[ Finn shrugs the first part off, more or less. Another person, another place and time-- another tone, maybe, and he'd feel that same old unsettled itch in his own skin. Another one in a list of conversations where he manages to step wrong, let on that being a person is oddly unnatural for something that's supposedly ingrained.
But it's this place, this person, this tone.
The fact is, Finn really doesn't think about parents or family all that much. He never has. Never needed to. And you can't love what you've never known. Poe knows better than he does on that.
What he thinks instead is, Poe almost died. He's laid up in a medbay trying to wrap his head around something apparently nigh unfathomable, trying to understand the motivations of a person with all the humanity of the pebble stuck between the cracks on the bottom of Finn's boot. Poe cares so much about this, about Leia, that he can't help trying to draw the lines to make it make sense. Poe, in all this thinking, still stops himself short trying to be careful of someone else.
All the parts of him that are the most Poe are clearly still here. That's good enough to balance out.
...speaking of the most Poe parts of Poe.
Why??? Did he get attached to this reckless 'throw himself back without a second thought' man?? Why are both of his favorite people full-power concern generators? Finn plants a careful hand on Poe's shoulder, and gives him a hard two-second stare just to make sure he's not about to turn sharply south. ]
Take it from someone who's been here. You won't understand any better after you reopen something.
[ says the hypocrite who woke up in this hospital on day one and absolutely wrecked his own shit by trying to walk himself out within an hour. somewhere in the building, a doctor just slammed their hand onto a counter in unexplained rage. ]
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But it's this place, this person, this tone.
The fact is, Finn really doesn't think about parents or family all that much. He never has. Never needed to. And you can't love what you've never known. Poe knows better than he does on that.
What he thinks instead is, Poe almost died. He's laid up in a medbay trying to wrap his head around something apparently nigh unfathomable, trying to understand the motivations of a person with all the humanity of the pebble stuck between the cracks on the bottom of Finn's boot. Poe cares so much about this, about Leia, that he can't help trying to draw the lines to make it make sense. Poe, in all this thinking, still stops himself short trying to be careful of someone else.
All the parts of him that are the most Poe are clearly still here. That's good enough to balance out.
...speaking of the most Poe parts of Poe.
Why??? Did he get attached to this reckless 'throw himself back without a second thought' man?? Why are both of his favorite people full-power concern generators? Finn plants a careful hand on Poe's shoulder, and gives him a hard two-second stare just to make sure he's not about to turn sharply south. ]
Take it from someone who's been here. You won't understand any better after you reopen something.
[ says the hypocrite who woke up in this hospital on day one and absolutely wrecked his own shit by trying to walk himself out within an hour. somewhere in the building, a doctor just slammed their hand onto a counter in unexplained rage. ]