Slowly, Alec began to play a soft melody, another from a bygone era that Lily had taught him, while considering Jace's question. "I would have loved to be able to play Mozart whenever I wanted instead of when Robert and Maryse were away." A few more notes, ones that sounded melancholy for a moment before Alec forced himself to start playing something more lively. "I wonder if they thought music would make me more gay."
It was something Alec had wondered for awhile, considering some of the things Izzy had told him about their childhood and his own memories. Robert may have apologized for his behavior but that didn't wipe away years of neglect and making Alec feel like less because of a preference he had been terrified to put into words. "I might have met Magnus. From what he's told me, he dated Mundanes more than Downworlders and he never dated Shadowhunters until me." Laughing softly, he glanced over at Jace. "Being a Mundane might have made him more willing to date me."
But they would have had the same problems. Immortality would have been the third person in their relationship. "If I wasn't Nephilim, I also wouldn't have met you. You would have went to another family or I would have been part of a mundane one instead of a Lightwood."
The music shifted to something slower, simpler, while Alec debated different answers. "I'm not sure. I wouldn't have hidden my love of music. I might have learned another instrument. Maybe I would have went to college like Izzy." Which he didn't remember but it was obvious that she had attended at some time. "Maybe even have a Mundane job." Shifting so Jace could begin to play if he wanted, he gave his parabatai a curious look. "What would you do if you could make any choice? We can do almost anything in this world."
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It was something Alec had wondered for awhile, considering some of the things Izzy had told him about their childhood and his own memories. Robert may have apologized for his behavior but that didn't wipe away years of neglect and making Alec feel like less because of a preference he had been terrified to put into words. "I might have met Magnus. From what he's told me, he dated Mundanes more than Downworlders and he never dated Shadowhunters until me." Laughing softly, he glanced over at Jace. "Being a Mundane might have made him more willing to date me."
But they would have had the same problems. Immortality would have been the third person in their relationship. "If I wasn't Nephilim, I also wouldn't have met you. You would have went to another family or I would have been part of a mundane one instead of a Lightwood."
The music shifted to something slower, simpler, while Alec debated different answers. "I'm not sure. I wouldn't have hidden my love of music. I might have learned another instrument. Maybe I would have went to college like Izzy." Which he didn't remember but it was obvious that she had attended at some time. "Maybe even have a Mundane job." Shifting so Jace could begin to play if he wanted, he gave his parabatai a curious look. "What would you do if you could make any choice? We can do almost anything in this world."