[ Cisco is glad that Eddie reminds him about his job; it's easy to forget how much of his job involves not just pouring over clues, chasing criminals, and doing paperwork, but dealing with people who have been hurt. That had never been anything Cisco had had to do, when he was consulting for the CCPD, or while he was helping Barry as the Flash.
Whether or not it should, it means more to him, hearing reassurances about it being normal, when it's coming in the context of Eddie-as-a-cop and not just Eddie-his-boyfriend. If it were only the latter, he'd worry the words were empty, merely meant to soothe him but ultimately untrue. ]
I do want.
[ The signs of Eddie's fatigue are there, but Cisco doesn't see them. He wraps an arm around Eddie's waist, and the both of them make their way up the stairs to Cisco's attic room. He's been trying to do better at keeping things a little tidy, since he and Eddie started dating. He'd caught Eddie cleaning up, insisting that he didn't mind, but Cisco felt guilty about it all the same.
Today, however, is not a day for that level of being considerate. Cisco kicks off his shoes, starts peeling off clothes even before he gets to the bathroom, just leaving them where they fall. He twists on the tap and waits a few seconds for the hot water to reach his room. As he's waiting, he says: ]
I can't believe I ever bought his bullshit. I don't know... maybe the ghost version isn't all there, or maybe I've just wised up, but all the... the stupid emotional games were just so obvious. Trying to make me feel guilty for liking it better here. Trying to turn me against you.
[ Cisco doesn't know if Eddie wants him to stop talking about Eobard; they have had some serious talks about him, but not often. There's a lot, still, that he hasn't told Eddie. Probably some of it Eddie has guessed, because he's sharp, and as he'd said, he has dealt with people who have been hurt before. But it's not as if there's a good mood for him to ruin, and so he might as well just disclose a thing or two.
He tests the temperature and steps into the spray, holding the curtain open a little and waiting for Eddie to follow. ]
He... used to do that. Try to interfere with my love life, I mean. I honestly didn't put it together until later because I'm- an idiot, but since I started at S.T.A.R. Labs anytime I'd been on a few dates with someone or started talking about them at work, things wouldn't work out. We would get super busy, have crazy deadlines to meet, there would be emergencies. I didn't see the pattern, you know? I was just so happy I had this awesome job, that I was needed, that the work I was doing was that- that urgent, you know?
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[ Cisco is glad that Eddie reminds him about his job; it's easy to forget how much of his job involves not just pouring over clues, chasing criminals, and doing paperwork, but dealing with people who have been hurt. That had never been anything Cisco had had to do, when he was consulting for the CCPD, or while he was helping Barry as the Flash.
Whether or not it should, it means more to him, hearing reassurances about it being normal, when it's coming in the context of Eddie-as-a-cop and not just Eddie-his-boyfriend. If it were only the latter, he'd worry the words were empty, merely meant to soothe him but ultimately untrue. ]
I do want.
[ The signs of Eddie's fatigue are there, but Cisco doesn't see them. He wraps an arm around Eddie's waist, and the both of them make their way up the stairs to Cisco's attic room. He's been trying to do better at keeping things a little tidy, since he and Eddie started dating. He'd caught Eddie cleaning up, insisting that he didn't mind, but Cisco felt guilty about it all the same.
Today, however, is not a day for that level of being considerate. Cisco kicks off his shoes, starts peeling off clothes even before he gets to the bathroom, just leaving them where they fall. He twists on the tap and waits a few seconds for the hot water to reach his room. As he's waiting, he says: ]
I can't believe I ever bought his bullshit. I don't know... maybe the ghost version isn't all there, or maybe I've just wised up, but all the... the stupid emotional games were just so obvious. Trying to make me feel guilty for liking it better here. Trying to turn me against you.
[ Cisco doesn't know if Eddie wants him to stop talking about Eobard; they have had some serious talks about him, but not often. There's a lot, still, that he hasn't told Eddie. Probably some of it Eddie has guessed, because he's sharp, and as he'd said, he has dealt with people who have been hurt before. But it's not as if there's a good mood for him to ruin, and so he might as well just disclose a thing or two.
He tests the temperature and steps into the spray, holding the curtain open a little and waiting for Eddie to follow. ]
He... used to do that. Try to interfere with my love life, I mean. I honestly didn't put it together until later because I'm- an idiot, but since I started at S.T.A.R. Labs anytime I'd been on a few dates with someone or started talking about them at work, things wouldn't work out. We would get super busy, have crazy deadlines to meet, there would be emergencies. I didn't see the pattern, you know? I was just so happy I had this awesome job, that I was needed, that the work I was doing was that- that urgent, you know?