He goes into his room, shuts the door, and then braces both hands against the foot of the bed he barely ever uses. Poe closes his eyes. He's flying with a crippled wing, here, fighting a tailspin inside his own head.
Normally, thinking about Finn is what puts him back on solid ground. What would Finn do, what would Finn think, keep it together for Finn. This time, though, all it does is remind him of the presence in his head that isn't his. It reminds him of what Finn can feel in him right now, the fear and the anger and all the things he tries and succeeds at hiding more often than people might think.
Poe bows his head until it touches the bed's baseboard and tries to breathe. Course-correct. Guide himself out of the spin. His hands fist against the sheets. ]
Easy, Dameron.
[ In the corner of the room, there's a quiet boop and BB-8 powers up, out of charge mode. Poe straightens.
If he can't think of Finn without dwelling on what's happening, he can at least think of BB-8. He can focus on being okay for . the droid, not worrying him, not falling apart over this.
Deep breath. Exhale. ]
Hey, buddy. You're just in time for a jog.
[ He's mostly put himself together when he comes out of the room to find Finn waiting, BB-8 at his heels. A shaky smile. ]
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He goes into his room, shuts the door, and then braces both hands against the foot of the bed he barely ever uses. Poe closes his eyes. He's flying with a crippled wing, here, fighting a tailspin inside his own head.
Normally, thinking about Finn is what puts him back on solid ground. What would Finn do, what would Finn think, keep it together for Finn. This time, though, all it does is remind him of the presence in his head that isn't his. It reminds him of what Finn can feel in him right now, the fear and the anger and all the things he tries and succeeds at hiding more often than people might think.
Poe bows his head until it touches the bed's baseboard and tries to breathe. Course-correct. Guide himself out of the spin. His hands fist against the sheets. ]
Easy, Dameron.
[ In the corner of the room, there's a quiet boop and BB-8 powers up, out of charge mode. Poe straightens.
If he can't think of Finn without dwelling on what's happening, he can at least think of BB-8. He can focus on being okay for . the droid, not worrying him, not falling apart over this.
Deep breath. Exhale. ]
Hey, buddy. You're just in time for a jog.
[ He's mostly put himself together when he comes out of the room to find Finn waiting, BB-8 at his heels. A shaky smile. ]
Oh yeah. I'm great.