I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sound like I was doubting like you loved me, and I really didn't mean to make it seem as if everything you were doing for me was an inconvenience. You've tried really hard to look out for me and make sure I was okay. You were there for me when no one else was. When I was depressed, you tried to fix it. You kept the nightmares from hurting me, and kept me from hurting myself more than once.
I didn't expect you to be okay with Teddy just like that, which is why I wanted to talk to you about it. I wasn't going to hold his hand or be close to him like that until we figured everything out but then you said everything felt like a dream to you, like it wasn't real, and it hurt. I was really happy during our time together, and having it brushed off like that broke my heart.
What happened wasn't your fault. I do love you a lot. I thought about you every day down there, when we were stuck. I knew you'd come for me even if we fought, because I trusted you to always help me when I needed it.
Please don't hate me for forever. I'm really sorry. All of this was on me. I should have been better, and I'm sorry I wasn't.
@loki ~4 days post kidnap rescuings | text;
I didn't expect you to be okay with Teddy just like that, which is why I wanted to talk to you about it. I wasn't going to hold his hand or be close to him like that until we figured everything out but then you said everything felt like a dream to you, like it wasn't real, and it hurt. I was really happy during our time together, and having it brushed off like that broke my heart.
What happened wasn't your fault. I do love you a lot. I thought about you every day down there, when we were stuck. I knew you'd come for me even if we fought, because I trusted you to always help me when I needed it.
Please don't hate me for forever. I'm really sorry. All of this was on me. I should have been better, and I'm sorry I wasn't.
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