People giving the choice to go home was almost something that Alex felt like was a fantasy. Yes she knew people who had and she knew people who had come back and she knew people that had lost those they cared for, like Dorian. It was part and parcel for living on the moon, but it still felt fair away until someone she cared for lost someone they cared for.

“I don’t think that you have to compete Dorian, you're not them. Your not his business or the woman that he lost. But those things aren't here. They're in the past, especially if she died in a war, right? I think it may take time of course, but just because someone chooses to leave, it doesn't mean he doesn't care. And even if he's just trying to? Dorian, I think that means something. If he honestly didn't give a damn about you, he wouldn't try. He'd just shut you out and keep going with his life."