When the song ended, Jace had gotten so caught up in the lyrics, the words that meant everything and were perfectly and painfully true, that he only then realized Alec had started playing with him.
He wasn't sure what to think of that. He had no idea what was going through Alec's head. And he already knew the answer to the one question.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
Alec couldn't love him.
Not the way he loved Alec. Not the way Alec loved Magnus.
It didn't matter. He couldn't say no to Alec. He couldn't and he wouldn't turn his back on him again. He was too late and he had to find a way to be okay with that or risk losing Alec and Magnus both.
"I was thinking....this Will or whatever his name is...I think you got stupidly jealous when Magnus talked about him...because maybe you worry you're not good enough for Magnus. But maybe Magnus worries he's not good enough for you, too."
He licked and bit his bottom lip.
"I've never seen two people fit together so perfectly. I know I've never seen you happier. And the way Magnus looks at you....you're both better than good enough for each other so stop worrying about what happened and enjoy what you have now."
He still wanted a drink, but for Alec he wouldn't go find one. Not to drown himself.
"You weren't angry when I said...what I said earlier. And you didn't try to stop me from leaving. I know I'm-I'm a lot of things that aren't good...just promise me one thing...you won't give up on me, Alec."
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He wasn't sure what to think of that. He had no idea what was going through Alec's head. And he already knew the answer to the one question.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
Alec couldn't love him.
Not the way he loved Alec. Not the way Alec loved Magnus.
It didn't matter. He couldn't say no to Alec. He couldn't and he wouldn't turn his back on him again. He was too late and he had to find a way to be okay with that or risk losing Alec and Magnus both.
"I was thinking....this Will or whatever his name is...I think you got stupidly jealous when Magnus talked about him...because maybe you worry you're not good enough for Magnus. But maybe Magnus worries he's not good enough for you, too."
He licked and bit his bottom lip.
"I've never seen two people fit together so perfectly. I know I've never seen you happier. And the way Magnus looks at you....you're both better than good enough for each other so stop worrying about what happened and enjoy what you have now."
He still wanted a drink, but for Alec he wouldn't go find one. Not to drown himself.
"You weren't angry when I said...what I said earlier. And you didn't try to stop me from leaving. I know I'm-I'm a lot of things that aren't good...just promise me one thing...you won't give up on me, Alec."