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riverviewlogs2018-06-17 08:36 am
dothelokimotion) wrote in riverviewlogs2018-06-17 08:36 am
Entry tags:
[ open ] if we're all just cynics come undone
who: Loki + You
what: Rescuing + Canon update
when: June 15th + Late June
where: Around!
warnings: Spoilers for Infinity War, violence
[ Loki awakens.
It was startling, like he had forgotten how to breathe and submerged underwater for all his days. His chest heaves, fits of coughing wrestling his voice away from him as the doctors clamor above him, gloved hands resting on his shoulders. Violently, Loki shakes them off, immediately climbing out of bed and fleeing the hospital. Hospital. How had he ended up here? How —
A few blocks away, Loki stops, his back resting against the wall. Trembling, his fingers go upwards, touching his neck and drawing back with a hiss. Loki cannot see them but he can feel it. Dark finger-brands upon his skin, squeezing the life out of him, until he couldn't breathe, he couldn't see Thor, spots dancing in his vision, and thinking I don't want to go, I don't want to go —
He slides against the wall, boneless, leaning his head back. The sky looked so blue. His throat aches.
I could have done it, father! I could have done it. For you! For all of you.
Odin was right all along. Loki never could have done it. ]
[ i. infiltration, open to hostages and infiltrators joining him. ]
[ When Loki learned of the kidnappings and who had been taken, his anger overpowered any lingering feelings of self-loathing and tragedy. It was a task he could throw himself into, even as he constantly doubts any effort made in his part. Doubts the ability in his hands, the power in his bones. He would like nothing more than to squirrel himself away, cut off all ties. He didn't want to try anymore only to fail. He can't do it, he knows that now.
But . . . he found he couldn't stop either. For that, Loki blames Thor and curses him constantly under his breath as he and Jim sneak into the base, under heavy illusions, similar to the ones he has placed around his neck. The wound there was slow healing and even Loki's voice bore the slight twinge of soreness. Thankfully, he is nothing if not an excellent pretender.
Jim shoots a few people down, but Loki swats the men away. Steps on a man's neck as he makes his way through. Once they cleared the area, Loki drops part of the illusion to the hostages, his voice sharp and curt. ]
We're leaving. Can you get up?
[ ii. brawl ]
[ It had been bloody but short. Blissfully short. Loki doesn't join the medics (his healing gifts were mediocre and he is not in the mood to help out the entire community). He should approach his . . . friends. Family. But strength fails him as he stands there, looking hopelessly lost. Loki should be proud, shouldn't he? He managed to help, it didn't fall apart.
He should be proud.
He feels none of these things.
One of the kidnappers (missed by the general chaos) rushes at him, but Loki easily turns and grabs him by the throat. Squeezes. And then lets go with a gasp, colour draining from his face. The kidnapper stumbles back, confused but seeing an opportunity and rushes at Loki again.
Loki who is frozen stiff and cannot move. ]
[ iii. aftermath ]
[ Loki doesn't join the healers (he considers his skills in that area mediocre), but he does stop by a few people, healing them of minor gashes and wounds. He doesn't make eye contact. They come and go, and Loki is oddly mute, no quicksilver lines and retorts passing through his lips. Breath in, breath out. He waves them off. What Loki hasn't realized is the illusion he had placed around his neck was slowly flickering, giving away to Loki's bone-exhaustion. ]
There. Off you go.
[ iv. wildcard ]
[ Loki will be around, killing kidnappers, healing people and sort of drifting here and there, checking up on people. Post-event, you can meet him at Gramarye, in his office or doing a few quiet lectures or around Riverview in general. ]
what: Rescuing + Canon update
when: June 15th + Late June
where: Around!
warnings: Spoilers for Infinity War, violence
[ Loki awakens.
It was startling, like he had forgotten how to breathe and submerged underwater for all his days. His chest heaves, fits of coughing wrestling his voice away from him as the doctors clamor above him, gloved hands resting on his shoulders. Violently, Loki shakes them off, immediately climbing out of bed and fleeing the hospital. Hospital. How had he ended up here? How —
A few blocks away, Loki stops, his back resting against the wall. Trembling, his fingers go upwards, touching his neck and drawing back with a hiss. Loki cannot see them but he can feel it. Dark finger-brands upon his skin, squeezing the life out of him, until he couldn't breathe, he couldn't see Thor, spots dancing in his vision, and thinking I don't want to go, I don't want to go —
He slides against the wall, boneless, leaning his head back. The sky looked so blue. His throat aches.
I could have done it, father! I could have done it. For you! For all of you.
Odin was right all along. Loki never could have done it. ]
[ i. infiltration, open to hostages and infiltrators joining him. ]
[ When Loki learned of the kidnappings and who had been taken, his anger overpowered any lingering feelings of self-loathing and tragedy. It was a task he could throw himself into, even as he constantly doubts any effort made in his part. Doubts the ability in his hands, the power in his bones. He would like nothing more than to squirrel himself away, cut off all ties. He didn't want to try anymore only to fail. He can't do it, he knows that now.
But . . . he found he couldn't stop either. For that, Loki blames Thor and curses him constantly under his breath as he and Jim sneak into the base, under heavy illusions, similar to the ones he has placed around his neck. The wound there was slow healing and even Loki's voice bore the slight twinge of soreness. Thankfully, he is nothing if not an excellent pretender.
Jim shoots a few people down, but Loki swats the men away. Steps on a man's neck as he makes his way through. Once they cleared the area, Loki drops part of the illusion to the hostages, his voice sharp and curt. ]
We're leaving. Can you get up?
[ ii. brawl ]
[ It had been bloody but short. Blissfully short. Loki doesn't join the medics (his healing gifts were mediocre and he is not in the mood to help out the entire community). He should approach his . . . friends. Family. But strength fails him as he stands there, looking hopelessly lost. Loki should be proud, shouldn't he? He managed to help, it didn't fall apart.
He should be proud.
He feels none of these things.
One of the kidnappers (missed by the general chaos) rushes at him, but Loki easily turns and grabs him by the throat. Squeezes. And then lets go with a gasp, colour draining from his face. The kidnapper stumbles back, confused but seeing an opportunity and rushes at Loki again.
Loki who is frozen stiff and cannot move. ]
[ iii. aftermath ]
[ Loki doesn't join the healers (he considers his skills in that area mediocre), but he does stop by a few people, healing them of minor gashes and wounds. He doesn't make eye contact. They come and go, and Loki is oddly mute, no quicksilver lines and retorts passing through his lips. Breath in, breath out. He waves them off. What Loki hasn't realized is the illusion he had placed around his neck was slowly flickering, giving away to Loki's bone-exhaustion. ]
There. Off you go.
[ iv. wildcard ]
[ Loki will be around, killing kidnappers, healing people and sort of drifting here and there, checking up on people. Post-event, you can meet him at Gramarye, in his office or doing a few quiet lectures or around Riverview in general. ]
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He reaches up to rub at his face, before remembering just in time that he's still wearing most of the armor. Tony just sighs as his arm falls limply back his side.]
I think you, me and Sam are the only ones who know.
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[ Loki touches his neck with a hiss. ]
Mantis has returned. And she remembers.
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She doesn't. Not all of it. Not the end.
[And he's been a bit reluctant to tell her, for probably obvious reasons. Even above it being hard to fit I watched you die into a conversation, dropping something like that on Mantis feels a little like kicking a puppy.]
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No thanks to Strange's plan, which he failed to elucidate to all of you to begin with.
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What do you know about it?
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All I need to know of it is that it failed.
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Everyone seems to think there's some way we can fix it.
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[ He's still angry. Angry that Thor chose earth, angry at himself, angry for this pathetic bunch of people who dawdled and ignored all the signs. ]
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And what would you prefer, exactly? Lay down and wait for the inevitable?
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The inevitable already occurred and you lost. Hand the reins to someone else, Stark. You can't do it.
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[ Loki included, however much he seems to just like snarling at the moment. It's nothing Tony hasn't heard from the inside of his own head.
But there's still something about Strange's parting shot echoing through the rest of his skull. This is the only way. It has to mean something. ]
Doesn't mean it's over.
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I didn't lose.
[ Thor is alive. As far as Loki is concerned, that was his victory. He straightens himself. Loki was done here. ]
Do whatever you like, Stark. But if I find out that you've doomed Thor with your heroics, I'll pass along the same promise Thanos made me long ago.
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[ He's too tired to be threatened by Loki of all people. And honestly there isn't much worse things can get. ]
I'll pass along your regards.
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No, Stark. I won and Thor lives. You lost and got everyone you loved killed. Let's hope you learned something from it.
[ With that, he turns on his heel and leaves. ]