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October Catch-All

who: Lola Pacini and You.
what: Catch-All for Lola Threads
when: All through October
where: All Around.
warnings: Individual Items will be marked.

Open things will be marked as open, memory share things will have it's own section. Other things as the month progresses.

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Lola's comment sort of struck a chord in Keith. He was quiet for a moment as he considered it.

"I guess I've done the same thing," he admitted finally. It could be where his temper came from, if it wasn't because he had bloodlines tying him to a bunch of warrior-oriented aliens, but that was a different story for another time. She hadn't seen that memory.

Either way, he'd gotten himself in trouble a few times... maybe more than a few. And he pretty much knew almost all of it was his fault in some way or another.

"How did you know if that was the reason why?"

"Well, I kept thinking about how dad was after she left. And all the times she wasn't there. It just kinda felt... like that had to be at the center of it. How dad was, how much I didn't want to be like either of them, when it came to romance," She was terrified of being alone, more than she cared to admit. She made sure to keep people around, to make new friends, to make all the friends. To be cute and likable. Or try to be likable anyway. "Oh, and while I was here someone screwed my timeline up and I got to see how I'd be a totally different messed up if my mom stayed."

There was that, that helped cement what was her mom's fault and what wasn't.

Keith huffed a little, a somewhat contemplative sound as he listened.

"I've never really thought about how it would be different," he said. "It makes me wonder now, though, if things would have been different between me and Dad... or what it would have been like to have Mom around." It hadn't exactly been a warm relationship between him and his father, but Keith was really young when his mom left. He didn't remember much from before that when she was still there. He barely even remembered her. Part of him wondered for a moment if they'd ever really been a happy family at all. Not that his dad hadn't tried, but still... everything had always felt so stilted and awkward... like Keith just reminded his dad too much of what had been lost.

"I mean, I always sort of considered it being the root of some of my problems, anyway," he admitted. "Like, I just don't trust people not to leave." And, yet, it felt like people always were...

"I always wanted to, you know, be normal. Get all that mom and daughter talks from my mom and not the waitresses at dad's restaurant." Which isn't really a thing Keith can relate to directly, but she hopes it helps indirectly in some way. He flew a giant lion that turned into a giant man and fought aliens so she was pretty sure some translation would be needed no matter what. "Cause I saw my friends and their moms."

"I dunno, it's bad but it's also part of why I'm me. Why I'm nice to everyone and keep trying to be close to people." Lola was aware, now, who she was happened to be all about who she was and how she got here. It was what it was, it hurt, but it also... wasn't really worth changing.

"Maybe." Keith could understand wanting to be 'normal', but he also wondered just what 'normal' was anymore. His idea of that was pretty skewed by this point. But the idea of not standing out and being like everyone else was something that had crossed his mind a few times growing up. He was always different, and it had made things a little hard for him.

Of course, he never knew just how different he was, but he supposed that was something for another time.

"I tend to do the opposite," he said quietly. "I push people away before they get the chance to leave."

Lola paused, looked at him, and giggled. For the blindingly obvious reason. He says he pushes people away but he has a girl hugging him and he hasn't really done much about it.

"You haven't pushed me away."

Keith quirked an eyebrow at her, looking a little amused.

"You know I don't mean it like that," he said. "More just that I tend to be a loner." He shrugged slightly against her hug. "I mean, if everyone is going to leave me anyway, I might as well just get used to being alone, right?"

"I make the best of it with people, sure... they might leave. But it's a lot of fun while they're here." Lola's just going to press her face into Keith's chest for a moment. "You're also not allowed to feel alone while I'm here."

Keith was a little taken back by Lola pressing against him like that, but then he just smiled a little. Her shift in position made it a little easier for him to get his arm around her shoulders now, so he did. That was okay, right?

"Thanks..." There was still that nagging feeling that it was easy to say something like that, but to keep it up was a totally different matter, but he tried not to focus on it. If that happened, then it happened. It wouldn't be the first time, and it wasn't likely to be the last. But, she had a point. Just try to enjoy it while the person was there.

He could try to do that.

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