"Don't rush. Just...start a conversation." Jace suggested. And then laughed at the look on Alec's face.

He had no idea what he meant by green eyed monster, unless he meant jealousy, but given the context he doubted that. He also realized he didn't know what Alec meant by his less offensive ancestors.

Mangus probably knew.

Maybe he was the green eyed monster.

And maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you.

The words were so clear in his head. A song he'd found at the music store and had listened to far too many times he knew every note without ever having seen the sheet music.

He stopped half way through the song. "I can't remember the rest of the song. It's your turn."

He was starting to realize how impossible it was to pretend everything was going to be fine as long as he could be happy for Alec and Magnus. It didn't matter how he felt if they were happy. But it did matter and he couldn't let it. He couldn't ruin their happiness because he couldn't control his emotions.

"I like Gideon, but if you hate it..." He shrugged.