It pains Rey to look at Poe when he brings up the fact that Kylo Ren tortured him. She knew what it was like to have him in their head. Ren was so close to getting the map from her. She kept fighting, kept wanting to push him back and suddenly...she was reaching into his mind and finding his darkest fears. She found a way to fight back and Poe...he couldn't. He had no way to.
The arguing, all of them fighting...it wasn't doing any of them good. In trying to figure out a way to solve things, she had only made it worse. Rey took a deep breath, biting on her lower lip and tried to reign in her feelings.
"None of us are collateral, and I know it's a matter of making sure we get through this alive and making sure everyone here is protected." Because that's always been the goal at the end of this, hasn't it? Making sure they could get back to their world, and that Kylo Ren doesn't hurt anyone else. But she didn't like being told why she couldn't act, or that she should act only when told to do so. How is this any different than any other mission Poe has been on? The chances of her being killed were there if she were in an x-wing.
"The other option that's in front of us is doing nothing--something we've been doing and look where that got us." Poe being flown into a tree, nearly killed. Or if he was nearby, no one bothered to tell her. Like she was kept hidden away as some sort of....secret weapon. Ready to be called out when needed, but not there to prevent anything from happening. No matter what Rey says about Ren's behavior, how it's different around her, it would only be met with 'he's only using you.' There was no point in continuing the conversation...not when they were divided and Rey was feeling drained from fighting with Poe and Finn.
"I don't want to see anyone get hurt because of him, that's what I am trying to prevent. It's why I brought this to both of you, and I thought this could be a solution. I don't think he would kill me--and I'm not saying that out of pride, but he's had the opportunity to and hasn't. Both of you have made it difficult for me to do anything--you've made it clear I can't go to him, not to react if he does something, but you want me around in case he does something." Could they see how confusing that was for her? How it made her feel like she couldn't do anything unless she was given an order when this was a matter between one Force user to another?
Another pause with Rey looking to Leia, reaching out to place a hand on the General's shoulder. Her gaze softens, silently apologizing to the older woman for putting her through this. "But, Finn is right, we don't have to do it. We don't have to make a decision."
Regardless if that decision was upon Rey and Rey alone.
Her gaze looks to her friends, trying to keep her feelings under control and be strong. She didn't want to put a strain on their friendships...but she wanted to do what was right. She thought she could help Ren. It wasn't a matter of Poe and Finn not believing in her--that was something she would take issue with on another day--but she didn't want to lose the friends she had.
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The arguing, all of them fighting...it wasn't doing any of them good. In trying to figure out a way to solve things, she had only made it worse. Rey took a deep breath, biting on her lower lip and tried to reign in her feelings.
"None of us are collateral, and I know it's a matter of making sure we get through this alive and making sure everyone here is protected." Because that's always been the goal at the end of this, hasn't it? Making sure they could get back to their world, and that Kylo Ren doesn't hurt anyone else. But she didn't like being told why she couldn't act, or that she should act only when told to do so. How is this any different than any other mission Poe has been on? The chances of her being killed were there if she were in an x-wing.
"The other option that's in front of us is doing nothing--something we've been doing and look where that got us." Poe being flown into a tree, nearly killed. Or if he was nearby, no one bothered to tell her. Like she was kept hidden away as some sort of....secret weapon. Ready to be called out when needed, but not there to prevent anything from happening. No matter what Rey says about Ren's behavior, how it's different around her, it would only be met with 'he's only using you.' There was no point in continuing the conversation...not when they were divided and Rey was feeling drained from fighting with Poe and Finn.
"I don't want to see anyone get hurt because of him, that's what I am trying to prevent. It's why I brought this to both of you, and I thought this could be a solution. I don't think he would kill me--and I'm not saying that out of pride, but he's had the opportunity to and hasn't. Both of you have made it difficult for me to do anything--you've made it clear I can't go to him, not to react if he does something, but you want me around in case he does something." Could they see how confusing that was for her? How it made her feel like she couldn't do anything unless she was given an order when this was a matter between one Force user to another?
Another pause with Rey looking to Leia, reaching out to place a hand on the General's shoulder. Her gaze softens, silently apologizing to the older woman for putting her through this. "But, Finn is right, we don't have to do it. We don't have to make a decision."
Regardless if that decision was upon Rey and Rey alone.
Her gaze looks to her friends, trying to keep her feelings under control and be strong. She didn't want to put a strain on their friendships...but she wanted to do what was right. She thought she could help Ren. It wasn't a matter of Poe and Finn not believing in her--that was something she would take issue with on another day--but she didn't want to lose the friends she had.