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original: shigeru miyata

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who: Shigeru Miyata and you!
what: New powers, flower festival shenanigans, surprise special guest of possessed!shigeru
when: April 2nd and onward
where: Outside the wall, the park, around the city
warnings: Violence, blood, cute weird animals, will update if needed!

Action; The park

[ So for most of the afternoon Shigeru will be out and about drawing things as he is wont to do. Of course for him drawing was a means of therapy in a way. It helped clear his head and ease whatever anxieties or fears he might have. He honestly never thought that his drawings would actually come to life though.

So if you’re in the park one day you might hear a loud ‘yelp’ and see one lone cinnamon roll clutching at his drawing pad as the birds he just drew on his pad spring to life and just peel themselves off the pages. ]

W-What’s going on?! [ Is this another weird malfunction?! Is he going crazy? No he’s not because those birds are awful close and feel awful real as the squawk and nudge at Shigeru’s foot for some food. But unfortunately that pad has some other things in it too. Plants, tentacles, and claws will sprout themselves from the pages as Shigeru drops his pad on the ground and moves away. Oh gosh. Oh god. He doesn’t know what to do?! There’s a resounding growl as the spiky head of something will start to poke out through the pages. ] Oh no! I-I didn’t mean to do that. Go-go back onto your page! I-I didn’t mean to wake you up.

[ He sure is yelling at his drawing pad but the creature will grunt as it finally pulls itself out, along with some less than scary things as well. They are all surrounding Shigeru as he moves away a little, unsure what to do, since he suddenly feels really tired from using up a lot of energy manifesting all of them. ] I-I don’t have anything to give you. I-I don’t think pictures really eat…

[ Please help him he doesn’t know what to do?! But at least after only 5 minutes they’ll disappear, thankfully. ]

Action; Flower festivities

[ So when the festival really kicks off Shigeru will be absolutely ecstatic. Honestly how can he not be given this was the festival where he met Genji in that super embarrassing way?! Honestly he rather just forget that ever happened, so he's definitely not wandering around, looking for which type of flowers to give to Genji. Nope he's definitely not contemplating that as he huffs and crosses his arms over his chest with a clearly puzzled and uncertain expression plastered all over his face. ]

There's so many choices...but Genji can just grow whatever he wants. Maybe flowers isn't the best option? [ He says to himself as he sighs again. Auighsaju! This is so hard!!

He's having a big crisis right now. ]

Maybe something like a-a outfit? [ No. That's dumb. Maybe he should just get Genji a matching ring. Wait, that's not right. Oh my god he just though about getting him a ring unconsciously. Just kill him. He's so bad at this, lord. And while he's having this crisis the new foreign alien stall owner seems pretty exasperated as well, so they'll just shove a whole bunch of those varying flowers into Shigeru's arms and send him on his way. He's been there for like almost an hour so the stall owner doesn't even bother with making Shigeru pay. They just want him gone so other people can buy things?! ]

Ah! W-Wait! I didn't...pay you. [ Hrm. He now has an even bigger crisis and it's these flowers. If you bump into him he might offer you some, unaware of their effects. Which will you choose? Baby Blue Eyes, Chamomile, Rose, Crepe Myrtle, or Valerian? It's your choice! ]

Um. Would you like some f-flowers? I was just given these but I probably don't need them all so...you can have some.

Action; Outside the wall

[ When he can’t draw, which has never been an issue for him, the only other thing that helps him is, well, training. He does it from time to time but hasn’t in a while due to his gate getting worse and today just happens to be a very bad to have chosen to go out and fight monsters. A pack of wild alien dogs was not something he had expected to run into. And unfortunately for them running into Shigeru wasn’t good for them either. At first it looks like Shigeru will need help, as he's covered in wounds and surrounded. But his gate will activate when he's slammed into a rock, hard enough to crack it. He'll straighten then, eyes turning black and his irises purple as his gate erupts behind him.

Shigeru is injured but the wounds don’t last very long, although for anyone who sees him and comes to his aid the terribly nasty gash to his side still hasn’t healed all the way and the cuts and bruises on him are just beginning to recede. More alarming is the state of Shigeru’s gate which is riddled with black, dark, veins and dripping a tar like substance that disintegrates whatever it falls onto. Shigeru looks far worse than he has in a while, but the Shigeru that most know isn’t exactly around right now, indicated by the black smoke and runic characters now etched on both sides of Shigeru’s neck and face, each breath he takes a billow of black smoke escapes him. There’s also a look in his eye, murderous, and clearly unstable as he takes up his stance to parry the creature’s next attack.

The alien like dog creature will launch itself towards him, but Shigeru easily bashes it away with his shield as he lets out an amused laugh, turning and jumping into the air, slashing the creature through its hind legs. It’ll let out a pained, scared, yelp as it tries to fight but those black, inky, tentacles that sprout from Shigeru’s shadow pin the beast down. He’ll grab it by the neck and start slamming its head into the ground in a repeated motion until it falls motionlessly on the ground. Just for good measure he'll stab it through the neck, tilting his head a little as he pull his swords out and just...looks at the blood in a noncommittal way. Hm. That wasn't very fun at all. He’ll straighten with a stoic, emotionless, expression on his face as he lets out another laugh as he covers his eyes with bloodied gloved hands, a soft ‘ah’ escaping him as he turns towards the cowering pack whose leader he just brutally killed. His sword, shield, and gloves now all pristine as he disintegrates whatever blood that was on them. ] Pathetic.

[ Another laugh as he steps forward, sword at the ready. He doesn’t mean anything he’s doing right now. But it was a culmination of a lot of things that caused this. Stress, anger, sadness and heart break. He usually kept it bottled up inside him so it’s no wonder this would be the result. He’s not exactly all there should anyone run into him. Just don’t try to interrupt his fun, otherwise he might turn to you next. ]

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[ Shigeru's cheeks color rather noticeably with Genji's reply. ] I was too, I think. You were just so...calm and peaceful sitting like that.

[ But he shakes his head. He should be resting, he knows that, but when he sits he just thinks and ruminates of things and it makes him feel even worse. Dodger's last words to him still ring in his ears and he's just in so much pain that resting isn't an option. He just has to work himself until he passes out so he won't have any nightmares or be able to think too much. He'll shake his head, fighting back tears as he smiles. ]

No. I'm fine. It's nothing. Let's get started. I've been wanting to cook with you for awhile now, I can't pass up this opportunity. [ He says with a more genuine smile on his features now. ]

[ Oh Shigeru, always making Genji's heart squeeze for various reasons. He strides over to him and ever so gently cups his face with each hand. Genji's pale eyes seem concerned, almost sad. ]

There is no need to force yourself in front of me, love. Please, take it easy. You always put so much on your shoulders.

[ He leans in and presses a feathery kiss to his forehead. ]

[ The kiss makes him flinch slightly but he leans into Genji's hand, his own resting lightly over Genji's. His breath catches in his throat at Genji's words. He really hates this. But it's fine. He knows he can tell Genji anything and he won't get mad. So he lets out a shaky sigh, wiping at his eyes before he shakes his head. ]

I-I know. But I'll be okay. [ Liar. The physical wounds may heal but the emotional and mental ones will take some time. He just...needs Genji right now to help him with that. ]

Just...just stay like this for a few seconds. [ He'll bring a gloved hand to Genji's face, his expression pained for a few seconds before he smiles. He just needed some contact that was gentle and caring. ]

Alright. [ He says it softly. Genji won't push it for now, especially while he's hurting. Later though... he can't not talk about it.

Genji nods. ] Of course.

[ He leans in and rests his forehead against Shigeru's, closing his eyes a moment. Genji hums softly, a hoarse and rough sound, as they stand there and gathering their bearings. ]

I love you. [ He smiles faintly as he opens his eyes again, pulling away enough to look at him. ] Just promise to take it easy while we make dinner, okay? And let's go to bed early.

[ Shigeru just doesn't want to sour the mood any more than he already has. He'll kiss Genji on the lips after he pulls away. He'll nod tiredly as he looks away. ]

I will. [ His voice is soft as he replies. His chest hurts as he lets out a soft sigh. ] I love you too.

[ He'll give Genji another light kiss before he moves towards the counter to get the onigiri started. ]

I've wanted to cook with you for awhile now. [ He looks over his shoulder back at Genji. ] This is sort of like one of my dreams, actually.

[ Genji returns the kisses with a smile and lets him go, taking in a deep breath himself. He then goes to rinse his hands off in the sink before starting to touch the food.

But when Shigeru speaks again Genji can't help a broad smile, putting a damp hand right over his heart with a faint metallic 'thud.' ]

You always get me right through the heart with lines like that. I am more than happy to do this with you then.

[ He dries off his hands on a towel and heads back over to him, smooching him on top of the head. ]

You flatter me. I'll get a big head at this rate.

[ Shigeru will chuckle a little at the action, smiling lovingly back at Genji as he starts to prepare the onigiri. ]

Good because I'd feel silly if I was just doing it by myself.

[ He smiles at the kiss before he shakes his head. ]

You could never. I-I don't think you're capable of s-such things.

[ Genji chuckles and goes to get out the nori. ]

You would be surprised. But I don't foresee it happening again.

[ He gently brushes his shoulder against Shigeru's as the work, humming to himself faintly.

A little green sprig of a plant starts to creep out from the crevice in his wrist after a moment. Genji sighs and plucks it out, taking a deep and steadying breath. ]

[ Shigeru notices when Genji does that and he'll give him this look of worry and concern as he lightly touches his wrist. ]

Are you going to be okay? Your powers are...acting up, right? Should we take a break?

[ He smiles and turns to curl his hand in Shigeru's, looking at him. ]

No, it's all right. If I catch it quick it doesn't seem to get that out of control. My mind was just... wandering.

[ Shigeru lets out a noise of agreement and concern as he still eyes Genji's wrist. He does smile and nod however at the reassurance. ]

Okay. But if it gets to be too much just say so? We can take a break.

[ Says the one with hideous burn marks on his stomach and broken ribs right now. The pain has been consistent the entire time here and he feels himself getting weaker by the second. Shigeru will just let out a soft pained little exhale of air as his free hand unconsciously goes to his side before he realizes what he's doing and just uses it to balance himself against the kitchen counter.

It really does hurt, he doesn't know if he can stand for much more. But he'll just focus on making those onigiri instead. ]

D-Do you think we should...do something special today? [ Shigeru no. His face his going pale, paler then it already was to begin with, as he softly asks that question. ] It is sort of like an anniversary of s-sorts, right? So-so we should celebrate.

[ If there's one thing Genji knows, it's what pain looks like. Seeing his hand go to his side makes Genji stop what he's doing and turn to face him fully. ]

Shigeru. [ He holds his hand a little tighter, a warm little squeeze. ] The thing I want the most right now is for you to rest.

[ He looks at him, eyes a little sad. ]

As I said, you do not have to force yourself in front of me. Please, let's just go to my room and rest. I can bring you some food.

[ He just...looks so upset there and then, almost like he's about to breakdown and cry. ]

But I. I'm fine. It's okay... [ it's really not and he's tired and hurting but he doesn't want to disappoint Genji like he had disappointed Dodger. ]

I-I don't want to...ruin anything with-with all of this. [ He just vaguely gestures to himself there and then. But the hand he's using to grip the counter is so tight almost as if Shigeru is going to crack it with the force he's exerting on it. ]

I...just didn't want to be selfish and-and make you worry. [ Because Dodger calling him that had hurt and stuck most of all. He doesn't want to make Genji take care of him on a day that's special to them both. ]

[ It makes Genji's heart break a little, to hear him say those things. Shigeru has always been so self sacrificing... does he really think so little of himself? A heat stings at the corners of his eyes and Genji blinks it back.

Genji moves closer to him, one hand still holding his and bring his other to cup his cheek gingerly. ]

I am concerned for you because I love you, Shigeru. You are not selfish for being in pain. And you have not done anything wrong, especially to me.

[ He looks sad again, eyes tired. ]

You are too wonderful to think of yourself as an inconvenience.

I-I did do a lot of things wrong... [ his voice cracks a little as he just wipes at his eyes again. He felt so horrible right now and he just wants to forget and leave it but he really can't. ]

I am. I-I'm just an inconvenience with this-this stupid phobia and these powers. And not knowing how to act. I'm only in p-pain because it was my fault. I...deserved it.

[ Of course he did or that's what he believes. He had hurt Dodger so very badly and he knew it would anger the other man so this was the result. ]

I broke up with Dodger. [ There. He finally said it. But it doesn't make him feel any better. In fact it just makes him feel worse now that's finally admitted it to someone else. ] I hurt him, Genji. I never meant to-to hurt him.

[ But Dodger had hurt him so many times before, even if Shigeru doesn't care about that or even hold it against the other man. ] I feel so h-horrible.

[ Ugh. He had given up on Dodger when he said he wouldn't. ] I said I would never give up on him but I-I did. But I can't risk turning into that monster again. I feel so...selfish.

We all have done things wrong in the past. It's what makes us human. [ Genji brings his thumb to brush against the corner of Shigeru's eye. ] Goodness knows you know all about my sordid past. And you do not think less of me for it.

[ He removes his hand to give him space. ]

I have never once thought of you to be a burden, my love, you know this. But I know how hard it is to quiet those thoughts when they appear.

[ But at the mention of Dodger... Genji is glad he no longer has the bright red nano-lenses in his eyes, as it would most certainly have made the expression that crosses his face for a moment all that more menacing. ]

Did Dodger do this to you?

[ No, it's not the time for his anger. As much as a part of him wants to rush out the apartment, find Dodger and cut his hands off— Genji lets out a breath and let's the fury inside him go. Shigeru, his love, is always more important. ]

You are not selfish for standing up for yourself. In fact, it makes you so incredibly brave. He is the one who is selfish, not you. You have done nothing to apologize for, ever.

[ Genji doesn't notice how emphatic his words are getting until he finishes, taking in a gulp of a breath. He leans down to press his forehead against Shigeru's, speaking softly and almost pleadingly. ]

I love you. I will never hurt you. I want us to make dinner like this every night.

I just wish I was better at-at all of this. [ He means relationships in general. Though when Genji asks about Dodger Shigeru's face pales as he looks away. He...doesn't say anything as he just covers his eyes with his hands and lets out a small, choked back, sob. Ugh he feels so pathetic crying like this. He hates how all of this has gone down. He never wanted it to occur like that at all. ]

I-I shouldn't have broken up with him while he was in the hospital. [ He'll say that through more sobbing. ] I should have listened to-to C-Cisco and took someone with m-me. I didn't think he-he would hurt me...

[ Not like he had, physically or mentally. It was just...the wounds were still so fresh and he'd been good about hiding them this entire time until now. But getting it off his chest like this made him feel better, even if it was Genji who he's crying his eyes out to. He'll just wipe at his eyes as he takes a few shaky breaths, each one causing him to flinch in pain. He's still holding his side, where his ribs are, so Genji can probably guess that underneath his shirt does not look pretty at all. Shigeru just looks back at Genji with tears in his eyes before he cries a little bit more at the other man's words. ]

I'm sorry.

You are the first person I have ever shared myself like this with, you know. We are all learning.

[ Seeing him cry just makes his heart ache even worse. Genji wishes he could do something to take his pain away in an instant... but it doesn't work like that. If things were only so easy. ]

You did the right thing. Your pain is not your fault. None of it.

[ Genji pulls away a little and squeezes his hand softly. ]

Let's go rest. Please? I'll bring you something to eat. You need to sleep to heal.

[ Shigeru will just sniffle as he wipes at his eyes and nose with his gloves. Ugh now they're dirty and he wants to wash his hands as he thinks about all this again and again. The stress building up as he rubs at his hands.

He nods silently as he finally calms down from everything. He's safe with Genji and he knows he'll protect him no matter what. It felt nice to get that out and off his chest though. Still there's the matter of his wounds that Genji will not be pleased with seeing when he finally does. ]

I...I ruined the day for us. [ It's just a blatant and dull sounding admission as he looks tiredly down at his hands. At least he managed to stop scratching them before they bled. ]

I'm s-sorry for-for bringing up my-my problems again.

You haven't ruined anything, love. I would much rather know how you're feeling than not.

[ Genji reaches and puts his warm hands in Shigeru's. ]

You never have to apologize for that. I always will listen and help you.

[ With a gentle tug, he leans down to press a kiss to the top of his head. ]

Let's go to my room so you can sit down.

[ Shigeru will flinch but it's just an automatic response at this point. He'll still wipe at his eyes, now red and puffy, with a gloved hand. ]

I-I feel like such a-a burden to you though. [ But hopefully this will be the last of it, now with Dodger out of the picture. But he can't say he really knows for sure if that'll be the case. ]

Okay. [ His voice is soft, tired, and most of all pained as he clutches at his side again when he finally moves. His ribs hurt from the added efforts of crying now and he's just extremely uncomfortable. But maybe lying down will help his broken ribs. ]

You are never a burden. We all need someone to help hold us up sometime and there is no shame in that.

[ With a gentle hand of assistance, he leads Shigeru back into his bedroom and helps get him sitting on the bed gingerly. ]

Do you need anything for the pain? Or something to drink?

[ Shigeru lets out a soft noise of acknowledgement as he looks back at Genji. He'll take a seat once they're in Genji's room with an obvious sign of pain as he flinches and sucks his breath in a little. It's really obvious that he's uncomfortable and in a lot of pain but he'll still shake his head regardless. ]

Maybe something to-to drink would be good. [ And so he can check on his wounds while Genji is out of room. He gives him a staggered, shaky, smile. ]

If it's not t-too much trouble.

Not at all. I made some tea a bit ago, just a moment.

[ He goes back into the kitchen and just... breathes. Genji closes his eyes and puts his hands over his mouth, turning his head up to the ceiling. In, out. The gentle tune of Master's omnic orbs.

Revenge solves nothing. It takes only the one who seeks it. It would hurt the one he loves more to rush out of here, find Dodger, and make him feel as much pain as Shigeru has. Tenfold.

Genji drops his hands and goes to the cupboard, getting a cup and pouring some tea. He heads back into his room quietly, a soft little smile on his face. ]

Here. Do you need any help getting ready for bed?

[ And while Genji isn't in the room Shigeru will shakily lift up his shirt to check on his ribs, which are still in terrible condition, but at least he's healing slowly. His face is very pale when he quickly shifts in place and pulls his shirt back down when Genji enters the room again. But Genji will probably get a quick glimpse of Dodger's work, the bruising intense and angry spreading down most of his chest.

He'll shake his head there and then. He doesn't want Genji to see it. He doesn't want him to...do anything to Dodger because he's scared Dodger and Genji fighting will actually kill Genji or Dodger this time around. If Genji got hurt because of him, he's not sure what he would do. He wouldn't be able to handle it. Especially since he just broke up with Dodger he knows Genji is a prime target for him right now. ]

N-No. I-I'm okay to do it by myself. You've done more then enough for me as is. So I-I can do the rest.

Edited 2018-04-15 08:13 (UTC)

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