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riverviewlogs2018-02-04 05:45 pm
franciscoramon) wrote in riverviewlogs2018-02-04 05:45 pm
Entry tags:
- dc comics (rebirth): wally west,
- legend of zelda (botw): zelda,
- original: shigeru miyata,
- star trek (aos): james kirk,
- star trek (tng): beverly crusher,
- star wars: finn,
- star wars: rey,
- the adventure zone: taako taaco,
- ✖ dctv (flash): cisco ramon,
- ✖ dctv (flash): eddie thawne,
- ✖ the adventure zone: lucretia,
- ✖ the raven cycle: adam parrish
[ open ] call it your 2.0, your rebirth, whatever
who: cisco + anyone!
what: catch-all + tdm prompts + fajro prompts
when: february
where: various places!
warnings: will add as needed
I. DREAM A LITTLE DREAM
[ Cisco thought that the crystal caves sounded exactly like something from a fantasy series he had loved as a child, so of course, he dragged Eddie to go and see them with him. There had been nothing ominous about the place, at the time. It isn't until a few days later that Cisco's dreams start to show the sign of outside influence. They become vivid, surreal, and most importantly, he starts having guests. A few times he'll have a passing thought about a friend before falling asleep, only to run into them in his dream. He's no stranger to unusual dreams, and - after what had happened in October - not even a stranger to encountering other people in them.
But it's still pretty damn weird. ]
You see that, right? It's not just me?
[ Cisco asks the question to whoever is standing next to him, pointing down an empty city street at the looming figure of what is, unmistakably, a Godzilla-sized robotic panda. ]
II. CLEANING HOUSE
[ Cisco had rolled his eyes at first at the idea of a whole holiday based around cleaning. What could be less fun? He's always been somewhat inclined to keep stuff. After all, you never know what use it could be later. He spends plenty of his time scavenging the things other people left behind in the abandoned parts of the city, for materials and parts for his work.
But once he and Eddie decide to share the same room, he realizes he is going to have to get rid of at least some of his stuff, to make room. So he reluctantly starts, only to find himself getting more and more into the task. He can be seen either having a cute little yard sale to get rid of various items (clothing, books, etc.), or else taking what remains after the sale down to the bonfires by the river. ]
III. CLEARING THE AIR
[ Along with everyone else in the Quarantine, as the month progresses, he finds himself dwelling on resentments from his past. Unfortunately for Cisco, most of those resentments pertain to people who aren't even here. Once the 15th rolls around, he finds that his sense of taste has vanished completely. A few conversations with others tell him that this is probably something to do with the holiday, that he needs to clear the air.
But what is he supposed to do, when the people he's feeling resentful towards aren't even here?
So Cisco can be found all that week making his way around town, sitting in a park or perhaps at a bar, slump-shouldered and wan and uncomfortable, needing (but not knowing it) someone to talk to. A good heart-to-heart will put things right, but he's not aware of that yet.
He is also, despite his distraction, more than happy to listen to others' woes, or any resentments held against him. ]
what: catch-all + tdm prompts + fajro prompts
when: february
where: various places!
warnings: will add as needed
I. DREAM A LITTLE DREAM
[ Cisco thought that the crystal caves sounded exactly like something from a fantasy series he had loved as a child, so of course, he dragged Eddie to go and see them with him. There had been nothing ominous about the place, at the time. It isn't until a few days later that Cisco's dreams start to show the sign of outside influence. They become vivid, surreal, and most importantly, he starts having guests. A few times he'll have a passing thought about a friend before falling asleep, only to run into them in his dream. He's no stranger to unusual dreams, and - after what had happened in October - not even a stranger to encountering other people in them.
But it's still pretty damn weird. ]
You see that, right? It's not just me?
[ Cisco asks the question to whoever is standing next to him, pointing down an empty city street at the looming figure of what is, unmistakably, a Godzilla-sized robotic panda. ]
II. CLEANING HOUSE
[ Cisco had rolled his eyes at first at the idea of a whole holiday based around cleaning. What could be less fun? He's always been somewhat inclined to keep stuff. After all, you never know what use it could be later. He spends plenty of his time scavenging the things other people left behind in the abandoned parts of the city, for materials and parts for his work.
But once he and Eddie decide to share the same room, he realizes he is going to have to get rid of at least some of his stuff, to make room. So he reluctantly starts, only to find himself getting more and more into the task. He can be seen either having a cute little yard sale to get rid of various items (clothing, books, etc.), or else taking what remains after the sale down to the bonfires by the river. ]
III. CLEARING THE AIR
[ Along with everyone else in the Quarantine, as the month progresses, he finds himself dwelling on resentments from his past. Unfortunately for Cisco, most of those resentments pertain to people who aren't even here. Once the 15th rolls around, he finds that his sense of taste has vanished completely. A few conversations with others tell him that this is probably something to do with the holiday, that he needs to clear the air.
But what is he supposed to do, when the people he's feeling resentful towards aren't even here?
So Cisco can be found all that week making his way around town, sitting in a park or perhaps at a bar, slump-shouldered and wan and uncomfortable, needing (but not knowing it) someone to talk to. A good heart-to-heart will put things right, but he's not aware of that yet.
He is also, despite his distraction, more than happy to listen to others' woes, or any resentments held against him. ]
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I think I always knew that. [ He laughs a little rubbing his eyes with the back of his gloved hands. ] I thought maybe I could help him change...that I could be there for him because he seems so alone. [ He doesn't want to leave Dodger by himself. He knows he has the capacity to change though. ] I'm an idiot for staying with him but I don't...want him to get hurt or die or any of those things.
[ He's such an idiot he always knew that deep down Dodger never truly loved him, not in the way that he does, but he still stayed by his side because he cares far too much. And he'll continue to stay by his side even if he knows it's a bad idea and that he shouldn't. He'll look back at Cisco again. ]
You have been through something like this then.
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[ As crappy as this guy sounds, the last thing Cisco wants to do is blame Shigeru, or encourage him to blame himself. So his answer, though delivered in a soft voice, is firm. ]
Caring about people doesn't make you an idiot. And- and neither does wanting to see the best in somebody. To help them, even if maybe, some part of you knows they're not worth it. It's not your fault, that he decided that he was gonna repay your kindness by being a dick. But there's a big difference between not wanting somebody to die and letting them trample all over you. That's- that can end up teaching him it's okay to keep treating other people like that. You know? If you can't think of it as looking after yourself, think of it as what's gonna be best for him, in the end.
[ Cisco suspects that appealing to Shigeru's altruism and desire to help this guy become a better person is going to be more effective than by appealing to any kind of innate feeling that he deserves to be treated well. He knows it's what would work on him, anyway. ]
No. [ He could leave it there. Lie, albeit badly. Shigeru probably wouldn't push him. But Cisco swallows, staring down at his hands, and keeps going. ] I mean. Not exactly. It wasn't somebody I was dating or any of that. He was...
[ What word should he even use? Friend? Mentor? Pseudo-father-figure? Murderer? Nightmare? No one term could encompass it all. ]
Somebody I looked up to... ended up being a pretty bad person.
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That makes sense. I...get that. But how do I...I don't really know how to say that to him, without him getting angry. [ Because Dodger does have a bit of a temper. ] I don't want to make him...mad.
[ He's not really sure if it's worth it sometimes. But maybe breaking it off would be for the best. But when was the right time to do something like that? ]
Oh. I'm...so sorry, Cisco. [ If he was better at it he'd offer some form of physical comfort. But he's not really good with it when it comes to people he's unused to touching. ]
I can't imagine how that must feel...looking up to someone and then learning and seeing them do that.
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[ The words are meant to be casual, but they come out hard, bitter, and somehow worse than if he'd picked some more severe synonym. Not realizing he's doing it, Cisco rubs a hand against his chest, over his heart, as if there were a twinge of pain there that he could massage away. It's an unconscious gesture, and he keeps talking as he does it: ]
Anyway, the point is... the point is I know about this stuff, and you're never gonna start really fixing it until you get out from under his thumb. Completely. Like... the fact you're scared of telling him the truth or he'll get angry and wig out - you gotta know that's a bad sign, right, dude?
[ He knows, too, that confronting dangerous men with the truth can go very poorly. The last thing Cisco wants to do is encourage Shigeru to do this, and for him to get killed. Sure, he has his powers, but even so. He shouldn't have to be on his own for this. ]
You shouldn't do it alone. He's already hurt you before. Bring backup. Hell, if you're worried bringing Genji is just gonna piss him off, bring one of your other badass friends. Or, I guess, me, in a pinch. Just tell me in advance so I can make sure I got a taser with me.
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No. It-it's okay! I'll be fine on my own. I-I don't think he'd ever get that mad to hurt me again. [ maybe. But Dodger has been pretty absent lately. Shigeru figures after their fight that he's moved on pretty much, but he can never be too sure.
But Shigeru's lack of wanting to involve anyone stems from him not wanting anyone to get hurt and not wanting to be a bother with his own problems. ] I can handle it alone. You don't have to worry.
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So he doesn't protest, just smiles, a thin smile that doesn't change how sad his eyes are. ]
Okay. I'm still gonna worry, though. It's kinda my thing.
[ If Shigeru were someone else, Cisco would lay a hand on his shoulder, perhaps even give him a hug. But he refrains, because the whole point of this was to help with Shigeru's OCD, and Cisco's just going adopt a policy until further notice to never touch Shigeru, unless the other man initiates it.
Quietly, he adds: ]
And you know... you shouldn't resent yourself, either. For any of it. Making excuses other people is easy. But - forgiving yourself is really important, too.
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[ He knows this situation is serious and Cisco has every right to be worried so he doesn't exactly complain or brush away his concerns. His eyes are downcast as he fiddles with the hem of his shirt with those words.
He still feels so incredibly stupid for what he's done with this whole situation but he knows that he has to forgive himself. It's not healthy not to and he knows that he has to talk to Dodger at some point about where their relationship stands. ]
I'll try to. [ His tone of voice is sad and dour as he gives Cisco a small smile. It's hard to forgive himself when he's so incredibly hard of himself too. ]