[ His own wards inform him of who is behind his door. He tenses. Loki knows his sister is not far and she is sworn to protect him from all harm. But he knows Taako would not harm him, regardless of what has come to pass. No, this will be worse. Though Thor had expected Loki's presence for the hunting trip, Loki knew it had come to an end.
( loki lied and thought it was better, he doesn't understand why this wasn't better, shouldn't thor prefer a dead saner brother over a darker, living one? but loki knew it was going to end, because that's how things are, they end and he's left in the same place he was before, what was the point — )
He swallows. He didn't want to answer the door. He didn't want to look Taako in the eye and be told, it's over, you fucked it up, what were you thinking, you really thought you were helping, that you could help anyone when you can barely help yourself? He didn't want to believe that and Loki is nothing if not a master of delusion. Rising unsteadily, he goes to open the door, removing all expression from his face. ]
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( loki lied and thought it was better, he doesn't understand why this wasn't better, shouldn't thor prefer a dead saner brother over a darker, living one? but loki knew it was going to end, because that's how things are, they end and he's left in the same place he was before, what was the point — )
He swallows. He didn't want to answer the door. He didn't want to look Taako in the eye and be told, it's over, you fucked it up, what were you thinking, you really thought you were helping, that you could help anyone when you can barely help yourself? He didn't want to believe that and Loki is nothing if not a master of delusion. Rising unsteadily, he goes to open the door, removing all expression from his face. ]