[ Yeah, that seems about right. The look that comes over her face. So much to explain, so many details, and no way to cover them briefly without getting extremely confusing.
Something about watching the shifts in her expression lands and sticks.
He was this close to never seeing her again. A few times, he guesses. Starkiller, the fleet being attacked, the Supremacy. Crait. He was this close to getting his memories and meeting her here and having to explain why he flew himself down the throat of a cannon instead of living to fight another day, instead of living long enough to run up to her and embrace her.
Being faced with Poe in the aftermath-- being faced with Rey now, when she wasn't even there, and knowing how close he got--
It's easy to think it would've been okay to go out like that if he's just considering his own life. Easy to understand what Rose and then Poe said on an objective level, without applying it to his own decisions. It's harder to justify trying what he did when he thinks about his people.
He wonders if he got close to losing Rey for good without even realizing. ]
We can go to your place. Starting to look like it'll rain out here.
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Something about watching the shifts in her expression lands and sticks.
He was this close to never seeing her again. A few times, he guesses. Starkiller, the fleet being attacked, the Supremacy. Crait. He was this close to getting his memories and meeting her here and having to explain why he flew himself down the throat of a cannon instead of living to fight another day, instead of living long enough to run up to her and embrace her.
Being faced with Poe in the aftermath-- being faced with Rey now, when she wasn't even there, and knowing how close he got--
It's easy to think it would've been okay to go out like that if he's just considering his own life. Easy to understand what Rose and then Poe said on an objective level, without applying it to his own decisions. It's harder to justify trying what he did when he thinks about his people.
He wonders if he got close to losing Rey for good without even realizing. ]
We can go to your place. Starting to look like it'll rain out here.