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riverviewlogs2018-02-25 04:00 pm
buildsomething) wrote in riverviewlogs2018-02-25 04:00 pm
[closed] it's too late, it's too soon or is it?
who: Tony, Steve, Bucky and Sam
what: Tony has some issues that apparently need airing
when: Feb 15 - 28
where: Around
warnings: References to brainwashing, trauma and death
[Despite what it might seem, Tony is not a man who dwells on things. Dwelling would require actually focusing on his issues at all, and he'd much rather just bury everything and move on. It doesn't always work particularly well, but it's a defense mechanism that settled into place too long ago to be easily changed.
So when he finds his mind drifting towards his sore spots whenever he's not concentrating on anything else, it gives him pause. It's not entirely unexpected, there's been a lot of reasons those old hurts have been kicked up lately. The fact that he can't stop thinking about them is weirder, but Tony's had worse reasons to buckle down and focus harder on his work.
The black lines start appearing on his skin is when Tony begins to suspect something is wrong. Well actually, the first thought at seeing the marks, swirls of black stretching away from the circle of scar tissue in the center of his chest, is pure panic. It fades quickly enough, the rest of it doesn't feel anything like the palladium poisoning, even if it looks uncomfortably similar. Actually, it just kind of itches. A constant irritation to the skin that is impossible to ignore. And it just keeps getting worse.
It doesn't take much digging around the network to figure out what this is. What he intends to do about it is a little more difficult. Tony has plenty of reasons to keep his issues to himself. He can see who breaks first, himself or a stupid spell.]
what: Tony has some issues that apparently need airing
when: Feb 15 - 28
where: Around
warnings: References to brainwashing, trauma and death
[Despite what it might seem, Tony is not a man who dwells on things. Dwelling would require actually focusing on his issues at all, and he'd much rather just bury everything and move on. It doesn't always work particularly well, but it's a defense mechanism that settled into place too long ago to be easily changed.
So when he finds his mind drifting towards his sore spots whenever he's not concentrating on anything else, it gives him pause. It's not entirely unexpected, there's been a lot of reasons those old hurts have been kicked up lately. The fact that he can't stop thinking about them is weirder, but Tony's had worse reasons to buckle down and focus harder on his work.
The black lines start appearing on his skin is when Tony begins to suspect something is wrong. Well actually, the first thought at seeing the marks, swirls of black stretching away from the circle of scar tissue in the center of his chest, is pure panic. It fades quickly enough, the rest of it doesn't feel anything like the palladium poisoning, even if it looks uncomfortably similar. Actually, it just kind of itches. A constant irritation to the skin that is impossible to ignore. And it just keeps getting worse.
It doesn't take much digging around the network to figure out what this is. What he intends to do about it is a little more difficult. Tony has plenty of reasons to keep his issues to himself. He can see who breaks first, himself or a stupid spell.]
omg I thought I posted this last night
Yeah, I still got issues. But they aren't with you - or with anyone else, for that matter.
[Just his own brain, working against him.]
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[It's not the greatest attempt at humor, but he is at least trying to break the tension a little more.]
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[He likes Rhodey. It's just these old white guys who've never been out in the field in their damn lives who need to shut the hell up.]
And I'm not too wild about HYDRA, or Zemo.
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Yeah, fair enough. I don't think anyone likes any of them.
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[Or a lot less screwed up, depending on who you're comparing him to. It varies.]
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[He just doesn't understand how Sam's mind works. How he can actually be as understanding about everything as he acts. It makes Tony want to keep picking away at the facade to find what's underneath, except what's under there is just more of the same. Apparently.
That kind of thing is unusual in Tony's experience. Just a little.]
Trying to make sure there's nothing lingering, I guess. That kind of thing eats away at you over time. [He'd know.]
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[So dry. He knows, Tony. He knows.]
Relax, man, there's nothing waiting to come out and bite you in the ass.
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Well. Good.
[So this is awkward.]
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[Yeah, it's awkward, so Sam tries to make it easier with a joke. He knows there's still an elephant in the room, but he's avoiding it as best he can, as always.]
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Look, a lot of shit happened that I didn't see coming, don't blame me for being cautious.
[Which is not something Tony likes to admit, but it's easier than the rest of the conversation they've been having.]
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[And he's pretty sure that Tony's talking about more than just their most recent adventures - but, to be fair, they've all been more or less blindsided ever since Loki dropped in.
Thanks, Loki.]
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[He lets out a long sigh and tips his head back against the couch cushions. How is it that all this emotional bullshit is always a million times more exhausting than an actual fight to the death.]
Anyway. Sorry for dragging you over here.