So what if you can see the darkest side of me..

[hititwithacrowbar]

who: Jason Todd
what: October Catch All & Memeshare
when: 9th-22nd
where: All around.
warnings: This post will be full of triggery things as Jason's life has been a horror show. A quick overview, child abuse, drug use/overdose, under-aged smoking, child death, buried alive, and murder, illusions to drowning. Angst, buckets of angst. Anything else will be updated.
Note: Unless otherwise stated or plotted, each person who tags in will get a new memory. Feel free to poke me at opticon Dreamscape's can and likely will get more than one memory. Some memories will not only have text, but also pictures in which they were pulled from.



A: Mom checked out (Drug use and violence implied)
It looked like a abandoned room. No power, a dirty wooden floor, bare wooden walls and a mattress on the floor surrounded by candles. The most beautiful thing in the room was the woman laid on the mattress. A bandage on her arm. Her red lock's dyed black. He hated when she dyed her hair, but what she does when he's out he can't stop, out of everything she does with her life a bit of dye was the least bad.

"You see, Mom... I hurt someone today. I was getting us food." He spoke to the unconcious woman as he held her hand. She was the full focus of his attention. Guilt laced his voice. "I know you're not hungry much right now, but you need to eat something. Some guy came out of the alley. He tried to take it from me. From you. From us. I just got so angry, I couldn't think. I started hitting him over and over. When I caught my breath I saw blood on my hands. I let him run away... I mean, I think he's fine...but I didn't mean to do that. I didn't want to..." He rambles before tears start streaking his face falling from his eyes.

He knows she's not listening and he feels helpless. Nothing he does is helping her. "I wish you would stop taking that stuff. I wish you could hear me... I miss you." She wasn't going to answer...

[ Image]

B-Meeting the Bat

It was like any night, for Jason anyway, moving quietly through the streets of Crime Alley. People left him alone for the most part. Which in return got him left alone, again for the most part. Taking a turn down one of the desolate alleyways when he saw it. The Batmobile in all of it's glory. Well, why not. He thought as he moved forward with his tire iron. The big bad Bat's car didn't look like it was that protected. So he kneeled and got to work.

Once he had one tire off he heard someone clear their throat. Looking up his eyes went wide. "You do realize thats the Batmobile, right?" The voice spoke Batman was bigger than life. But he didn't run, no he did what he did best. He smarted off.

"Duh, you do realize you parked your car in Crime Alley, right?" Batman moved forward towards him and Jason swung out at him with the tire iron, he really didn't want to go to Gotham Lockup with his old man. The man dressed as a bat caught the Iron like it was nothing

"You wanna beat up on a kid, go enlist in the GCPD like every other bully in this city." He hissed at the man, who was now lifting him like he weighed nothing. That deep voice spoke again.

"I'm only going to ask you this once. So give some serious thought to your answer." Then he smirked, when Jason spat out a quick reply of 'what?'. "Are you hungry?"

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Now sitting on the hood of the Batmobile Jason was scarffing down a burger and fries. It was like heaven at the moment.

"Slow down, Jason, You're going to lose a finger."
"Sorry" munch munch "This is the closest thing I've had to a home-cooked meal I've had since..." chomp "... I had a home."

He looks up realizing where the hillside their parked at is. "Funny, I was here once. Looking for Wayne Manor. Trying to case the place but I got lost."

The Batman looks his way. "Why do you think its okay to steal from other people?"

"You kidding me? Look at this view. Freaking "billionaire playboy" think's he's king of the world. Pfft." Jason grumbles as he eats.

"Sometimes you have to give people a chance, Jason. They'll usually surprise you." The bat spoke before silence swept over them and both ate quietly.

C: Dig Lazurus Dig (Buried alive, illuisions to drowning, and pain)

Darkness, darkness all around. It was hot and stuffy this much was clear as Jason opened his eyes to the purest blackness. Trying to sit up he knocked his head into wood before realization sank in. "BRUCE!" panic building in his chest, he knew exactly where he was. It was a coffin. "BRUCE!" His hands moved looking for anything, ANYTHING. His belt buckle was all he could find, Forcing himself to calm down. Instinct taking over, if he panicked he would run out of air.

The belt buckle was used to tear the silk and hit the fine wood above. It took what felt like forever his nails long ripped off as he dug himself up, forcing himself to breath slowly. His hand shot up through the dirt, he was lucky Gotham was always so rainy.

He pulled himself up out of the dirt taking deep breaths now, nothing seemed focus anymore. A few steps and down he went....


His eyes opened again, green liquid obscuring his view. For a moment he sees a beautiful woman above the water, her eyes wide... was that fear? What was happening? Then the pain rushed through like fire.

It burned, and yet he felt like he was drowning and couldn't escape. Her and reached down and pulled him up. "Come now." She spoke quickly. He knew her.

"Talia."

"Yes, your story is not yet over, Jason." She spoke in that beautiful middle eastern accent of hers. Next they were running, he had so many questions.

"Whats happening!" He called to her as they reached a cliff-side and she shoved a duffle bag in his hands. "You are unavenged! Do not go back to him, learn before you react." She spoke quickly, dragging him up and kissing him fully on the lips before shoving him off the cliff. Him and the bag falling as she turned and ran the other way. Jason watched the world spin around him....

Comments

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ He wasn't sure what kind of reaction to expect, beyond tears. Which he is thankful haven't come. He always got so uncomfortable around people crying, that and he didn't ant to make Loki cry. ]

You inspire me, what can I say?

[ The blue eyes meet green, and there's no judgement. No irritation.]

Loki, I doubt I could even get it up after having to watch myself find my mother dead again, tonight. I'm not disappointed, I'm not put off by your love of Tony, none of that. Your my friend, probably the best friend I have in this or any world anymore. [ Then he gave a slight shrug of his shoulders.] The sex is just a bonus, so, yeah. Don't sweat it.

[ikols]

[ He melts at that, tipping his head back on the pillows once he pecks Jason on the lips again. Under the blankets he rubs his calf behind Jason's affectionately. ]

Alright, just checking. I'll try and be a less toxic friend to you than I've been to others, you have my word.

[hititwithacrowbar]

Jason gives another slight shrug and returns the quick peck before settling into the bed a bit more. A squeeze given to Loki's arm as he closed his eyes.]

Your not toxic, not in my eyes. You do you, I'm not judging. You have more reason to judge me. Now, lets go to sleep.

[ikols]

If we have weird dreams again, should I wake you up?

[ The dreams seem to be getting incredibly personal, the longer they go on. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

Yes, please spare anyone else seeing the shit in my head as long as your next to me.

[ He spoke, his eyes still closed, he was ready to drop back into sleep again. He never sleeps enough.]

[ikols]

Can do. Goodnight, Jason.

[ Tucked in anew, Loki yawns and resolves to actually get some sleep, which is much easier to do when cradled in protective arms. He hums contentedly and settles down, steady breathing evening out by a warm neck with a reliable heartbeat. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ Luckily if Jay's dreams went to anyone else that night he didn't make any sounds or move unhappily he slept pretty calm, at least until a few hours after dawn he shifted to roll into a move comfortable position... and started to roll off the bed before reality caught up. Two big guys on a little bed...]

[ikols]

[ Loki remains curled up in a tight ball as he sleeps, moving not an inch. He yawns as his human blanket shifts and lends a hand in grabbing Jason around the waist when he starts to slip off the mattress. Sleepily, he uses his Asgardian strength to haul Jason back into bed like he weighs no more than a pillow himself. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ His eyes were already opened when Loki pulled him back up before he could slip to far. His eyes widened a little. He wasn't light, and the fact Loki could move him so easily was both charming and welcomed. He shifted a bit once he was back in place, so he could place a kiss on the top of Loki's forehead. He always slept better next to the Godling. ]

I'll be back, going to shower. [ he spoke lower in case Loki planned to sleep more. Shifting to get up now.]

[ikols]

[ Humming a reply, Loki settles in the blankets more deeply and releases Jason so he can freshen up. He dozes in the meantime, snoring softly on a pillow that smells comfortingly like his friend. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ Jason didn't rush his shower, he took his time to just enjoy the hot water and let Loki rest all he wanted. Once he made his way out again, a t-shirt and jeans pulled on, he moved back to the bed and kneel down beside it offering a grin towards the sleepy one. ]

Wake up sleepy-head. You gotta make a choice, do you want breakfast in bed, or to go out and eat?

[ikols]

I want ...

[ Grumbling indistinctly, Loki buries his face in the blankets and squirms as if catching an itch, and when he looks up there's a womanly face there instead.

She squints at Jason over her blankets, no less tousled. ]

Want bacon in bed.

[ That's much better on all counts. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ A more cheeky grin crossed his feature's, Lady Loki was so cute half asleep. And still utterly beautiful.]

You're lucky your cute, I'll be back then.

[ He took one last look before making his way to the kitchen to start making them breakfast, for once silently hoping none of his roommates appear at the smell of food. He took his time with it, mostly so he could snack while he worked on his bedmate's morning treat.]

[ikols]

[ Content to be waited on, she falls back into a doze and balls up in the duvet, only her long hair spilling free as she pulls the covers over her ears. So warm. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ Eventually the bed dipped some as Jason kneeled again, resting an elbow on the mattress as he shifted the plate of bacon near Loki's nose to lease a little.]

Sleeping goddesses get no bacon saved for them.

[ikols]

[ Waking up nose-first, it's a few sniffs before a green eye cracks open. ]

You're the best, Jay.

[ Licking her lips, she props up on an elbow and crawls onto his side, settling with him in the bed at last. ]

All mine?

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ He settles more against Loki stretching his legs out a bit.]

Sure, I kind of already ate a bunch while I was cooking. I was hungry.

[ He wasn't gonna deny it, he looks out for number one first.]

[ikols]

Ah, good ...

[ Eating bacon out the side of her mouth as she dozily naps on Jason's chest, quiet noises of contentment eke out of her throat now and then like a satisfied fox. If she had a tail, it would be wagging. ]

You smell nice.

[ Something clean and showery mixed with food, utterly perfect. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ Jason reached down and stole a piece anyway, cause he could.]

A shower does that, best way to start any day, and it helps me wake up quicker.

[ He reached down to the bedside table where he had sat his coffee when he first walked back over, taking a drink. Far to much sugar and cream but it was how he liked it.]

Got any plans today?

[ikols]

[ A yawn stutters halfway out and turns into a squeak. Munching away, she shakes her head on Jason's chest. ]

No ... You're m'prisoner now. Bed forever.

[ Evidently Asgardians could stay up tirelessly for ridiculous amounts of time, but waking them up first was slow-going. Loki stuffs the last of the bacon in her mouth and drapes an arm around Jason, snuggling his tshirt. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ It was adorable, he couldn't even fight against it. The tired feeling of the Godling threatened to keep true t her words, bed forever. Not that Jason couldn't use some time catching up on sleep. ]

Fine, but, if I want to get up, I will, and I'll leave you here. Deal?

[ He asked, trying to suppress a yawn, moving an arm around her so he can card it through her hair. It was to tempting not to touch. He hated having such a thing for long hair.]

[ikols]

Don't leave me ... without warning. [ At least.

She falls asleep slowly, head pillowed on Jason's chest as his fingers run through her hair. ]

[hititwithacrowbar]

I'll leave a note and a kiss if I go.

[ He promised, despite being tired he kept the one hand around her to keep playing in her hair, a leg pulled up as he used the other hand to move the plate and grab the book he had been reading before he feel asleep the night before to read while she slept, if he even made it that long.]

[ikols]

[ She sleeps long enough for her food to settle, yawning awake a half-hour later. Loki's smile returns when she finds Jason is still there and she wraps around him affectionately, unsung fondness in the nuzzle at his neck and the arm looped over his waist. ]

Hello-ooo ...

[hititwithacrowbar]

[ He pushed the book closed letting it fall back more against his leg as he grins down at Loki, his arms been asleep about ten minutes but he refused to move it.]

Welcome back, beautiful. Feeling more alive?