[Eddie rolls his eyes at that, smiling fondly, fingers combing back deeply into Cisco's hair as he shakes his head a little.]
Well, you're not weak at all, so I guess it worked.
[The smile is a bit crooked, and only grows as Cisco keeps looking at him the way he does. Eddie can see it, the fact that Cisco loves him, right now, that Cisco is looking at him with affection and pride and care, and it makes him feel good in a way that's slowly becoming more familiar, in this place, with Cisco. Who would've thought that sharing some resentments between them could leave him feeling like this, loved and warm and safe and content?
It's Cisco. It's always been Cisco.]
Some of it is, yeah, but the thing is, everyone has intuition. It's just that a lot of us ignore it, or subconsciously ignore it because we want to believe the best of people, or we're taught from childhood experiences that it's best to ignore it, or because we benefit short-term in some way from ignoring it. I mean, look at me, back in Central City. I knew from almost the moment Barry woke up that Iris was in love with him, but I pretended it wasn't the case because I wanted to be with her so badly.
[Taking a deep breath, he holds it for a moment, then releases it.]
Sometimes we're blind to what our own instincts tell us. Learning to read body language and pay attention to those physical cues can, you know, untrain us from that instinct.
[He trails off, eyes on Cisco's face as he watches for the effect that has on his boyfriend - it was hard, to word it without making Cisco feel like he's weak, or too desperate for love to pay attention to his own doubts, even if that's the honest truth of it. Hopefully, using a personal example will help take the sting out.
And then Cisco is touching the base of his horn and asking what else. Eddie's smile falters, goes a little wry.]
Babe, don't worry about it. That resentment...it's not yours. It belongs to someone else. Maybe a few other people.
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Well, you're not weak at all, so I guess it worked.
[The smile is a bit crooked, and only grows as Cisco keeps looking at him the way he does. Eddie can see it, the fact that Cisco loves him, right now, that Cisco is looking at him with affection and pride and care, and it makes him feel good in a way that's slowly becoming more familiar, in this place, with Cisco. Who would've thought that sharing some resentments between them could leave him feeling like this, loved and warm and safe and content?
It's Cisco. It's always been Cisco.]
Some of it is, yeah, but the thing is, everyone has intuition. It's just that a lot of us ignore it, or subconsciously ignore it because we want to believe the best of people, or we're taught from childhood experiences that it's best to ignore it, or because we benefit short-term in some way from ignoring it. I mean, look at me, back in Central City. I knew from almost the moment Barry woke up that Iris was in love with him, but I pretended it wasn't the case because I wanted to be with her so badly.
[Taking a deep breath, he holds it for a moment, then releases it.]
Sometimes we're blind to what our own instincts tell us. Learning to read body language and pay attention to those physical cues can, you know, untrain us from that instinct.
[He trails off, eyes on Cisco's face as he watches for the effect that has on his boyfriend - it was hard, to word it without making Cisco feel like he's weak, or too desperate for love to pay attention to his own doubts, even if that's the honest truth of it. Hopefully, using a personal example will help take the sting out.
And then Cisco is touching the base of his horn and asking what else. Eddie's smile falters, goes a little wry.]
Babe, don't worry about it. That resentment...it's not yours. It belongs to someone else. Maybe a few other people.