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[anotheroldsoldier]

who: Bucky & Ava, Ivar, Natasha
what: Memory share.
when: During the event
where: Dreamscapes mostly, maybe some in-person threads around the city.
warnings: Violence, brainwashing, Winter Soldier things.

[ooc: Prompts below. Nothing open but hit me up at nekky if you want something with Bucky during the event or just generally in October.]

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[anotheroldsoldier]

[He doesn't doubt that Ivar has done some bad things. He's a viking, after all, and the entire human population of that time period wasn't exactly known for peace and diplomacy. But then he continues, and Bucky has to agree, blowing out a slow breath.]

It is worse. Being used like that. Turned against everything you ever cared about. I hurt my own country, my own people, I killed innocent people on all sides. [The ache of this particular memory still feels fresh in his chest.] And they took away the one person who ever made me feel like a human being during those days.

[ragnarsson]

I'd kill whoever did that to me.

[Revenge was a very large part of what had always driven Ivar. He lived for it, really, getting back at those that had essentially ruined his life. It was what gave him the motivation to become the feared leader of the Vikings that the history books remembered him as.]

Did you ever get back at them?

[anotheroldsoldier]

[That response doesn't surprise him. In a way, a lot of the time, he and Ivar think alike, when it comes to certain subjects. Revenge is one of those.]

I'd like to tell you I did. That it made me feel better. Made things right with the world. [He can't keep the bitterness out of his tone.] I tried to, you know. But I didn't get back at anybody for what I went through.

I found Natasha again. That... helped. But now we're broken up again.

[ragnarsson]

[Ivar listens. That all completely sucks in his opinion. At least he'd been able to get a measure of satisfaction out of killing the man responsible for murdering his father.]

You know, every time when I think about how shitty my life has been, I'm reminded there's always someone out there who's had it worse.

[Such a kind and empathetic teen he was most definitely not.]

[anotheroldsoldier]

[It does suck. His comment gets a wry, humorless little smile out of Bucky and a dry,] Thanks. That makes me feel better.

[In a way... it kind of does. Just the commiseration on shitty lives lived helps a little.]

[ragnarsson]

[The dream seems to be fading away now into mist and shadows. He recognizes that after being in more than a few dreams.]

I'll keep what I've seen here to myself.

[He wouldn't want anyone spilling his own secret memories, so he has enough respect to do the same for Bucky.]

[anotheroldsoldier]

[He nods once, shoulders relaxing incrementally.]

Thank you. I appreciate that.