causational: (realizations)
Eddie Thawne ([personal profile] causational) wrote in [community profile] riverviewlogs 2017-10-20 02:21 am (UTC)

[It just seems so silly, so inconsequential, not something to get upset or worked up over. But Cisco is looking up at him with his eyes bright and wet and a face that's still soft and slightly crumpled with grief and Eddie just doesn't get it. Not until Cisco asks him to imagine he closed his eyes and saw that happening to Cisco, how it would feel to watch him get hit and berated, his family and appearance insulted.

It would feel awful. And it's only when he imagines that in detail, and then Cisco says that that's how he's feeling right now that Eddie understands, an understanding that's almost immediately followed by overwhelming guilt for having brushed off Cisco's feelings, having not taken them seriously. He doesn't entirely realize that it was more his own feelings he wasn't taking seriously than Cisco's.

His own face falls a little, and almost immediately as Cisco's talking about being puny and nine but still wishing he'd been there to help him, Eddie's shaking his head.]


I'm sorry, Cisco. I didn't mean to brush off how you were feeling about it. I guess I just never really thought of it as being, you know, important, I guess. It's been so long and I already did what I could to fix it. I know if I'd seen you I'd be really upset, and feel protective, I just never thought...when it was me...

[The truth is, he hadn't thought it was important.]

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