[ that makes her lift her eyes again to his, and her grip on his hand tightens. ]

Bellamy, I don't want this to become a game of who's done worse things than whom. [ they've both done unspeakable things, and not always in the interest of everyone at large, but the last thing she wants to do right now is remind him of his mistakes while browbeating herself about her own.

she squeezes his hand, takes his other one so she's holding both again. ] If you want me through that portal with you, I'll go. I will. I'm not going to leave, again.

[ not going to leave you, again. if she can help it. ]