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riverviewlogs2017-10-08 08:58 pm
franciscoramon) wrote in riverviewlogs2017-10-08 08:58 pm
Entry tags:
- marvel (mcu): sam wilson,
- marvel (mcu): tony stark,
- star wars: rey,
- the adventure zone: taako taaco,
- ✖ dctv (flash): cisco ramon,
- ✖ dctv (flash): eddie thawne,
- ✖ overwatch: hana song,
- ✖ the adventure zone: lucretia,
- ✖ the adventure zone: lup taaco,
- ✖ the adventure zone: magnus burnsides,
- ✖ the raven cycle: ronan lynch
[open] cast an illusion
who: cisco + anyone!
what: memory share event & catch-all
when: october
where: anywhere
warnings: murder, torture, bullying
MEMORIES
Feel free to either have your character text Cisco (or comment on this post but indicate a text message) about having a vision / dream of his past, or to come to where he is to discuss it.
A. MURDER {third person dream OR first person vision}
B. VIBING {first person; vision}
C. PRISONER {first person; vision}
D. BABY NERD PT 1 {third person; dream}
E. BABY NERD PT 2 {third person; dream}
Dante, don't!
[ Which, of course, only seems to encourage the older boy. Dante throws it into the air, higher this time, and catches it, but Cisco winces, clearly terrified that he'll drop it. He tries to grab it away from his older brother, but Dante gets to his feet, holding it above his head. ]
Come on, don't be such a fucking girl, I'm not gonna drop it.
[ He tosses it into the air with enough momentum to it goes behind him and he has to spin to catch it. Cisco keeps pleading with him to quit it, trying to wrestle it away from Dante, who only laughs. It's inevitable, what happens eventually. Dante hurls the thing much too high, and it's hard to say, whether he was really trying to catch it or not. Either way, it slips between his hands and crashes onto the asphalt, shattering into about a dozen pieces. Cisco scrambles to pick up all the pieces, but the lens from the camera has shattered and the casing is cracked. ]
Oops.
[ Dante shrugs, sounds absolutely unapologetic. Cisco starts sniffling, fighting back tears as he tries to fit the thing back together. He starts putting the pieces back into the shoebox, wiping tears from his cheeks as they start to fall but saying nothing, not even looking at his brother. Dante, for his part, says scornfully: ]
Seriously, Cisco, it was an accident. You gotta stop being such a sissy all the time. It doesn't look good.
[ Then he walks off in the direction that Val had gone without another word, leaving Cisco to clean up the rest of the mess. ]
OR hit me up on plurk to plot something else!
what: memory share event & catch-all
when: october
where: anywhere
warnings: murder, torture, bullying
MEMORIES
Feel free to either have your character text Cisco (or comment on this post but indicate a text message) about having a vision / dream of his past, or to come to where he is to discuss it.
A. MURDER {third person dream OR first person vision}
[watch here
This memory is both intensely traumatic and one that Cisco has relived many many times. Have fun with it if you want, there may be small distortions - sometimes Cisco seems to remember Eobard's demeanor being gleeful, even smiling as he kills him. There may be odd gaps here and there, as well as inconsistencies. Or you can play it totally straight, just as it happened.]
B. VIBING {first person; vision}
[watch here (memory lasts up 'til 2:30)
This memory is likely to come across in jumbled pieces at first, and then more clearly as the week progresses. What's most important is that this memory captures the subjective experience of vibing from Cisco's perspective. So at one moment the memory is of looking down at a microscope slide of sand, feeling intense unease and fear, to hands reaching out and touching the sand. Once that contact is established, there is a swooping feeling, like missing a step going down stairs or plummeting on a roller coaster, and then the world goes static-y, with strange flashes of light, blurred vision, and an eerie blue tint. The warehouse that Cisco sees feels intensely present, though sounds are a bit muffled and occasionally there are jumps and starts. The end of the vision is as jarring as the start, and afterwards there is the confrontation with Stein, and a palpable feeling of panic over being interrupted and witnessed.]
C. PRISONER {first person; vision}
[watch here
This memory is clear and vivid, accompanied by feelings of hunger, exhaustion, frustration. Feel free to supplement after the cutoff at the end of the scene a moment where Cisco begs that he's already made them weapons (the heat, cold, and gold guns) and that's enough, and also Snart threatening to just out and out kill Dante, both of which are confirmed to happen but aren't shown in the clip I linked.]
D. BABY NERD PT 1 {third person; dream}
[ Cisco can't be older than nine or so, and he's adorable. We're talking a criminally cute child. His hair is cut short, which makes his ears stick out a little, and there's a tooth missing his bottom row of teeth. He's small for his age, (looks even smaller because he's wearing what are clearly hand-me-down clothes), all round-cheeked and bright-eyed. He comes bounding up to a bench in what looks like a small neighborhood park. Sitting on the bench is a pretty brunette girl with a high ponytail and big earrings, and a boy that looks a little like Cisco, around five years older. Cisco, bubbly and excited, asks: ]
Hey Val, hey Dante, do you wanna see what I made?
[ Dante, who has a hand very obviously and purposefully perched on Val's knee, glares absolute daggers at his little brother, but before he can say anything she answers with genuine interest: ]
Yeah, totally.
[ Cisco beams and pulls the lid off the shoebox. Inside is rather ugly-looking device, clearly cobbled together with materials from a bunch of different things. But Cisco pulls it out carefully as if it's the most precious thing on earth and holds it up, explaining in a delighted rush, what it is and how he made it. He has apparently cobbled together pieces from a broken cell phone, an old malfunctioning digital camera, and a half-smashed mp3 player, into a frankenstein'd device that can take pictures, make phone calls, and play music, too. Val sits up as he explains, going from indulgent to this kid with his little doodad to genuinely excited. Cisco hands it over to her and she tests it out, taking a photo of the beaming Cisco, clicking a number code onto the pad which makes 'I Could Fall In Love' by Selena play (though only loud enough that she has to hold the thing to her ear like a phone to hear it). Then, she even uses it as a phone, calling her mom, exclaiming that it really works, and hanging up again. ]
Cisco, this is so cool.
[ She jumps to her feet, saying that she's got to go get her best friend from the corner store across the street to bring her to see it, too, and goes rushing off. Cisco just stands there, holding the thing and beaming like he's never been more proud of himself in his entire life. ]
E. BABY NERD PT 2 {third person; dream}
[ (Continued from the last one, for anyone who wants an angst component)
As this scene was happening with Val, Dante was getting more and more visibly annoyed, trying to redirect attention back to himself. As soon as she leaves Dante snatches the device from Cisco, turning it over once or twice, unimpressed. Cisco's face falls, shifting from joy to trepidation, like he knows something bad is going to happen. Dante doesn't disappoint; he tosses the thing in the air and then catches it as it falls. Cisco pleads: ]
Dante, don't!
[ Which, of course, only seems to encourage the older boy. Dante throws it into the air, higher this time, and catches it, but Cisco winces, clearly terrified that he'll drop it. He tries to grab it away from his older brother, but Dante gets to his feet, holding it above his head. ]
Come on, don't be such a fucking girl, I'm not gonna drop it.
[ He tosses it into the air with enough momentum to it goes behind him and he has to spin to catch it. Cisco keeps pleading with him to quit it, trying to wrestle it away from Dante, who only laughs. It's inevitable, what happens eventually. Dante hurls the thing much too high, and it's hard to say, whether he was really trying to catch it or not. Either way, it slips between his hands and crashes onto the asphalt, shattering into about a dozen pieces. Cisco scrambles to pick up all the pieces, but the lens from the camera has shattered and the casing is cracked. ]
Oops.
[ Dante shrugs, sounds absolutely unapologetic. Cisco starts sniffling, fighting back tears as he tries to fit the thing back together. He starts putting the pieces back into the shoebox, wiping tears from his cheeks as they start to fall but saying nothing, not even looking at his brother. Dante, for his part, says scornfully: ]
Seriously, Cisco, it was an accident. You gotta stop being such a sissy all the time. It doesn't look good.
[ Then he walks off in the direction that Val had gone without another word, leaving Cisco to clean up the rest of the mess. ]
OR hit me up on plurk to plot something else!
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i've been seeing people memories? i saw one of genji's and now i think i saw one of yours...
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[ Cisco shoots off the text in exasperation, and quickly follows with ]
that fuck wasn't directed at you
not your fault
it's been happening to a lot of people
including me
...what did you see?
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and some asshole came and threatened to freeze his fingers off
I'm sorry Cisco ):
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[ It's very strange, thinking of anyone seeing that moment. He had felt so completely, totally alone, that weekend that Snart had kept him prisoner. Even with Dante there, even knowing that Barry and the rest of them were probably (hopefully) looking for him... ]
it's okay
i got him to the hospital pretty fast
the doc said there wasn't going to be any lasting damage, so
it's all good.
[ It's... far from all good, but he wants to say something to put Hana at her ease, at least. ]
i'm really sorry you had to see that hana
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no pun intended.
In any case, ]
that's good
but that wasn't your fault. i guess something's going on and everyone's seeing this crap.
i'm more worried about you. i'm sorry that happened to you
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i even tried making a tinfoil hat.
sadly did not help 😔
[ See, he is even making jokes, because everything is perfectly, totally fine now, and there is no need for Hana to be concerned.
(But of course, talking to her is only reminding him of it. He tries not to think about those days, most of the time. But now he can't stop thinking what it must have looked like, to her. How much of it she had seen. Whether he had looked as helpless and terrified as he had felt). ]
it's okay.
you don't gotta worry.
everything's fine now.
i'm fine.
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and that maybe pretending none of this happened is better... she doesn't know which Cisco would prefer. ]
do you wanna go get ice cream or something?
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you're asking if i want ICE cream???
cold, frozen treats????
[ Why is he like this. ]
i'm just kidding hell yeah i want ice cream🍦
meet you at that little place near the communal housing? the kinda old-fashioned one w the big windows?
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so same place as last time then
meet ya there soon!!
--> action
When he comes in, he orders bubblegum ice cream and has the girl behind the counter absolutely destroy it with gummy worms, skittles, and nerds, which seems to satisfy him. He sits at the table where Hana is, using the little plastic spoon to stir the horrible ice cream and candy concoction. Without preamble or hello, he says: ]
If there's stuff you wanna know about what you saw, you can ask me. Like I said, it's in the past. I don't mind talking about it, and I realize... maybe it was a bit confusing, to see.
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Because Hana, too, has ordered the bubblegum flavor and loaded it up with junk, though maybe with a little bit more fruit than Cisco's. She watches him approach with his ice cream and gives him a few slow blinks when he just dives right into conversation without so much as a greeting as soon as he sits down across from her.
She - hadn't actually thought he'd be wanting to talk about it, so she's a little surprised. In the end, she takes a spoonful of her ice cream and hums thoughtfully as she gulps it down. She knows that Cisco used to work for a superhero, so it figures that he would run into supervillains, too. She doesn't really need to know about the guy with the frost gun or his buddies. She's more concerned about Cisco and his brother. At length, she asks, ]
How did you and your brother get captured?
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I wasn't there when they got Dante, but they must've followed me to the house. It was his birthday, I was just stopping by to give him his present. I left pretty quick after that, and... at some point they grabbed him.
[ For all his big talk about being fine with discussing it, Cisco's show of nonchalance sure is pretty poorly done. He pauses to take a big bite of the ice cream and candy mixture, giving himself time to think how he's going to put the next bit. ]
We kind of fought. Dante and me. At the party. So I was at a bar, after, and kinda upset, and this woman came up and... you know, acted like she was into me. Which I was an idiot and fell for. I just... got in her car. Didn't tell anybody where I was going.
[ His cheeks are burning with heat, now. It's a humiliating thing to admit - that he would go home with a stranger so quickly, and also, that someone would be able to manipulate him that easily, just by showing him a bit of attention. He'd thought something was fishy at the time, but he figured... a prank. A mean joke. Not Leonard Snart's sister, luring him away, to a car with its license plate iced out. He'd just let her take him off wherever, hadn't even paid attention where she was driving. ]
Not the smartest thing I've ever done.
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In any case, she makes it clear that he's got her full attention, nodding along and humming as he tells his story, shaking her head at all of his self-deprecating anecdotes along the way. When he's done, she digs her spoon into her own ice cream. ]
Maybe not, but don't forget that she tricked you to take advantage. It sounds like if that didn't work, they would have just tried something else until they got what they wanted. Right?
I don't think you're an idiot, Cisco. You're the opposite, remember? Genius and all that?
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I'm not a genius about knowing who to trust. Not even close. [ Cisco laughs, a touch of sarcasm and bitterness in it. Lisa Snart was really just the tip of that particular iceberg. ] I'm like... whatever the opposite is.
[ Cisco glances up at Hana, then, a little smile at the corner of his mouth, but not a particularly happy one at all. ]
Anyway. They were squatting in the mansion of this mob boss they'd murdered, and she brought me there and they told me to build guns for them. I said no way in hell, and- and they brought out Dante. So... I did it.
[ Cisco shifts in his chair, stirring at the ice cream with unnecessary force. He's not proud of that choice. He'd justified it to himself, of course. He'd tried sabotaging the guns as he made them. Weapons were temporary - could be disabled or confiscated. Snart and Rory still managed to kill and terrorize people with regular pistols, anyway.
But all of those things are just details. The fact was, he'd helped villains, had built things for them, and it was wrong. No amount of talking around it would make it not be wrong. ]
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Hey, you're turning your ice cream into soup.
[ Then she leans back, sighing. ]
I don't know - you did what you had to, Cisco. They would've killed your brother otherwise, right?
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When she says he did what he had to do, Cisco gives a tiny shrug, just a bare little movement of his shoulders. She's right, of course. If there had been any other options, he would have take them. But... ]
Yeah. Doesn't change the fact that I... made them guns, and- and they killed people with them.
[ In the end, he'd been choosing himself, and Dante, over whatever random strangers got in the rogues's way before the Flash could stop them. He'd known that Barry would stop them, eventually. But until he did, as far as Cisco's concerned, the blood of those other victims was on his hands.
His throat has gone tight all of a sudden, and he clears it, looking down at his ice cream: ]
The Flash... made a deal with them, after this. They would keep his identity secret, and promise not to... kill anybody more, and he would let them go.
[ A compromise that wouldn't have been necessary if Cisco hadn't told Snart the identity of the Flash. If he hadn't gotten himself kidnapped. If he hadn't designed those guns in the first place. Cisco takes another spoonful of the ice cream, more as an excuse not to talk any more than because he wants it. ]
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Hey...
[ Her voice comes out softer than it usually does given her default disposition, but it's because she's trying to be comforting. She reaches over, stretching an arm out to place a hand on Cisco's shoulder, if he would let her. ]
I know it's hard not to think about it because of all this memory crap popping up, but— all of that's in the past. What's important is that you're working hard to be better now, right? And you're still helping people with that crazy awesome brain of yours. Helping people like me!
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And her little pep talk is surprisingly effective. If she had just told him not to feel bad, that he had done nothing wrong, he would likely have sunk even further into guilt. But she doesn't do that - instead she points out that, despite what's happened in the past, he's still got the future ahead of him. He has his work with the emergency services, and even on top of that, he's doing things like helping her with her mech, and reading up on biotech in case Genji ever gets badly hurt, and designing super suits for Eddie, and Taako, and others. He's trying to do good. Even if he's messed up in the past, that doesn't have to be the end of the story. ]
Yeah... you're right. It's stupid obsessing about it.
[ He manages a smile, then - small, but genuine. Cisco tucks his hair back behind his ear, feeling mildly embarrassed but also pleased. A little praise goes an awfully long way, with him. ]
Helping bad people really sucks. But- helping awesome people like you is the best. It makes up for it. And then some.
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Exactly! Besides, I'm sure all the cool stuff you're doing now is way better than anything you made for bad guys. If somehow they showed up here, we'd totally kick their asses and make sure they don't come near you!
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Hell yeah we would.
[ Cisco sits up straighter, shoulders square; he looks better than he has since he walked in the door. ]
Thank you, Hana. Seriously.