[It was easy to agree with him with a quick smile, and she'd been about to tell him that even though nothing actually came close to an actual Cheesesteak in Philly, The Coffee Shop had a steak sandwich that was pretty damn good. She'd even opened her mouth to tell him that before her asked her question.
For a second it just hung open like that because this was not what she expected when she'd started this game. Alex thought that it would be light and soft and easy, and not this at all. But the question had still been asked, so she was going to answer it.
Eventually.
First she sighed softly and wrapped her arms around herself again, settling back into the pillows on the sofa. If she didn't have the painkillers in her making her lips loose, she might have tried to avoid the question. But she still gave him her seriously look, because really?]
There were a lot of reasons. I wasn't sleeping you know that, so my judgment was off. Way off. And I was worried about Amalia, she'd been off ever since she'd gotten back from Russia. Just off enough to notice, as if someone was doing a really, really good Amalia impersonation. But when she kissed me, [It was said without embarrassment or judgment about the kissing. Her and Amalia had been on and off again since college when she was around. It was never a real relationship, just like Amalia and Nic wasn't.] It just... didn't feel like her. So, I was worried about her. And I was worried about you, because you were the one losing it then.
And I think I was a little jealous. Not of you talking to Amalia, but both of you, two of the most important people in my life were sharing a secret that might be dangerous to both of you. and I felt like I wasn't important and the two of you coming together would shut me out completely. Both personally and professionally so I had to know what you were both saying. My brain was stuck on it. I was stuck on it because my judgment was way off.
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[It was easy to agree with him with a quick smile, and she'd been about to tell him that even though nothing actually came close to an actual Cheesesteak in Philly, The Coffee Shop had a steak sandwich that was pretty damn good. She'd even opened her mouth to tell him that before her asked her question.
For a second it just hung open like that because this was not what she expected when she'd started this game. Alex thought that it would be light and soft and easy, and not this at all. But the question had still been asked, so she was going to answer it.
Eventually.
First she sighed softly and wrapped her arms around herself again, settling back into the pillows on the sofa. If she didn't have the painkillers in her making her lips loose, she might have tried to avoid the question. But she still gave him her seriously look, because really?]
There were a lot of reasons. I wasn't sleeping you know that, so my judgment was off. Way off. And I was worried about Amalia, she'd been off ever since she'd gotten back from Russia. Just off enough to notice, as if someone was doing a really, really good Amalia impersonation. But when she kissed me, [It was said without embarrassment or judgment about the kissing. Her and Amalia had been on and off again since college when she was around. It was never a real relationship, just like Amalia and Nic wasn't.] It just... didn't feel like her. So, I was worried about her. And I was worried about you, because you were the one losing it then.
And I think I was a little jealous. Not of you talking to Amalia, but both of you, two of the most important people in my life were sharing a secret that might be dangerous to both of you. and I felt like I wasn't important and the two of you coming together would shut me out completely. Both personally and professionally so I had to know what you were both saying. My brain was stuck on it. I was stuck on it because my judgment was way off.