[open] Time keeps on slipping

[talentedscavenger]

who: Rey and whoever
what: Catch-all for July
when: Throughout July
where: Around Riverview.
warnings: None--will update as needed.

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[franciscoramon]

[ The pause is... worrying, and Cisco's reply comes within a few seconds: ]

gotcha.

it's okay not to know
you can hate him and still miss him.
and feel relieved and sad at the same time.

do you want company?

[ He might not be sad that Kylo has vanished, but he is concerned about how Rey will handle it, and wants to support her in whatever way she might need. Goodness knows, he's had some experience with how awful and lonely it can be, not even understanding your own feelings about something. ]

[talentedscavenger]

Shouldn't I know by this point? Considering our history--and...everything.

It would be far easier to hate him completely than anything. But..it's not easy. [So she does miss him. Wasn't that part of the problem?]

I don't know.

I wouldn't say no to it, but...it's hard to process everything right now.

[franciscoramon]

i don't think this kind of stuff is ever as simple as it "should" be
not for anybody.
and certainly never any kind of easy

that's fine.
i'll just come over and sit with you
and if you wanna talk, you talk, and i'll listen
and if you don't wanna talk, i'll be there anyway.

[talentedscavenger]

But it should be! That's the infuriating part! I should be mad at him Cisco. After all the shit he pulled, and all I did because I thought he wanted more than power...

I should be so happy for him leaving, but I feel...

I feel alone again.

[That was the hardest thing she had to write out. Facing the reality that she was alone again, in a way that she couldn't describe and no one else would really be able to relate to.]

[franciscoramon]

you aren't alone
you're never gonna be alone, as long as me and eddie are here
and i know that it's different but still

you can't worry too much about how you SHOULD be feeling
feelings just happen and then you decide where to go from there.
it's okay to feel upset

but you don't gotta go through it on your own.

[talentedscavenger]

It's not the same, Cisco. It's not.
It's a feeling--a connection, and...it's gone.
It's gone and I should've expected it to go away but...I didn't want to.

[Something else she didn't want to admit out loud, but she is to Cisco.

She doesn't even get to replying to the rest, quietly crying to herself--update that she feels this way, and even more upset that she can't get a hold of her feelings. Crying helps, in some instances, but she wanted to be in control. She didn't want to unravel.]

[franciscoramon]

[ Cisco has got to just take her word on that; he knows better than to push, when it comes to Force stuff. It's as much a religion as anything else, and Rey is allowed to have her beliefs, even if they don't make much sense to Cisco. When she says that she felt a connection with Kylo, he just has to trust that. ]

it wasn't wrong, not to expect it
no one is so prepared that life can't take them by surprise ok?
it's impossible
don't blame yourself on top of everything

i'll be there soon.

[ He sends that last message a little later, after Rey doesn't reply; she sounds like she's feeling pretty low, and there's a lot a hug can say better than a million texts. ]