[closed] time for a talk, bossman

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who: Barold & Kravitz
what: Feelings.
when: vague noises
where: A Bar
warnings: Drinking and Gay

[ Alright. Didn't take a genius to put together that this wasn't the most ideal situation for Kravitz. He'd been updated by Taako before anyone even knew Kravitz was around. Then there was the hologram thing. No way Taako is just ready to jump back into a relationship he hasn't even been in for a year. And no one would blame him.

But that didn't mean that Kravitz was fine either. The way he saw it? He was the closest thing to a friend that Kravitz had here. Maybe even at home, too. He wasn't a popular dude, Death. But. Hey. He liked him. And he needed a friend. At least he could relate with years of knowing Taako, knowing what it was like to be with a twin.

He sends a text to Kravitz ]

Hey man. How about me and you go hit up this cool new bar I heard about?

[ Don't make him say why. ]

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Yeah... Yeah he has.

[ Fuck. How does he. How does he even go about this. How do you comfort someone in this situation. He knows Taako. He knows him super well. He knows his brother in law can be a selfish pain in the ass but.

He's still good. Deep down under that. Where it really matters. ]

Listen, I can't-- pretend like I know what the fuck goes on in Taako's head. Half the time, I don't think Taako knows.

[ He finally drops his hand but he's sitting at noon rather than 9'oclock to Kravitz's 3. ]

But I know we both know he's a good guy. That he's gonna try to do the right thing. He might fuck up, but he'll try. And, at the end of the day, you know what your future is.

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[ That's... something he hadn't thought of. That he's not going to be here forever, neither of them are, and at the end of it the Taako he remembers will be right where he left him.

It's a lot to get your head around, and Kravitz isn't sure he ever will. ]

If you'd gotten here to find that Lup didn't remember you - or that she did, but she remembered basically none of your time together and had been without you so long it basically didn't matter anymore... would knowing that eventually you're going back to the one you know make it easier?

[ He's not being facetious to make a point here. The almost pleading look in his eye when he looks up at Barry makes it clear that he really wants to know. ]

If things were that different, do you think you could manage to love her any less?

[ Because I sure as fuck can't. ]

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[ He has a good point but. ]

I could never love her less. Ever.

[ That probably goes without saying. Everyone knows he worships the ground she walks on. ]

The thing is though... If that's a Lup from a different time, who didn't have any memories of us together, only kinda knew it happened, doesn't feel like she loves me... That's not my Lup. My Lup would be home. Waiting for me. I-I'm not saying it's any easier! Or that it wouldn't be one of the most painful things I've ever experienced but.

[ He looks at him, eyes soft. ]

My Lup would be at home.

[rapsheet]

[ Maybe that should be it. Maybe it should be that easy. To think of his Taako, back in the Faerun he remembers, and just be content to wait to go back to him.

Kravitz sighs, elbow on the table, and rests his cheek on his hand. ]

I don't know how to think of him as some... other person. I'm not sure I can, even if I did want to.

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[ It's. Such a good point that Barry knows would affect him too. ]

Yeah. Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. Those two twins... They're hard to overcome, huh?

[ He says it with the most love in his eyes and heart and down to his very soul. Yes, he loves Lup, but he also loves Taako. They're family, in one way or another.

But maybe he can help lighten Kravitz's mood. He grins and gently nudges him. ]

You think Taako can be a pain in the ass now? Imagine what it was like with doomsday every year.

[rapsheet]

[ That's fair. Kravitz might not have a hundred years of memories to pull from - at least not ones involving the same people, or even usually people at all - but he thinks he can very much relate to how impossible the twins are to look past. Don't believe he didn't try, after all. As unbelievable as it sounds now there was actually a time when he was considered quite good at his job. ]

Oh?

[ He lifts an eyebrow and attempts a smile, at least willing to let himself be cheered up now that he's gotten the worst of his fears off his chest. ]

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[ Barry smiles, trying to keep up the light humor. There's... nothing to really do is there but just keep smiling? The only way he can help is keep the boss in good spirits (HAH) and listen to him about his problems. ]

Imagine extreme apathy mixed with extreme stress. It was buckwild.

[ He relaxes against the table again. ]

But, there was a few times that were amazing. There was this world that was nothing but a tropical beach. He taught me how to swim and convinced me that I should do something about being madly in love with his sister.