[ A weak joke is better than none. Finn doesn't have the resources to allocate for a laugh; he dredges up a snort. He could say bad food doesn't count, but if Poe goes through on that once for goofing, Poe surely knows he's just opening himself up for the roast. And if he doesn't, he'll get a fun surprise. Of opinions. ]
Yeah. Yeah. I'm gonna get my shoes.
[ Which he does go to do! In a way, that's a success. Finn sort of wishes he knew how to feel something reassuring on demand, because that would be very handy right about now. He doesn't know what to do with fear and a whole other package of significantly more than fear that's not his, from someone who doesn't handle things the same way he does. What he knows is it's hard to operate when they're both circling the edges of the same emotional drain. And what he knows is that when it's just himself he has to deal with, sometimes if he thinks at himself hard enough and finds something else to do, things get easier.
Jogs are good. Something to focus on. Somewhere to start. Poe is, as always, a pretty smart person.
He takes a minute. Definitely to the point of longer than necessary. There's no genuine privacy between them right now, with this, but going through the motions of taking that minute is worth doing. And he thinks very hard at himself. And with even something as simple as a run to focus on, with a few breaths, he can almost settle. Reel himself in, try to be mindful of circling back to anything within the past ten minutes or so. No time for fear when you're doing something. No time for it when you're the one who knows more about what's happening.
It's restraint. Restraint is in his wheelhouse. If you can't control what you're feeling, which no one can, you can still control what you think.
Basically he needs this minute to give himself a pep-talk and to try to shove a lot of things under a lot of rugs before he's stepping back out for jog nation. Because even if they're not doing great and they're both painfully aware of how not-great they are, he's got a better chance of being okay if he acts like he is. It's foolproof. Han Solo would be proud. ]
Good?
[ And basically if you want some space for Poe to do his own rug-shoving and introspection, I feel that and go for it, then in my tag after that I'm probably gonna just make a jog Happen. ]
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Yeah. Yeah. I'm gonna get my shoes.
[ Which he does go to do! In a way, that's a success. Finn sort of wishes he knew how to feel something reassuring on demand, because that would be very handy right about now. He doesn't know what to do with fear and a whole other package of significantly more than fear that's not his, from someone who doesn't handle things the same way he does. What he knows is it's hard to operate when they're both circling the edges of the same emotional drain. And what he knows is that when it's just himself he has to deal with, sometimes if he thinks at himself hard enough and finds something else to do, things get easier.
Jogs are good. Something to focus on. Somewhere to start. Poe is, as always, a pretty smart person.
He takes a minute. Definitely to the point of longer than necessary. There's no genuine privacy between them right now, with this, but going through the motions of taking that minute is worth doing. And he thinks very hard at himself. And with even something as simple as a run to focus on, with a few breaths, he can almost settle. Reel himself in, try to be mindful of circling back to anything within the past ten minutes or so. No time for fear when you're doing something. No time for it when you're the one who knows more about what's happening.
It's restraint. Restraint is in his wheelhouse. If you can't control what you're feeling, which no one can, you can still control what you think.
Basically he needs this minute to give himself a pep-talk and to try to shove a lot of things under a lot of rugs before he's stepping back out for jog nation. Because even if they're not doing great and they're both painfully aware of how not-great they are, he's got a better chance of being okay if he acts like he is. It's foolproof. Han Solo would be proud. ]
Good?
[ And basically if you want some space for Poe to do his own rug-shoving and introspection, I feel that and go for it, then in my tag after that I'm probably gonna just make a jog Happen. ]