[It's a trainwreck, and he can't turn his gaze away. Nice to know she mourned him, at least, he supposes, but- that's a bleak thought, edged in hysteria that doesn't bleed through to his outward expression. He seems... distressed, sure, but not near to panicking, even if he might want to. He would, if he weren't so well-trained.]
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I don't understand any of this.