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[closed] Time to Heal
who: Jace Wayland, Alec Lightwood, Izzy Lightwood, Magnus Bane, Max Lightwood
what: Jace brought with him to his new life a lot of injuries to his heart and soul. The memories associated will suddenly become old, blurred around the edges, and allow him the distance he needs to actually begin healing.
when: Amnesia Event, Morning of the 12th
where: Beginning in their new apartment.
warnings: Will update as needed.
Jace hadn't bothered with a bed when they'd moved into their new apartment. He had a mattress and a pillow on the floor. Sheets and a blanket. Books on the floor next to his bed. Clothes were still packed in a bag. He hadn't had much interest in shopping or decorating, but he had spent the evening picking up ingredients for breakfast. Cooking was an interesting distraction. Magnus had enjoyed his omelette so he was planning to cook for everyone now that they all lived together.
The evening was comfortable, nice, and for once he actually felt relaxed. A little too relaxed, but he blamed it on the lack of training and exercise. Maybe Alec was right. They needed to start training again. They needed a place in the apartment where they could spar and he could burn off all the confusing thoughts and emotions he'd been having. He still couldn't believe he'd almost kissed Alec. Kicking his butt in training would be so much easier than trying not to kiss him right now. And Magnus.
Izzy would find this all very amusing, he was sure of it.
By the time he made it back home he had already begun to feel off balanced, his thoughts thick and sluggish, and had only managed to simply drop off the bags of food in the kitchen before making his way to his room. For a moment before he stripped off his clothes he couldn't remember what he'd been doing before and then he was face down on his mattress, feeling like the room was slowly spinning away into darkness.
what: Jace brought with him to his new life a lot of injuries to his heart and soul. The memories associated will suddenly become old, blurred around the edges, and allow him the distance he needs to actually begin healing.
when: Amnesia Event, Morning of the 12th
where: Beginning in their new apartment.
warnings: Will update as needed.
Jace hadn't bothered with a bed when they'd moved into their new apartment. He had a mattress and a pillow on the floor. Sheets and a blanket. Books on the floor next to his bed. Clothes were still packed in a bag. He hadn't had much interest in shopping or decorating, but he had spent the evening picking up ingredients for breakfast. Cooking was an interesting distraction. Magnus had enjoyed his omelette so he was planning to cook for everyone now that they all lived together.
The evening was comfortable, nice, and for once he actually felt relaxed. A little too relaxed, but he blamed it on the lack of training and exercise. Maybe Alec was right. They needed to start training again. They needed a place in the apartment where they could spar and he could burn off all the confusing thoughts and emotions he'd been having. He still couldn't believe he'd almost kissed Alec. Kicking his butt in training would be so much easier than trying not to kiss him right now. And Magnus.
Izzy would find this all very amusing, he was sure of it.
By the time he made it back home he had already begun to feel off balanced, his thoughts thick and sluggish, and had only managed to simply drop off the bags of food in the kitchen before making his way to his room. For a moment before he stripped off his clothes he couldn't remember what he'd been doing before and then he was face down on his mattress, feeling like the room was slowly spinning away into darkness.

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"I don't remember coming home or coming to bed." And he'd clearly taken some time to remove his clothes. Although, he was glad he wasn't completely naked. And there were his clothes on the floor he realized, turning to look at the door. He wondered if Alec and Magnus were still asleep and then slowly forced himself to sit up, lowering his voice. "This isn't a list Alec needs to hear right now. Maybe never."
He wasn't sure of anything. He didn't feel injured. He wasn't in that kind of pain and he would know considering the condition in which he'd arrived.
"I may have...kissed him. Sort of. And I probably flirted with Magnus. A lot. There is also being my fathers experiment half demon child. Things are very fuzzy right now beyond those three major-no, wait, I was also falling in love with my sister and wanted to have sex with her. How is that for a starting list because I could go on."
He's definitely not short on sarcasm and guilt and a tangled ball of emotions he can't even begin to unravel at the moment. When he gets to his feet this time he manages the short distance to the door and carefully closes it, just in case.
"Do you have your stele?" Because he's going to try an iratze. He doesn't feel injured, he just feels....ready to pass out and thick headed, mostly.
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It isn't an automatic thing to imagine him in a vulnerable position. And Izzy's certain that this constitutes exactly that. "There's got to be a reason." Izzy offers, though, she's not entirely sure that helps. No obvious sign that Jace is hurt and no alcohol to contribute to the blacked out period of time...well that leaves possibilities that are even bigger potential worries. Though, Izzy has to actively refrain from rolling her eyes at Jace's insistence that Alec need not hear any of this. "Good luck keeping something from him forever." Izzy shakes her head, not foreseeing that happening, and not finding the secrecy to be that preferable.
Well, until Jace finally spits it out, anyway.
"Wait a second!" Izzy can't quite help the reaction, holding up her hand as a second cue for Jace to stop. "You kissed Alec and you flirted with Magnus?" It isn't often that Izzy feels shocked by something, but she can't help the fact that her eyes are wide with that exact emotion at the moment. Jace really knows how to come right out of the gate with a bang, by the Angel! Those two pieces of information are much more of a shock than what follows on the list; Izzy knew the rest, and she knew that he was struggling, but she didn't realize to what extent--or what all he was struggling with...because Jace isn't exactly an open book.
Pushing her hair back, Izzy remains seated, speaking even as Jace gets up. "What Valentine did to you and the feelings that you have, and are working through, about Clary aren't something that you need to fixate on, Jace. You didn't know. And you didn't do anything wrong. You can't do anything to change any of that, so holding onto it so tight is only going to screw you up more." She can't speak from exact experience, but Izzy has always tried to be understanding. Even with knowing he can't help his feelings...she can't help but encourage this because she knows that she's speaking the truth. "And not only that, but I've known you for a long time. I don't care what experiments were done on you, I don't see anything demonic about you. You can't let him have so much power and so much of an effect on you. You're stronger than that, and you're a hell of a lot better than him."
Yeah, okay, Izzy's one to talk there because her issues with her own mother have always been...difficult. And she's always let Maryse Lightwood affect her more than she probably should, but at least her mother isn't a sociopath like Valentine. Pulling her stele out, almost automatically at the request, Izzy offers it to Jace. "And if the iratze doesn't help at all? What then? What's plan B?"
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Jace, still trying to keep his voice low, pressed the heel of his hands against his eyes as if he could rub the fog from his brain. He could remember some things perfectly and other things there was nothing. But when Izzy spoke of Valentine and Clary he realized something. Everything that had been eating away at him felt strangely....easier? Muted. Not gone, just....less.
And then he felt the room spinning and tipping. "Izzy. Your stele." His knees hit the floor and he took deep breathes to try and clear his head, but he was on his way down. "Get Alec."
It was the only thought clear enough to make any sense. Something had to be wrong with Alec. That was the only explanation for what was happening to him.
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Is this complication, this action on the parts of both Magnus and Jace, a betrayal...or is there something more going on? Izzy can't help but allow her mind to work naturally, not bothering to avoid what she knows--using her intelligence. Magnus Bane doesn't do anything that he doesn't want to do. If Jace got that close, if the two of them got that close it wasn't a hidden discomfort, in fact, the possibility (to Izzy) just seems unlikely. She's never met someone quite like Magnus, and the warlock isn't one to be pushed over. If Jace had managed to cross a line...he'd have done, or said, something...right?
Izzy isn't even sure, but she doesn't get the chance to finish working through this new information. She doesn't get the chance to fully process or come to a complete conclusion because one moment Jace is upright and the next he's dropping to his knees. And that gets her up immediately, grabbing his hand to force the stele into his grip while half guiding him to lean against his bed. "Try the iratze, I'll be right back." Izzy speaks quickly before getting herself upright and moving directly for the room that her brother and Magnus share.
She can't quite help the split feeling of worry hitting her. If something is going on with Alec...it could be the reason that Jace doesn't know, even if the thought hadn't hit her before. And if it isn't...then at least Jace, in a bit of a roundabout way, agreed to let her get Alec. Though, surely he's feeling something is wrong? Then again, it doesn't seem as if he's in pain so much as...experiencing what looks like memory loss, dizziness, and a disruption in his equilibrium. Either way Izzy gets as far as the door before she lifts her fist, knocking rapidly. "Alec! Jace needs you!"
Descriptive enough, she supposes. And the response she gets, either way, will let her know if it's something that is happening to her brother that is taking a toll on her other brother--though, that is getting more complicated by the moment, truth be told.
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He didn't bother waiting to see if his husband heard, opening the door. "What happened?" Alec knew that he should wait for Izzy, but he couldn't stop himself from immediately heading toward his parabatai's room. He couldn't feel anything unusual through the bond. No wave of pain or fear. None of the agony that Alec had felt when Jace had died.
He couldn't think of that. Izzy would tell him if Jace was badly hurt. She would have gotten Magnus, not Alec, if he was gravely wounded. Repeating that logic to himself, he looked over at her, trying to hide his fears. "I don't feel anything odd. He's not - Physically he's okay."
The words were meant to reassure them both before he stepped into the bedroom, surprised that clothes were strewn across the room, heart clenching painfully when he saw Jace on his knees, like he hadn't been able to stand. Pulling his stele from his pocket, he automatically activated Jace's iratze. "What happened, parabatai?"
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A place where Alec wasn't dead. He was warm and Jace could feel his heartbeat, stronger than ever. And his hand. The heat of his rune burning under Alec's stele.
"Alec." He reached out and finally fell. If he was going to sleep he couldn't think of a better place to be. At least he knew Alec was safe and alive. Which meant there was something wrong with him. There had to be. He just couldn't remember what or how. Magnus had healed him so long ago.
"Iratze isn't working."
Maybe it was his demon blood. Valentine had been right, but he hadn't imagined it would be like this. Losing himself in pieces.
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The second that she sees her older brother, she knows that there isn't time to hash out all of the details...or get thorough with her explanation. So, she goes for the quickest explanation that she can give at the moment--she can elaborate later. "He's not hurt, no signs of any kind of trauma, but he's definitely experiencing dizziness, his balance is off, and memory loss." Izzy calls out, keeping on her brother's heels...which is a feat considering just how much taller he is than her.
Izzy stops just passed the threshold of Jace's room, stepping to the right and out of the doorway, watching the parabatai, but not moving to get in the way of either of them in the moment. She's not a doctor, she usually deals with dead people and bits...not live ones. And she's not the one that Jace wanted, even if he didn't initially want to involve Alec. Standing there, looking down at her brothers, Izzy addresses Alec. "He was lethargic when I woke him up." Crossing her arms, Izzy looks from the two men on the floor and out the door, figuring that Magnus (after a rude awakening like that) will likely follow.
Of the other adults in the house...Magnus is likely the most capable of helping, but Jace wanted Alec..and Izzy wasn't going to go against his wishes. When it came to his health, and something being wrong, she sort of failed sticking with Jace's wishes, but when he asked for his parabatai that all went out the window. The rest, though...that was safe with Izzy. Alec and Magnus would only get what was necessary to help Jace.
Izzy was a person that someone could trust, or at least that was who she aspired to be most of the time.
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Coming to the doorway, he silently watched as the siblings discussed what had happened. Jace didn't appear to be injured, but with all of the strange things that had been going on with him, Magnus wasn't going to write off his safety just yet. "Has he been drinking?" he asked Izzy, hating that it had to be asked. Since arriving and being released from the hospital, Jace had been seen with alcohol in his hand more often than Magnus himself, and he owned a bar. But even though he seemed to be kicking the habit, Magnus needed to clear that possibility.
He stepped further into the room, hovering on the edges. Alec was always different around Jace, his focus split between physical and spiritual, but all of him full of concern for his parabatai. "Perhaps I should have a look, Alec?" he offered, setting a hand on Alec's shoulder. "If he hasn't been hurt, and you don't feel something through your bond, it's possible that there's a magical origin."
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"No, he hasn't. We'd know if he'd eaten or drank something that would cause this." It'd be obvious if Jace was that intoxicated. With their metabolism, Jace would have to have alcohol poisoning to be so effected by a night partying. He knew that his parabatai was drinking more than he should, enough to make Alec worry whenever he left the apartment alone, but there was no sing of that recklessness now.
Trying to ignore the fear that tightened his throat when Jace said the rune hadn't worked, he pulled Jace closer, supporting most of his weight. "Magnus will know what to do." He hoped his husband would know since Alec had no idea how to help if an iratze wasn't working. "Nothing feels different than when we first arrived here. A weird echo, but I've felt that for months. He's not hurt and he's not possessed."
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He thought of Clary so far away.
He thought of his father.
So far away.
Maybe he was dying. He honestly wasn't sure anymore. All he could feel was the steady rhythm of his and Alec's hearts beating together. Alec was worried, but he was close. Alec was still right there with him, not fading away, and he wasn't letting Jace fade away either.
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Jace might not be her parabatai, but he is her brother just as much as Alec or Max. Watching her brothers, and Magnus as he moves closer to the duo, Izzy remains nearer to the door...just in case. Plus, she can't do much at the moment. She can't heal Jace and her expertise lie with the dead, not in treating the living usually. Still, she hates feeling useless.
"Magnus, do you need anything?" She might as well check, considering Alec isn't going to be moving any time soon, considering the way that he's cradling Jace, and the only person in the room that can determine if it's truly something magical right now is her brother-in-law. Jace, though extremely sluggish and definitely off was still here. So, there wasn't any certainty that he was in immediate danger. That didn't mean that they weren't getting on figuring out what the hell was wrong with the blonde.
This family takes care of it's own, after all.
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"Stay awake, Jace," he said as he came to stand at the side of the mattress. After a moment, he knelt down beside it to get close enough to where the parabatai were sprawled over the sad excuse for a bed. "When this is over, I'm getting you a real bed," he added under his breath, glancing at Alec and hoping the remark would be calming rather than seem flippant.
Hands starting to glow with magic, he glanced over his shoulder at Isabelle. "Nothing right now, not until I know what's happening," he replied. He reached out, both arms hovering above Jace, and then slowly spread his hands away from each other to blanket him in magic. Though there were no visible injuries, he still needed to confirm that it wasn't a physical problem.
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Biting his lip, he tried to ignore the guilt, gently nudging Jace so he'd stay awake. "Parabatai, you have t help us. Stay awake." Looking up at Magnus' comment, the guilt worsened before he carefully shoved it to the back of his mind so that Jace wouldn't sense it. "Magnus, I'd know if he was seriously injured. I've felt it every time he's been hurt. I wouldn't lie about it now." But he had in the past, but the two of them had agreed then to never tell anyone what had happened on the battlefield in Idris. "And I'd know if it was something serious magic-wise. Nothing's influencing him like it did with Sebastian."
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He remembered Magnus in the pool. The look on his face when Jace had literally run away from him and the aching temptation of something he couldn't name, was too afraid to name.
And Alec. Parabatai. Brother.
Stay awake.
But it was so nice to be free from.... "Warm."
That had to be Magnus's magic. It felt warm without heat. Nice. Soothing in a way he couldn't imagine before. So soothing, in fact, he found himself starting to drift away. He wanted to stay awake for Alec, stay by his side, comfort the worry away, but he also wanted to let go. Let whatever was happening happen.
It couldn't be something bad if he was feeling lighter than he had in weeks. Right?
Jace's breathing slowly deepened and his entire body finally went completely limp.
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Magnus ignored the reference to Sebastian since it didn't mean anything to him, at the moment. It was a keen reminder of how his missing memories could end up costing them, though, because he lacks experiences that should have helped him in similar situations. Though he briefly wondered if this had happened to Jace before, he shoves the thoughts aside since they're largely unhelpful. He was pulled back to the present when he could sense Jace relax and fall into unconsciousness, making Magnus sit up straighter.
"He's fallen asleep," he said without any tone of surprise. Unable to sense any source of the problem, he shifted the spell to lend some of his strength to Jace until he was certain he wasn't in immediate danger. As the magic faded from his hands, Magnus slumped forward and caught himself with an arm braced against the mattress. "I can't figure it out," he said, eyes closing as he felt the effects of pouring his energy into Jace. "There's no physical problem, nor anything magical or demonic that's within my power to detect. It's possible that this is a psychological issue, or something otherworldly."
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That was the problem. He hadn't thought He'd been so caught up in his own happiness and trying not to push Jace too hard about what was wrong that he missed something. "There isn't anything from the bond that would explain this," he answered. There was a faint echo of something but it was so faint that he doubted that it was what was causing this. "The bond feels stronger, not... not like when he - " Died.
Did Magnus remember that? Izzy wouldn't know since they'd both lied about what happened during the battle. He hadn't even told Jace what had happened, afraid that he'd feel guilty for Alec almost dying in the fight. "Why would something make the bond stronger, but cause him to react like this?"
Which would have left him elated if Jace hadn't slumped into his embrace, breathing slow and deep. Alec began to panic, looking up at Magnus for some hint of what was wrong, but his husband didn't look distraught like he would if Jace was dying again. As he felt the last traces of magic fade, he automatically reached out to help Magnus, swaying as he tried to steady both his parabatai and his husband.
When he was sure that neither one was going to fall over, Alec gave his husband a look that had become common between them, silently offering his strength to him. "Otherworldly?" It wasn't a term that he'd heard any warlock use before. Knowing that Magnus wouldn't accept a magical 'boost' until everyone was settled, Alec gently maneuvered Jace to the bed, pulling the blankets over him and making sure that he would be comfortable.
Gaze moving from Magnus to Izzy, he ran a hand through his hair. "I didn't know. There was no sign of anything like this happening to him." Would Izzy blame him for this? Would Jace when he woke up? If he woke up...
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But maybe that is what he needs, since there's nothing else that the warlock in residence can do.
Alec, though, is another matter completely. The defensive anger that bubbled up isn't unlike Alec. He's always felt as if he is his parabatai's keeper, when he really isn't. Still, Izzy remains silent, taking the exchange between her brother and his husband in and only once Jace is safely tucked into bed did she step forward and finally re-enter the conversation. "So, it could, potentially, be caused by magic that originates from here...or from someone that has magic from somewhere else, then." She ventures, eyes on Magnus while putting her hand on Alec's back and offering that silent bit of comfort.
"Like Magnus said...you know how Jace has been lately, you can't beat yourself up for not noticing something; he's never been the most forthcoming about things that are going on with him, even with you." Izzy gently reminds her brother, not blaming him in the least. Alec has always been the hardest on himself, after all. "And if he didn't even notice, you wouldn't have either." Izzy points out, peering at the prone blonde on the bed.
"We'll just have to keep an eye on him and wait for him to wake up, see what he might be able to share. Maybe do some investigating outside of Jace...see what else we can find. But there's no real physical problem, so he should be safe for now, right?" Izzy directs the question at Magnus, trusting his judgement without hesitation, honestly. Plus, knowing that his parabatai was safe, even if they were unsure as to what was going on, would at least offer Alec some comfort in the interim.
Because Izzy had no doubt. Jace's stubborn ass would wake up. She had to believe that, especially with what her brother-in-law had to offer. thus far. If it were something much more serious she had to believe he'd be able to tell. And right now Jace was just sleeping, even if they didn't know why.
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Turning around, he reaches out a hand for Alec to help him up from the floor. "Yes," he says to start answering Izzy as he magically moves the mattress and Jace from their current position until both are in place on the frame. Staggering slightly with the spell done, he squeezes Alec's hand but turns a small smile towards his sister-in-law. "Either from this moon itself, or one of the many worlds the portal connects us to." Those are easy answers, unlike all of the questions that Alec is posing. Glancing at his husband, Magnus sits down on the edge of Jace's bed and sets a hand on his knee. "There are possibilities we've discussed," he says quietly, not intending to leave Izzy out of the conversation but meaning it mostly as a reminder for Alec. After all, this wasn't the first odd thing to happen to Jace since their arrival in the city, though it was definitely one of the more dramatic ones.
"Like Isabelle said, there are a lot of answers we won't have until he wakes up. For now, it's safe to let him sleep and monitor whether or not that helps him. I've lent him quite a bit of my strength, and I can help either of you do the same if necessary." He pulled his hand back from where it had rested on Jace and used it to massage his temples. "For the moment, though, all I can do is rest and be ready for anything else that may happen when he wakes."