( it is about loki, it's just so much easier to get someone to open up if he's stupid and opens his mouth first. this part isn't about him--but it got words out of loki that billy isn't sure he would have gotten out of him otherwise. )

I'd rather know than have this. . this thing between us. I'm sorry I don't remember any of it. Honestly, I wish I could fix it because it's weird having people remember and know me when I don't know them. I mean--no, I don't share that history with you anymore, but it does mean something to you. And even if you think it's not fair to shove it onto me, I still want to know? So it's not like I'm an unwilling participant.