[ Though he says it uncertainly. The first time Ego had coached him through summoning the light, it had felt more like an accident than anything. Like he had been stepping over a crack in the sidewalk all his life, and finally just stumbled on it. Then after that— yeah. He’d been enraged. Hurt and betrayed and reeling, terrified and desperate and racked with pain, and—
He cringes away from the memory near instantly.
But those times, he had purposefully tapped into it, had drawn it up like water from a well. This time was purely by accident, like he had tripped into a switch and suddenly it was just— there.
And he hated to admit it, but back on Ego’s planet, using the light had felt— right. It felt good, like a hot shower after being out in the cold, like flopping into bed after a long day. This, though, had felt like... nothing. And if anything, it had left him feeling weirdly strung out.
But maybe that’s because he’s on the verge of losing his shit over it.
Peter scrubs his face again, taking a shuddering breath.
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[ Though he says it uncertainly. The first time Ego had coached him through summoning the light, it had felt more like an accident than anything. Like he had been stepping over a crack in the sidewalk all his life, and finally just stumbled on it. Then after that— yeah. He’d been enraged. Hurt and betrayed and reeling, terrified and desperate and racked with pain, and—
He cringes away from the memory near instantly.
But those times, he had purposefully tapped into it, had drawn it up like water from a well. This time was purely by accident, like he had tripped into a switch and suddenly it was just— there.
And he hated to admit it, but back on Ego’s planet, using the light had felt— right. It felt good, like a hot shower after being out in the cold, like flopping into bed after a long day. This, though, had felt like... nothing. And if anything, it had left him feeling weirdly strung out.
But maybe that’s because he’s on the verge of losing his shit over it.
Peter scrubs his face again, taking a shuddering breath.
Then, with feeling, ]
Fuck.