Lord knew that was right. Not a single damn person thought about making the idiot consider himself. Part of why he put so much effort into putting Jim as the priority. Least, that's how it started. Still rang true, sure, but over the years it turned a little more selfish, too. A lot more. Cause the thought of Jim dying on him, well, he knew what that felt like and he never wanted to go through that again.

Settling on the blanket beside Jim, he stretched his legs out a bit and frowned at that question. "Resent wouldn't be the word." The answer was honest, actually leaning on curious. "I'd go with frantic." He turned his head to smile just slightly at his best friend and well... boyfriend. They both knew he didn't handle that kind of emotion well when it came to Jim.

Breathing in slowly, he leaned over and let his head drop on his shoulder. "Just never really thought about it from your point of view before. It's not a question of am I willing to do whatever it takes to keep you alive... it's a question of what do I need to do." Because he knew he'd do it regardless of what it was. "Guess I just wanted to be sure me being selfish didn't make you mad." Cause god, he knew he was selfish.