[open] Time keeps on slipping

[talentedscavenger]

who: Rey and whoever
what: Catch-all for July
when: Throughout July
where: Around Riverview.
warnings: None--will update as needed.

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[talentedscavenger]

[In the blink of an eye, Rey was swept up in a tight hug by Alex. She stiffened at first, taken aback by the sudden hug, but she wraps her arms around Alex. A stray tear or two coming down her face. She listens and it makes her heart ache all the more. Another person she had dragged into this mess, just as she had done with Cisco.

Cisco had warned her, cautioned her of the possible outcomes of what would happen in trying to give Ben a chance--and she promised she wouldn't beat herself up if it didn't work out. But, she was still doing that, wasn't she?]

I don't think he can be redeemed. Not after what happened--what we experienced. [Killing Snoke, offering his hand to her. To let the past die.

You're nothing...but not to me.

Those words stabbed her so many times, and yet she had to bring herself out and fight against him. Closed that door and forced herself to not look back. Maybe now, with him gone it'll be easier.]

I think...I think that's the problem. I want to have hope, but I don't think there is for him. He made his decision....and I've made mine. [There's a deep breath as she tries to pull away, not wanting to get tears on Alex's shirt and to hide those tears too.]

[11calls]

[As Rey talks, Alex's keeps that gentle and soothing hand on her back, and when she pulls away, Alex lets her do that too. There's a frown on her face when she does it, and she just studies the tears on Rey's cheeks for a moment as if she's considering before she speaks.

Because she is. She doesn't want to give up on people, but she doesn't know what Rey does either. There's no way for her to. So instead Alex does what she probably does to often, and complete disreguards the ways of it being one or the other.]

You know, you don't have to be all or nothing with this, Rey. I mean nothing is ever entirely black or entirely white. There's always shades of gray. You can do what you need to do and still give him a chance if you feel like he's earned it later on. But everything is dependant on if you're both in the same place at the same time. You don't need to decide anything now.

[talentedscavenger]

That's assuming he comes back--and I don't think he will.

[Ben wasn't one to be taken some place so easily, not unless he was chasing after something. More recruits, or places where the Resistance could be hiding. Could she give him another chance? She wasn't sure. That was assuming he ever came back--and even then would he remember? Would he remember their time together where, for a brief moment, it was fine? That...maybe they had some semblance of happiness?]

Maybe you're right, I don't need to be all or nothing...he's not here. If he comes back..maybe then I'll have it figured out.

[11calls]

People come and go all the time though. We don't know. I mean, he could just show up next week or whatever. Most of us don't chose to come here the first time, I imagine we wouldn't chose to come here the second.

[Which was probably true. But if Alex knew things about this place, like she knew Richard was here? She might do it. She didn't know. Before she'd been entirely gunho about not doing it, but now.... Now she was pushing those thoughts aside and just focusing on Rey.]

And it's okay not to have it figured out when he comes back too, Rey. I mean, emotions are huge and complicated and if we could figure them out easily, they probably wouldn't be worth it.