memories are what make us who we are

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who: Bucky and OPEN
what: Memory sharing event (within dreams)
when: October 9th - 23rd
where: Inside dreams
warnings: Torture, forced memory loss, gore, violence, Nazis.

note: I'll be doing a new dream memory for everyone that tags in, if there are specific subjects you would like to avoid then please note them in your tag/subject line and I'll make sure to tailor the dream accordingly. This can also be used for Bucky to view return dream memories. Open to new and old CR, and you don't need to plot with me first; but if you'd prefer to then I can be reached on plurk at bibbety

[Bucky tries not to sleep too often even when there aren't oddities happening when he closes his eyes, but even he can't stay awake forever. He's only human, after all, the serum doesn't change that much about him.

But when he closes his eyes and drifts off, he's not expecting to be standing as an observer of his dream, like it's an incredibly realistic movie, and he's certainly not expecting someone to be stood beside him looking on.]

You're not supposed to be here.

[Depending how late in the event it is, and how many people he's seen in his dreams already, that statement ranges from confusion to tight irritation in tone.]

Comments

[anotheroldsoldier]

Did any of them ever get out? [He thinks with a sinking feeling of Leo Novokov, the things Natasha told him about that ordeal. How he ruined both their lives later on.]

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They didn't want to.

[Which is more horrifying to him in some ways.]

They were volunteers from HYDRA's best.

[anotheroldsoldier]

Volunteers or 'volunteers'? [It was always hard to tell in the Russian programs if the participants were there of their own free will, or just because they had no choice.] But no, I meant- One escaped cryo pretty violently where I'm from, I guess. Long after the sleepers had been forgotten. It fucked him up.

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[He nods, he could see why that would mess anyone up. Even coming out of cryo sleep in a controlled way was unnerving.]

I mean proper volunteers, they fought for the honour of it.

[anotheroldsoldier]

What a world. [He grumbles. It's hard to imagine anybody might want to fight for the "honor" of... all of this. All the shit they never asked for.]

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[Finally the screams from the other Bucky die down and the memory starts to fade, the dream starting to end.]

You won't tell anyone.

[About what he's seen, he means. It's mostly a statement, only slightly a question, Barnes is the one most likely to understand the importance of secrets.]

[anotheroldsoldier]

[Bucky nods once.] I won't. We've both got our secrets.