It's painful to watch Poe go. More painful than Rey would've thought possible, and seeing Finn simply go with Poe....it made sense. Finn, he was a good man, and really he met Poe first before her. Rey wouldn't hold it against him. This was....this was her mess and she was stupid for bringing it up. She was only trying to do what she thought was right, but this...it was all a mess.
Her heart sinks in her chest and she forces herself to take in deep breaths. Tears are starting to sting in the corners of her eyes, but she will not cry. She will not be weak and show that side of her to Leia. Rey looked to the General, noting where her hand was on her chest, and for a brief moment, she was afraid something was wrong. Leia was made of stronger stuff, but she was also older. Her health was more concerning. You did this. Rey's mind whispered.
The trust between them, the trust between Poe and Leia was broken. All because of her.
"No, General..." she says softly, moving her hand from Leia's shoulder to rest on top of the older woman's.
"I made this mess. You can blame me for it. I shouldn't have brought it up. I should've known better. I'm sorry." She pause then, taking in another deep breath to steady herself. "Tell Poe it was my fault, that I forced you into this. Let him hate me."
Because he...the Resistance, they needed Leia. Poe needed to have trust in Leia and if it meant having to hate Rey for it, then so be it. If she had to end up alone again to make things right, then she would be fine with that. It was something she was familiar with...and really, she should've known this was how things would end up.
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Her heart sinks in her chest and she forces herself to take in deep breaths. Tears are starting to sting in the corners of her eyes, but she will not cry. She will not be weak and show that side of her to Leia. Rey looked to the General, noting where her hand was on her chest, and for a brief moment, she was afraid something was wrong. Leia was made of stronger stuff, but she was also older. Her health was more concerning. You did this. Rey's mind whispered.
The trust between them, the trust between Poe and Leia was broken. All because of her.
"No, General..." she says softly, moving her hand from Leia's shoulder to rest on top of the older woman's.
"I made this mess. You can blame me for it. I shouldn't have brought it up. I should've known better. I'm sorry." She pause then, taking in another deep breath to steady herself. "Tell Poe it was my fault, that I forced you into this. Let him hate me."
Because he...the Resistance, they needed Leia. Poe needed to have trust in Leia and if it meant having to hate Rey for it, then so be it. If she had to end up alone again to make things right, then she would be fine with that. It was something she was familiar with...and really, she should've known this was how things would end up.