[closed] There is a terrible cost to dark magic, but you know what they say

[spellslots]

who: Taako + various others (if u want something hmu!)
what: What it says on the tin! Catch-all for the next few weeks to save spamming y'all
when: mid July - when I decide I need a new one of these
where: Arounnnnnd
warnings: None yet, will update if necessary

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[causational]

[Eddie manages a sad little smile in return, and licks his lips, scraping his nails lightly across his knee, needing something to do with his hands.]

Yeah. And...I'd like to be friends, still, if you think you can? You're really great, and I'd miss having you in my life, talking to you, joking around, having a beer, watching a movie, whatever. And you know if you need me you can call, right?

[He hasn't forgotten Taako needing a pickup at the clinic after his run-in with Dodger, needing Eddie's shirt. Something in his chest twinges at that, and he feels stupid, because he's probably feeling this more than Taako. He was more attached, he's pretty sure.

So when Taako asks if this is the part where he goes, Eddie swallows hard and shrugs.]

Can you go home? I'm not gonna throw you out or anything and I know things are uncomfortable there for you. If you need to stay, you need to, but I think I might need a few minutes alone.

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I think I can manage the friends thing, but no promises on the beer.

[It's a joke, trying to make it clear that he's-- he's okay, this is fine, even if it takes him another second and a steadying breath to get to his feet. And then he's not sure what to do with himself yet again, but he takes a half step back, not wanting to crowd Eddie now they're on different levels.]

It's cool, bubbale, I've got Bryn on speed dial and also like... still a wizard. I'll always have that going for me.

[He can make himself a house if he needs to, at least for a night.]

[causational]

Fine, fine. You can drink whatever you want.

[It's an attempt at joking back, but it hurts, the fact that less than an hour ago, he'd been in a relationship and now...now he's looking forward at probably a really long time alone. Eddie's not entirely sure he's going to be interested in finding someone else for a while, thinks maybe he's not cut out for it. The fact that Taako doesn't even mention calling him if he needs help, or talking to him, or anything but the beer just makes him feel even worse.

But that's part of the problem, isn't it? Eddie is earnest and open and Taako tells jokes, and neither way is wrong, but they don't work together very well.

When Taako comments he's got Bryn on speed dial and that he's a wizard, Eddie nods, holding his breath, avoiding eye contact.]

Yep. You are.

[A moment later, and he exhales the breath he'd been holding.]

I'm sorry.

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You've gotta stop apologising. It's better we got this shit out of the way now instead of a couple months down the line.

[When they'd both invested more time and effort into the relationship, when Eddie would feel more certain about what he wants and Taako would still be the same, waiting to go home to his family.]

I just hope you find what you're looking for.

[And he means that, really.]

[causational]

Sorry, I'm...probably not going to stop apologizing any time soon, it's just part of who I am, I guess. I'm sorry I took it too seriously all this time.

[Swallowing hard, he glances up at Taako, and offers a slight smile.]

I hope you do too. I mean. I know you will. You always get what you want.

[A pause, and then, softly.]

I know you aren't really...I don't know. I just want you to know. I really like you, I think you're amazing, you're gorgeous. I'm sorry it didn't work.

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Just don't like-- I don't need it, yeah? You're fine.

[He's not annoyed at Eddie, really; he's frustrated about the situation, but he's mostly annoyed at himself for not seeing this coming. He should've know better.

You always get what you want nearly makes him laugh, but he's worried it would come out too bitter, so he decides to just not touch that.]

And I liked you too. [Making it past tense feels more final, more certain. He doesn't want to drag this out.] Try not to get too hung up on blaming yourself.

[It's not hard to guess that Eddie might go that route; he's too hard on himself, too focused on making everything perfect, and Taako feels like he's just going to take this as some failing on his part, which isn't right, and it isn't what Taako wants.]

[causational]

[When Taako says he doesn't need it, that Eddie is fine, something in his belly goes a bit tight, and he nods, glancing away.]

Okay, yeah. Got it. I'll do my best.

[He takes a deep breath, then exhales it heavily, glancing back over at Taako.]

Is there anything you need to say, or...? I think I kind of need to be alone now.

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[There's a lot he could say, but nothing he needs, nothing that won't just make this worse.]

Nah, I'm good. See you around.

[And then he's just gone; this is awkward enough without having to walk himself to the door. Magic solves that problem.]