres a sickening crack as Jern breaks ones of his finger, getting a horrible pained noise from Shigeru each time.

And the real Shigeru will just stand there, unnoticed, his face pale and horrified as he lingers there. ]

Dream III.

[ This is a happier dream, featuring Shigeru and his friends. Alex, Klein and Shuu are all sitting around a table as Shigeru comes from the kitchen with a heaping platter of what appears to be a turkey. ]

You really outdid yourself, dude. Who the heck is gonna eat all of this? [ The freckled man says with amusement as he eyes the black haired man sitting next to him. ]

Shut up, Shuu. At least we’re getting food, being on these missions and away all the time really sucks. I wouldn’t have enlisted if I knew this was how it was going to be. But at least Shigeru is here to keep us fed. [ They both laugh as comments like ‘team mom’ are thrown around. ]

Hey Shigeru thanks a lot. We really…appreciate all of this. And Shigeru just nods, face going red slightly, as Alex compliments him. He signs ‘you’re welcome’ back to the other before hurrying off into the kitchen to get more of the food he prepared. ]

Comments

[flowlikewater]

[ Lucky for this 'Jern' that they're a portal and an entire different universe apart... Genji would want to hunt him down and make him stop, for Shigeru and for good.

But this isn't the time for harshness, for vengeance. The person he cares about is hurting. ] You aren't powerless, Shigeru.

[ Genji shifts and finds his eyes, smiling softly. ] You're here with me and you're safe. I won't let anything happen to you.

[mysophobic]

[ Shigeru would never come out of his house if Jern was here. The man terrifies to the point where he freezes in fear.

His fingers curl and twist in the hem of his shirt as he bites his lip and shakes his head. ]

I can't...fight someone like him. He...he's terrifying.

[ He can't imagine Genji going up against him either. He can't imagine anyone doing so. ]

Forenthieths...they're stronger than any phrobiest. No one's ever encountered one and came out alive from it.

[flowlikewater]

But he's not here. And he won't ever be here. [ Genji moves to put a hand on the small of his back, tugging him a little closer. ]

Do you think trying your meditation would help? [ He looks to his hands gripping the device. ] Your knuckles are almost white.

[mysophobic]

You don't...know that. [ The color drains away from his face as he even considers it. But he'll look back down at his hands, hardly realizing he'd been holding his phone that tightly.


Right. Meditation... ]

I could try. [ The other alternative is obsessively cleaning and he...doesn't want to do that either. ]

[flowlikewater]

Why don't we go sit down first? [ Genji leads him over to the couch nearby, sitting down.

He cups Shigeru's face again with one hand before he speaks. ] Just take deep breaths. Jern is not here and you're safe. You're safe in your home, with me.

[mysophobic]

[ Ah. Okay. He can do this. He just...closes his eyes and listens to the mechanical whirling of Genji's body, that helps, as does the breathing exercises they practiced in the tent. Right. He's safe, at home, Jern isn't here and Genji is.

He can feel his anxiety simmering down ever so slowly before he opens his eyes again to look back at the other man. ]

[flowlikewater]

[ Genji finds himself breathing along with him, taking this chance to center himself a bit as well. He hadn't really had time to fully process the things he'd seen in the dream himself, so concerned for Shigeru... it was disturbing, to say the least. (And not what Shigeru had to become.)

Once Shigeru opens his eyes Genji smiles a little an takes one of his hands. ] Is that better?

[ Oh goodness, he wants to kiss him... but that's definitely not appropriate in this situation. ]

[mysophobic]

[ The intimacy of the moment has Shigeru wanting the same thing. But he doesn't act on it as he would normally do. He's...tired and still obviously shaken that he pushes it from his mind for now. It's just adrenaline and the need for some comfort that's probably making him think this way.

He nods his head in a 'yes' response as he gently squeezes Genji's hand back. ]

Thank you...for being here with me.

[flowlikewater]

[ There are a lot of factors that make it not a good idea, and Genji would never take advantage. He squeezes his hand in return again and nods. ]

You're welcome. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else right now.

[ He shifts on the couch a little, reaching up to brush some of his hair behind his ear. ] Would you like to try to rest some?

[mysophobic]

[ Ah. Resting means sleeping and he's...not sure if he wants to do that right now. Sleeping means he'll have those terrible dreams again and he doesn't want to go through that again...

So he'll shake his head, face pale a little as he looks down at his phone. ]

I don't want to have those dreams again...

[flowlikewater]

I understand. [ He squeezes his hand again. ] You should get some sleep at some point... but we can stay up chatting, if you'd like that? We can make a pot of tea and relax.

[ He huffs a little. ] Maybe there's a place open all night that we can order take out? Something fun like that.

[mysophobic]

[ Shigeru probably looks like he needs it, sleep that is. There are the begins of bags beneath his eyes as he gives Genji a small nod. ]

I'd really like that.

[ He gives Genji a tired little smile as he leans against him briefly. ]

What sort of food do you usually eat at this late in the night though?

[flowlikewater]

[ Ah, well, leaning against him is just as nice... Genji wraps an arm around him and tugs him close. He rests his cheek (careful that the metal parts don't hurt) and closes his eyes contentedly. ]

There's probably a pizza place open all night, but we can check. That's usually good comfort food.

[mysophobic]

[ The closeness makes Shigeru feel safe, calm even, and he'll just let out a small sigh as he looks back at Genji. There's a soft smile on his lips as he nods. ]

I think I can try it. I've never had...pizza before.

[flowlikewater]

You haven't? Well, we'll have to fix that then. [ It's interesting what things are and aren't similar between both their worlds, especially the food.

But his chest gives a soft little squeeze at his smile and he turns, brushing his lips against the top of his head. ] But that would also require moving and I am quite content with you in my arms for the moment.

[ Sappy!! But after the evening they'd had... ]

[mysophobic]

[ It sure is sappy and Shigeru's face is indicative of that as he blushes with those words. He might lightly touch Genji's metal plate on his face as he moves in to plant those kisses atop his head. His smile genuine and rather affectionate now. ]

Maybe we could...have it delivered?

[flowlikewater]

I think that would be for the best. [ He leans into his hand then reaches for his device with his free arm. After adjusting, he gets it so the screen is in front of their faces and he searches for a pizza joint in the city.

He finds one after a moment (and one of his tabs is for his sign language research) and goes to the menu. ] There's a lot of variety. What kind of meat or vegetables do you like the best?

[ Or pineapple... pineapple is good. ]

[mysophobic]

[ It doesn't go unnoticed, the tab saying sign language on it, and it kinda makes Shigeru want to kiss the other but he'll refrain. Instead he'll look through the pizza options with a curious glance. ]

I'm not...picky. But that ham and pineapple one sounds interesting.

[ And it has both meat and vegetables together. ]

[flowlikewater]

[ Oh, Genji could get on one knee and propose right here and now. He grins a little. ] I've always been fond of that myself. And pineapple is one of the few things I can taste fairly well. [ Synthetic taste buds and all.

He puts in the order for a medium. ] Is there anything else you like? Maybe a disgustingly sweet dessert? [ He gestures with his thumb to some kind of chocolate lava cake. ]

[mysophobic]

[ Shigeru will look at him with a sad expression. Oh how he'd heal the other man in a heartbeat if he'd let him. Shigeru feels so bad that Genji can't actually taste food, but he does put the information away for another time. ]

Something sweet...that sounds nice. [ Have a brighter smile now, Genji, it seems like Shigeru is reverting back to his old self at least. ]

That cake looks good, but you're going to have to help me eat it. I don't know if I'll be able to finish it by myself. [ He'll give Genji a wryly smile as he types that. ]

[flowlikewater]

[ He notices that expression and leans in to kiss the top of his head. Genji has long since come to terms with his odd set of taste buds, and has made do. Please don't look sad on his account.

But that smile makes him brighten, and Genji chuckles. ] I can definitely help out. My body converts sugar into backup energy so it's actually quite useful.

[mysophobic]

[ He can't help it?! Shigeru feels sad for a lot of people when it comes to unfortunate circumstances. But he does smile as he lets Genji kiss the top of his head. ]

I see. That's really amazing. It's not...uncomfortable at all, is it? To eat I mean. I don't want you to do anything that might hurt or make you feel weird.

[ He'll lightly touch the other man's face plate again with a gloved hand. ]

[flowlikewater]

[ Shigeru is so thoughtful sometimes it makes his heart ache. Genji shakes his head. ] No, not at all. My sense of taste is just very dulled. But I appreciate you making sure.

[ He leans into his hand, letting out a contented sigh. Having to have his lower jaw completely remade had been one of the more traumatic parts of his augmentation; the first few months he could barely even speak.

He turns back to his device and sets about ordering it. ] And we can make some tea. That will make it healthy, right? [ Said with a chuckle. ]

[mysophobic]

[ Shigeru smiles back at him. Genji was so...brave and calm about things he'd never be able to handle. It was really inspiring sometimes to hear it. ]

That sounds nice. I have a lot of different ones in the kitchen. I've been trying them out to see which ones I liked.

[flowlikewater]

[ It is what it is to Genji; one always deals with the hand that life gives them. Genji thinks Shigeru is immensly strong, with all he'd had to deal with.

He goes about finishing the order of their greasy late night snacks. ] I'm fond of green tea and jasmine tea myself. A friend in Overwatch always drank black tea with milk and plenty of sugar. [ Plenty, as was the Lena 'Tracer' Oxton way. ]

Which have you liked so far? [ Once he's done, Genji rests his cheek back on the top of his head and gives a nuzzle. Shigeru, so very cuddly. ]