But since you've been gone, girl you know the thought of you's driving me mad

[ragnarsson]

who: Ivar and you! + some closed prompts
what: The Viking tries (and fails to) deal with heartbreak
when: After August 25th and into September
where: All over the city
warnings: Possible violence, mentions of underage sex



She'd left him. Well, to be more specific, Letha had left him and Winter. Somehow, that hurt almost worse than anything, knowing that she didn't love her own child enough to stay and care for her. What had possessed her to do it, he'd never know. They'd finally slept together for the first time, and while they lay in bed together afterwards, Ivar had worked up the courage to tell her that he loved her for the first time.

The next day, she was gone.

Apparently, they'd gotten that portal working well enough to send her where she wanted to go. Those running it told him where they'd set it for: Kattegat in 816. His home world. Wasn't that just a kick in the ass, that she'd run away to where he'd come from? Ivar had been too stunned at the time to do much more than wonder why.

Eventually, the emotions hit, and considering the Viking never had a good grasp on them anyway, they were all over the place. He could be found alternately crying his eyes out, sulking like a small child, taking his rage out at the weapons training center, or spending time with Winter to distract himself. He could be encountered in just about any mood, but one thing was clear: Ivar was hurting bad, heartbroken in the way that someone could only be upon losing their first love.

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[anotheroldsoldier]

"Good riddance to a bad girlfriend," he says, tapping his glass against Ivar's and then draining another shot. Liquor is definitely the answer right now. "Kid's better off. Long as you love her and do your best for her, you're gonna be a good parent." Coming from a guy who knows nothing about parenting and also hasn't been around a baby since the 1940s, but, he thinks it's a good sentiment.

"Just about. Plenty of people to give you advice." That's a positive, at least, but it's a shitty situation, and Ivar just looks so sad... It hurts to see him like this. "I know everything feels like shit right now. But I mean it, you got friends. For whatever you need." Even if what he needs is just to get good and drunk, like now.

[ragnarsson]

"I hope so. I'm not really a good person in general, but I think I can be good for her." What choice did he have otherwise? He wasn't about to abandon Winter like his own father had done to him. He found himself in the same position that his own mother had been in all those years ago, caring for a child that the rest of the world had decided to reject.

Ivar drains his own glass again. "I'm sticking with men from now on. At least they stab you in the front instead of in the back." Is he still making sense? The alcohol is finally starting to hit a little bit. It helps to numb the pain away.

Then he sets his chin down on top of the arms already folded on the table in front of him. His voice sounds small, not at all like the confidence and authority that the Viking usually tries to exude. "Can I ask a favor? Is it okay if I just stay here for the night?"

[anotheroldsoldier]

"Nobody's perfect. At least if you're makin' the effort, you're doing better than a lot of people." Everyone's parents screw up at some point, Bucky knows that Ivar will be no different there, but as long as he's trying, he thinks he'll be fine. The declaration makes him smile slightly, a little humorously.

"Guess that's one way to look at it. I'm just staying away from relationships for now. Men don't seem any less complicated." He can't help but envy how easy it is for some people to move on, to decide hey, I'll just date my own gender instead. Bucky isn't sure he will ever get past his breakup with Natasha.

His posture softens a little at that, though, and he gives Ivar's shoulder a light squeeze. "Yeah. You're always welcome here. Your kid staying with someone?"

[ragnarsson]

Ivar runs his finger over the edge of the glass. "Everyone is terrible. Sometimes, I think no one is meant to stay together forever." Aside from Floki and Helga, who were sort of his honorary uncle and aunt, no one in his life had ever stayed completely monogamous. People's eyes always wandered, and whether their partner gave them permission or not, they ended up straying.

He sits back up, slumping in his wheelchair. "Yeah. I made plans in case I couldn't get back to her." Ivar had the foresight to know he was probably going to be getting good and drunk tonight.

[anotheroldsoldier]

"I'm startin' to think that too." Not that everyone is terrible, he knows better than that, but that no one stays together forever. That's certainly how it feels right now, and maybe if he believes that no one is meant to last, he'll feel better about the end of his own relationship.

"See, you're taking to this responsible parenting thing already." He smiles just slightly. "You can crash in my room tonight. I don't sleep much anyway."

[ragnarsson]

"Nobody I know has ever really stuck together for the long run. Guess it's too much to expect someone to stick around. I should just get used to it." It was a shame to think this way. All Ivar had ever really wanted was someone who could look past the surface and decide he was worth it. But this was better than getting hurt.

Ivar downed another shot of whiskey, the faintest hint of a smile on his face as Bucky called him a responsible parent. One or two more and he'd be ready to hit the bed.

[anotheroldsoldier]

"Sometimes life gets in the way," he says mildly, practically. "Circumstances change. It's your friends that will always stay, I think, not your lover." At least, that's how it feels. He and Natasha have broken up but Bucky knows there is nothing he could do to shake Steve off his back, even if he wanted to. That kind of partnership is forever.

"You'll get through this. You're a hell of a viking."

[ragnarsson]

"Thanks for the vote of confidence." Ivar knew he was tough enough to get through anything that the world threw at him. It had already done quite a number on him back home, losing his mother and father at almost the same time.

Ivar downs his drink. It's definitely going to be his last. "I'm gonna go to bed." Hopefully, Bucky would just ignore the muted sounds of crying as Ivar sobbed into his pillow until he fell asleep.