Ed watches Jay grab the fries, glancing at Nico as he pushes them closer but not getting involved in that interaction. Thankfully, because if he'd had something in his mouth when Jason spoke next he probably would have choked.
His blood ran cold, practically glaring at Jay's suggestion. "It's not that it didn't make sense, it's that there just wasn't one." At all. Ed had no motivation to hurt his brother in any sense of the word, outright murdering him? It would have been unthinkable except for the fact that it had happened. The idea that Jason had with his own intentions gone after his brothers left a cold pit in his stomach and suddenly he didn't have a taste for much of anything.
Nico's words aren't all that reassuring either, he had heard them before. Everyone in Purg had begged him to reconsider leaving after it had happened. Like he was in charge, like he was the most capable person there to handle the situation when he'd also been infected. "Watanuki said that, too..." If he was so capable he wouldn't have hurt Al to begin with, it was no control of his own that he snapped out of it after it happened as far as he was concerned. A short reprieve that gave him the chance to take care of the problem, nothing more.
"I should have stopped it." He should have been in more control, he was in control for so long, just enough to make him think he was fine, actually. Leading up to Al's death there had been some other behaviors that implied he really hadn't been, but he wasn't aware at the time. "I should have stopped it before Al had to die, because of me." He sighs, taking a drink before adding softly, "Everyone had to keep it a secret from him, what I did after he died. No one else really thought it was a good idea, either."
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His blood ran cold, practically glaring at Jay's suggestion. "It's not that it didn't make sense, it's that there just wasn't one." At all. Ed had no motivation to hurt his brother in any sense of the word, outright murdering him? It would have been unthinkable except for the fact that it had happened. The idea that Jason had with his own intentions gone after his brothers left a cold pit in his stomach and suddenly he didn't have a taste for much of anything.
Nico's words aren't all that reassuring either, he had heard them before. Everyone in Purg had begged him to reconsider leaving after it had happened. Like he was in charge, like he was the most capable person there to handle the situation when he'd also been infected. "Watanuki said that, too..." If he was so capable he wouldn't have hurt Al to begin with, it was no control of his own that he snapped out of it after it happened as far as he was concerned. A short reprieve that gave him the chance to take care of the problem, nothing more.
"I should have stopped it." He should have been in more control, he was in control for so long, just enough to make him think he was fine, actually. Leading up to Al's death there had been some other behaviors that implied he really hadn't been, but he wasn't aware at the time. "I should have stopped it before Al had to die, because of me." He sighs, taking a drink before adding softly, "Everyone had to keep it a secret from him, what I did after he died. No one else really thought it was a good idea, either."