Before the park, before Kylo Ren, Poe wouldn't have hesitated to say yes.
He does now.
Does he really want to know? Does he want to know why she cried, does he want to know why she called him Captain, does he want to know why she's so unwilling to tell him about what happened? Yes. No.
How much knowing is too much, when you can't do anything to change it?
"I don't know," he says, each word like pulling teeth. It's a concession to the part of himself that suddenly wants to run far and fast from Amilyn Holdo, the only concession to that instinct he'll make. He grits his teeth hard enough to feel a jaw muscle twitch, feeling the impact of his back against the tree, and he does something he feels like he's going to regret just as much as he won't. "No."
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He does now.
Does he really want to know? Does he want to know why she cried, does he want to know why she called him Captain, does he want to know why she's so unwilling to tell him about what happened? Yes. No.
How much knowing is too much, when you can't do anything to change it?
"I don't know," he says, each word like pulling teeth. It's a concession to the part of himself that suddenly wants to run far and fast from Amilyn Holdo, the only concession to that instinct he'll make. He grits his teeth hard enough to feel a jaw muscle twitch, feeling the impact of his back against the tree, and he does something he feels like he's going to regret just as much as he won't. "No."