[ Cisco smiles when Genji points out his grey hairs, and it's a touch fragile, but it's a smile nonetheless. ]
Uhh, how dare you speak to your elders like that. I was born in the same decade as your grandpappy, remember?
[ He hadn't been referring to his actual age, of course, or even anything that could be seen from the outside. After he'd gotten that photo album, at the center of the ice maze, he'd spent time looking at the old pictures of himself to see if there was any sign of the fact that he was an entirely different person then than he is now. But even putting the pictures side by side with new ones, he hadn't been able to find anything. ]
I don't know. I hear you about the 'no lost causes' thing, I really do, but I'm pretty sure I've some sort of sports allergy. Or curse. Or something. I don't think all the training in the world could make me not suck at them, even if I did care, which I gotta confess, I really don't.
[ Cisco listens to Genji's words, feeling a tiny flutter of hope in his chest. It seems too good to be true: that someday he might stop and realize he'd truly come out the other side of it, that he'd not only survived, but moved on, apart from it. And perhaps it is possible. He's come this far already. ]
I... really hope so. Even if- I mean, I wanna make progress, and all of that, but I'm not really looking to do the whole forgiveness thing. I don't know, maybe it would be different if it was just me, but... the person who made me this way, gave me the um, powers and also the PTSD, didn't just hurt me. He hurt the people I care about. And a ton of innocent people I've never even met, who matter, too. So if that was gonna be a big part of the lesson, uh, probably should mention it's... not really on the table.
[ Cisco is extremely hesitant, saying all that, in halting fits and starts. Not only because it carries with it the usual difficulty that he always has, talking even obliquely about Eobard Thawne, but because he worries that Genji will look down on him and see his refusal to even consider forgiving as a kind of moral failing. Cisco had heard far too many sanctimonious speeches, growing up, about the virtue of complete forgiveness, no matter the circumstances. It only seems natural to him, that somebody like Genji would think less of him, for not immediately forgiving. Cisco examines his face for any signs of disappointment, or scorn. ]
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Uhh, how dare you speak to your elders like that. I was born in the same decade as your grandpappy, remember?
[ He hadn't been referring to his actual age, of course, or even anything that could be seen from the outside. After he'd gotten that photo album, at the center of the ice maze, he'd spent time looking at the old pictures of himself to see if there was any sign of the fact that he was an entirely different person then than he is now. But even putting the pictures side by side with new ones, he hadn't been able to find anything. ]
I don't know. I hear you about the 'no lost causes' thing, I really do, but I'm pretty sure I've some sort of sports allergy. Or curse. Or something. I don't think all the training in the world could make me not suck at them, even if I did care, which I gotta confess, I really don't.
[ Cisco listens to Genji's words, feeling a tiny flutter of hope in his chest. It seems too good to be true: that someday he might stop and realize he'd truly come out the other side of it, that he'd not only survived, but moved on, apart from it. And perhaps it is possible. He's come this far already. ]
I... really hope so. Even if- I mean, I wanna make progress, and all of that, but I'm not really looking to do the whole forgiveness thing. I don't know, maybe it would be different if it was just me, but... the person who made me this way, gave me the um, powers and also the PTSD, didn't just hurt me. He hurt the people I care about. And a ton of innocent people I've never even met, who matter, too. So if that was gonna be a big part of the lesson, uh, probably should mention it's... not really on the table.
[ Cisco is extremely hesitant, saying all that, in halting fits and starts. Not only because it carries with it the usual difficulty that he always has, talking even obliquely about Eobard Thawne, but because he worries that Genji will look down on him and see his refusal to even consider forgiving as a kind of moral failing. Cisco had heard far too many sanctimonious speeches, growing up, about the virtue of complete forgiveness, no matter the circumstances. It only seems natural to him, that somebody like Genji would think less of him, for not immediately forgiving. Cisco examines his face for any signs of disappointment, or scorn. ]