( Maybe Cisco needs to hear that. Clarice can tell there's something else, something more personal. She knows trauma, both in herself and others, can read it pretty well. And she wouldn't talk about it either, so she gets it. Instead she just reaches over and squeezes his arm once before dropping her hand. Zingo, more obvious about it, props her head in the man's lap and lets out a huff. )
One less evil bastard in the multiverse, right?
( Another smile, softer, but more honest. She won't push, but she hopes she's at least navigated it well enough so that he knows if he ever changes her mind, he can come to her. )
Have you been practising your power? I know you said some of it is pretty awkward, but the other stuff? The portals and the vibrations? ( This she can also relate to. ) John says it's about finding something positive to focus on. Bad stuff, it's harder to weild. But if you tap into the good in life, then it's easier to control. ( She shrugs, like she's not quite sure she believes it herself. She's tried that, and yet her power still flickers out when she needs it the most. But maybe she's getting there. ) Friends, family. Or like your presumably hot boyfriend.
( Now her energy is back and she gives Cisco a wicked smirk. She doesn't know what Eddie looks like, but she's going for it anyway. )
[ Cisco appreciates the recognition and comfort in that simple bit of contact, and appreciates that Clarice isn't looking at him with pity or, worse, expectant curiosity. He sets a hand on top of Zingo's head, scratching between her ears. It's such a simple thing, scratching a dog's head, but it grounds him, helps him center himself like Genji had taught him. He might not have said much on the topic, but, well, it was more than he would have been able to say a few months ago. Progress is progress. ]
Right.
[ He toys with the idea of telling her that Eddie had been the one to kill him, but then thinks better of it. If he does that, he'll have to explain how, and there's just no way to explain that without getting pretty depressing. Some other time, maybe.
He's grateful when she steers the conversation back away from his past and to the present, and his powers. ]
I have. Not the breaches, yet. I made myself gauntlets, to help with the vibe blasts. So I can be more precise and not just break shit. Mostly I've been trying to- to get it so I can use my powers without being scared out of my mind first. For a while there that was sorta the only way I knew how. But- it sucked, so. Yeah.
[ Clarice, from the sound of it, is familiar with that phenomenon. If John had had to tell her that focusing on positive stuff was better, from the sound of it, she'd been focusing on negative stuff before. Which... seems like something they have in common. ]
Ain't no presuming about it.
[ He matches her smirk, but then a certain nervousness creeps into his expression, and he rubs at the back of his neck, asking: ]
I was actually wondering... what's it like for you, opening a portal? I mean- I... I've never actually tried that, before, and I kinda don't even know where I would start.
( For a second she struggles with finding the right words. She's not sure how to describe the feeling her powers give her. Mostly because she's still not as in control of them as she'd like. )
Exhausting? ( A shrug, a laugh. ) I mean, no it's useful. There's just all these limitations to it. I have to know where I want to go, I have to have been there before, and to know the direction I'm going in. Because you do not want to end up in the middle of the freeway, let me tell you that. ( Twisting her mouth slightly. ) And then there's keeping it open. I have to focus on it. If I don't they could snap back like a rubber band.
( Just for a moment, her thoughts turn to the first time. The blood, the fear, the guilt. Clarice is good at keeping it locked up tight, but sometimes it slivers back in. Sonya wasn't the only person she's ever had die from her mistakes. )
I'm working on it though. With John. I'm trying to learn how to keep my head when someone needs me.
( Clarice lifts her hands, her head tipping to the side. And then there's a crackle of light between her fingers, blue and purple waves opening in the middle of her palms. She keeps it small, like a porthole instead of a door, the other side showing a place in the park, the trees, the wind whistling suddenly into the apartment. She doesn't hold it for long, because she doesn't want to risk any wayward passerby losing a limb. )
[ Cisco listens intently as Clarice speaks, all but pulling out a pen and paper to actually take notes. He knows there is a possibility there will be some differences in their powers. They are from different universes, after all. But still: Barry had learned so much about being a Speedster by listening to Dr. Wells. For better or worse... the perspective of someone else with the same powers had helped him learn how to phase through objects, how to run fast enough to break the sound barrier, and more.
He doesn't interrupt when Clarice goes quiet for a moment, seeming... Cisco's not sure. Angry at herself? Sad? Homesick? Her face is unreadable to him, apart from being able to tell that whatever is going on inside her, it isn't exactly happy. Then she says she's working on it, and starts opening a portal. It's louder than Cisco imagined and he leans in, mouth gaping in awe. He peers through, seeing that that is definitely somewhere outside on the other end of the portal.
She closes it before he gets to look for very long, which is a bit disappointing, but... he'd still seen what it looked like, and that was useful. Her joke about her job startles a small giggle from him. ]
No kidding! That's a pretty great gig, when you got a power like that.
[ And then, because fair is fair, and she'd let him ask questions and had shown him her power, he holds out his hand palm-up and, with a brief pause to take a deep breath, pulls some multidimensional energy into it. He knows that it is the energy he will need to manipulate, to make a breach of his own. It looks not quite like Clarice's had. For one thing, there is no sound - apart from an almost imperceptible thrumming. The energy is less like lightning and more like the patterns of light under water, a bright blue without a hint of the purple that had been in Clarice's own power. He just holds it there around his hand, shifting and glowing but harmless. It's a sign of trust. Saying he has powers is one thing. Giving proof of it is another. ]
( Her grin is wild, is bright all of a sudden. It's the same, but different and she leans forward to peer at the light with interest. His is silent, she finds she keeps straining her ears to listen for the sound her own makes, but it's pretty. It's pretty, and it's useful, and he shouldn't be scared of it. )
That's so neat.
( She looks up at him, still smiling. And then she's getting to her feet with purpose. ) Zingo, sit. ( Because now they've shared, she figures it's about time they talk about it in a much more practical manner. Clarice's portal starts small, widening with a rush of wind that flutters the pages of John's nearby book. The other side is empty unlike the park, without the risk of people severing their limbs. It looks like an abandoned warehouse. The pathway between her energy grows and grows until it's big enough to fit a person, and then she's glancing back his way. )
C'mon. I know the scientist in you wants to do whatever scientists do. I use this place to practise.
[ It's odd, the feeling of lightness, of happiness that Clarice's slightly wild smile provokes in him. He can't explain it, really. It's not like when he's showing off some new tech he's invented. Not like how he feels when someone gives him a compliment on his shoes or hair or a good joke he had made. There's something fundamentally different about this - about taking the risk to show her his power, and her reacting only with appreciation. It means more, too, that she is like him. A mutant, sure, and not a meta, but more alike than different.
It's that new and exciting feeling of camaraderie that spurs Cisco on, to follow her through the portal. Normally, he would be too wary, despite how nice Clarice seems. Cisco's gotten killed once before, and he's understandably wary, now, about who he is with and where he is. This could be somewhere isolated, where there would be no help around should he need any.
But those thoughts, though they still cross his mind, seem trivial and unimportant. He only hesitates a half-second before following her through the portal. ]
Yeah, that's kinda been one of the things I haven't figured out yet. You know... somewhere to kind of work on this stuff without anybody seeing and without, y'know, ruining my workshop for the hundredth time.
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( Maybe Cisco needs to hear that. Clarice can tell there's something else, something more personal. She knows trauma, both in herself and others, can read it pretty well. And she wouldn't talk about it either, so she gets it. Instead she just reaches over and squeezes his arm once before dropping her hand. Zingo, more obvious about it, props her head in the man's lap and lets out a huff. )
One less evil bastard in the multiverse, right?
( Another smile, softer, but more honest. She won't push, but she hopes she's at least navigated it well enough so that he knows if he ever changes her mind, he can come to her. )
Have you been practising your power? I know you said some of it is pretty awkward, but the other stuff? The portals and the vibrations? ( This she can also relate to. ) John says it's about finding something positive to focus on. Bad stuff, it's harder to weild. But if you tap into the good in life, then it's easier to control. ( She shrugs, like she's not quite sure she believes it herself. She's tried that, and yet her power still flickers out when she needs it the most. But maybe she's getting there. ) Friends, family. Or like your presumably hot boyfriend.
( Now her energy is back and she gives Cisco a wicked smirk. She doesn't know what Eddie looks like, but she's going for it anyway. )
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Right.
[ He toys with the idea of telling her that Eddie had been the one to kill him, but then thinks better of it. If he does that, he'll have to explain how, and there's just no way to explain that without getting pretty depressing. Some other time, maybe.
He's grateful when she steers the conversation back away from his past and to the present, and his powers. ]
I have. Not the breaches, yet. I made myself gauntlets, to help with the vibe blasts. So I can be more precise and not just break shit. Mostly I've been trying to- to get it so I can use my powers without being scared out of my mind first. For a while there that was sorta the only way I knew how. But- it sucked, so. Yeah.
[ Clarice, from the sound of it, is familiar with that phenomenon. If John had had to tell her that focusing on positive stuff was better, from the sound of it, she'd been focusing on negative stuff before. Which... seems like something they have in common. ]
Ain't no presuming about it.
[ He matches her smirk, but then a certain nervousness creeps into his expression, and he rubs at the back of his neck, asking: ]
I was actually wondering... what's it like for you, opening a portal? I mean- I... I've never actually tried that, before, and I kinda don't even know where I would start.
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( For a second she struggles with finding the right words. She's not sure how to describe the feeling her powers give her. Mostly because she's still not as in control of them as she'd like. )
Exhausting? ( A shrug, a laugh. ) I mean, no it's useful. There's just all these limitations to it. I have to know where I want to go, I have to have been there before, and to know the direction I'm going in. Because you do not want to end up in the middle of the freeway, let me tell you that. ( Twisting her mouth slightly. ) And then there's keeping it open. I have to focus on it. If I don't they could snap back like a rubber band.
( Just for a moment, her thoughts turn to the first time. The blood, the fear, the guilt. Clarice is good at keeping it locked up tight, but sometimes it slivers back in. Sonya wasn't the only person she's ever had die from her mistakes. )
I'm working on it though. With John. I'm trying to learn how to keep my head when someone needs me.
( Clarice lifts her hands, her head tipping to the side. And then there's a crackle of light between her fingers, blue and purple waves opening in the middle of her palms. She keeps it small, like a porthole instead of a door, the other side showing a place in the park, the trees, the wind whistling suddenly into the apartment. She doesn't hold it for long, because she doesn't want to risk any wayward passerby losing a limb. )
It makes the delivery job a lot easier though.
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He doesn't interrupt when Clarice goes quiet for a moment, seeming... Cisco's not sure. Angry at herself? Sad? Homesick? Her face is unreadable to him, apart from being able to tell that whatever is going on inside her, it isn't exactly happy. Then she says she's working on it, and starts opening a portal. It's louder than Cisco imagined and he leans in, mouth gaping in awe. He peers through, seeing that that is definitely somewhere outside on the other end of the portal.
She closes it before he gets to look for very long, which is a bit disappointing, but... he'd still seen what it looked like, and that was useful. Her joke about her job startles a small giggle from him. ]
No kidding! That's a pretty great gig, when you got a power like that.
[ And then, because fair is fair, and she'd let him ask questions and had shown him her power, he holds out his hand palm-up and, with a brief pause to take a deep breath, pulls some multidimensional energy into it. He knows that it is the energy he will need to manipulate, to make a breach of his own. It looks not quite like Clarice's had. For one thing, there is no sound - apart from an almost imperceptible thrumming. The energy is less like lightning and more like the patterns of light under water, a bright blue without a hint of the purple that had been in Clarice's own power. He just holds it there around his hand, shifting and glowing but harmless. It's a sign of trust. Saying he has powers is one thing. Giving proof of it is another. ]
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( Her grin is wild, is bright all of a sudden. It's the same, but different and she leans forward to peer at the light with interest. His is silent, she finds she keeps straining her ears to listen for the sound her own makes, but it's pretty. It's pretty, and it's useful, and he shouldn't be scared of it. )
That's so neat.
( She looks up at him, still smiling. And then she's getting to her feet with purpose. ) Zingo, sit. ( Because now they've shared, she figures it's about time they talk about it in a much more practical manner. Clarice's portal starts small, widening with a rush of wind that flutters the pages of John's nearby book. The other side is empty unlike the park, without the risk of people severing their limbs. It looks like an abandoned warehouse. The pathway between her energy grows and grows until it's big enough to fit a person, and then she's glancing back his way. )
C'mon. I know the scientist in you wants to do whatever scientists do. I use this place to practise.
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It's that new and exciting feeling of camaraderie that spurs Cisco on, to follow her through the portal. Normally, he would be too wary, despite how nice Clarice seems. Cisco's gotten killed once before, and he's understandably wary, now, about who he is with and where he is. This could be somewhere isolated, where there would be no help around should he need any.
But those thoughts, though they still cross his mind, seem trivial and unimportant. He only hesitates a half-second before following her through the portal. ]
Yeah, that's kinda been one of the things I haven't figured out yet. You know... somewhere to kind of work on this stuff without anybody seeing and without, y'know, ruining my workshop for the hundredth time.